Popping in my headphones to block out
all of the surround sound.
Take the background noise away
as I drown in the sound that keeps me sane.

"Wishing you would hug me but I pushed you"

Walking down an empty block late at night,
the feel of tears wanting to rain down on my face as I hear these lyrics.
Stuffing my hands in my pockets,
I listen.

"If I endured everything, would it be different?"

Leave me alone.
Why are you bothering me?
Why do I have to feel these stupid emotions,
just lingering onto the thought of understanding?

"Hold them tight on that particularly sad day"

Hold on tight to what?
I have nobody.
Everything and everyone I once knew have
left me.
Everyone one I ever cared for.
Gone.

"We have to live through the time and be forgotten"

Be forgotten.

Right.

No one even remembers me anyways.
Atleast not the real me.

"We were in the loop of arguing and regretting like crazy."

Why can I relate to this but at the same time not?
It doesn't make sense.
I hate myself.
As I let my tears fall,
walking down the block on this chilly night.

"If I endured everything, would it be different?"