I'm the one I should love in this world

April 30th, 2018

Jin opened his apartment door slowly. He looked around the living room, taking in every detail. The vase of lilies on the side table that Victoria always knocked over. The mirror he would admire himself in, but only saw his flaws. The grandfather clock that he could hear ticking when he went to sleep at night. The couch that he and the others had found Jungkook sitting against when he had fought Yoongi on New Years.

Finally, he closed the door behind him, another epiphany settling in. He had to find another apartment. There were too many memories there. Resolve gave him a comforting pat on the back, though it did little to calm the ache in his heart. He couldn't truly begin his journey until he was rid of the apartment. The truck. Seoul.

He thought he'd take a trip. Somewhere peaceful where he could relax and focus on himself. Though he missed his friends deeply, Seokjin knew what he had to do. He wasn't running, he was creating new memories. He was finally going to learn to love himself, and in doing so, he could truly love others.

If we can turn back the clock, where should we go back to? Once we reach that place, can all our mistakes and errors be undone? Will happiness be ours to stay? Though many seasons pass, there are places that cannot be reached. Yet another storm to pass and be weathered head-on. Loving without fear. Hesitating and parting. Merely living as the person I am.