Chapter Nineteen
hey mom, it's me

3rd Person POV

Indiana got on the couch and she stared out of the window but she didnt know if it was in fear or preparation.

"diana" marcus said and she lifted her head as he sat down next to her and grabbed her hand, yes she was mad at him still but in that moment , she needed him more then anything and she knew that.

"youre still mad at me" he stated and she sighed as she leaned her head on his shoulder and then shook her head

"i'll move on, right now I just need you" she said and he nodded as he kissed her forehead as they sat there and waited to get to the show arena. Indiana for once in her life could admit that she actually needed someone. the stone girl hated to admit it, she was independent but at that moment what mattered was the fact that it was her and mac.

she stared out of the window as she put her headphone in and gave the other to Marcus as she played the neighbourhood on spotify and he smiled at her. He knew that she loved them more then any other band, they were her favorite to say the least. They got to the arena and stood up

"junior nationals are horsesome" Becky said and Indiana laughed

"anyone see zoe?" Maggie asked them

"she'll make it bright fields is depending on her" Jade said and they all stood up to walk off the bus

"thanks for driving zoes mom, that classical music was super inspirational and calming" Callum said and Indiana scoffed as she grabbed marcus's hand and she walked off the bus with him and she looked around.

"you've got this, its you and mac. all you'll ever need" He said and he kissed her forehead as she smiled and nodded

"and you, ill always need you" she said and she leaned up as she kissed him and he kissed her back with a smile. he felt okay in that moment, he knew that they didn't hate each other and even though they hadn't talked about it , they were okay.

she walked to the trailer and she looked at Mac and then the others. she climbed into the trailer and she unlocked the lead from the side as she led him out of the trailer and into the barn. she kept his coat on as she put him in and nodded. she leaned against the wall as she grabbed the brush from her bag and brushed through her hair. She looked at mac and then at the ground and then at her phone

"I have a long overdue talk with someone, ill be back" she said to mac and she walked out of his stall and to the field. she made sure that no one was around before she sat on the ground and ran her hand through the grass

"hey mom, it's me. to be quite honest, I've lost track of how long you've been gone but maybe that's a good thing. I know that I won't ever forget you but forgetting how long you've been gone scares me. I just wish you were here because I can't talk to dad about this. I and Marcus are finally together but he didn't tell me the truth about the academy and it's weird, I thought that I would've been the first person to know but I wasn't and it feels weird and I feel alone. I know that your relationship with dad wasn't the best but I don't want my relationship to be like that and I don't want to feel like that, you have always known what to do or what to tell me and I just wish that you were here now to tell me what I'm supposed to do. I just thought that you should know. I know that telling you would be easier if you were here but it's the best I can do for right now. I miss you more than anything and I know that tomorrow while I'm out with mac, you'll be there with us and you'll be right by our side. all I can say is I hope that you'll be proud and I miss you more than anything. you are the thing I need and I will always need you. I just wish you were here to see me do this and I wish you were here to tell me that I'm ready for this and to not be scared because to be quite honest, I am scared. i am completely and utterly terrified of whats going to happen tomorrow and I don't know how to tell anyone that.I miss you mom. I have to go. I love you" she said and she got up from the ground she turned and saw mia there wiping her eyes

"mia? how much of that did you hear?" she asked and mia shrugged as she sighed and continued to wipe the tears from her eyes.

"since you told her about Marcus, I never knew that you talked to her. does she respond?" Mia questioned and Indiana scoffed

"are you making fun of me?" she asked defensively, the only person who had ever been around to see her talking to her mom in that way was Marcus. It took a lot for her to make him forget it and she didn't want to have to do that with someone else.

"oh my god, Indi no. I do the same with my mom, shes not around and you know the relationship with my dad. Its hard to tell him anything and I just wish that I could talk to my mom" mia said and Indiana nodded

"I get it, was it hard telling him about you and Marcus?" Indiana asked and mia shook her head

"no but I don't know how I'm going to tell him about me and zoe" She said and Indianas eyebrows rose at the confession

"You and zoe?" she asked and mia blushed wildly

"yeah , don't tell anyone" Mia responded

"I wouldn't do that to you mia and to answer your question , yeah she answers sometimes and I always hear her. it helps me more then I thought it would" she said and she smiled at mia as mia smiled at her and then wrapped her arm around her shoulder

"she'll be proud of you no matter what indi, you're an amazing rider. now lets go" she spoke and Indiana smiled as they began to walk back to the stalls. Indiana saw zoe and Marcus talking and she smiled. it was ironic in some sort of way, Indiana and mia and zoe and Marcus.

it was odd seeing the two friendships but Indiana wasn't mad , she was happy and in that moment whatever was going on between her and Marcus didn't matter anymore because she was happy and nationals was the other thing running through her mind.

Indiana stone was ready for the next day no matter what and she knew that. the fear only made her stronger and that's what she needed.

and for right now for just a moment, everything is perfect.

-ABBYS NOTES-

me making friendships happen and relationships happen that you never thought you would see is my strong suit