"Are you okay?" It was an odd question coming from Jaemin. Although, the blond haired boy doesn't need to know that right now.

He could not help it, he had to ask Jeno about his state today. The latter has been spacing out to his own thoughts since this morning.

He's wearing glasses right now, eyelids blinking slowly for a moment before frantically blinking his eyes open again as he loses track on the book in front of him.

Today is a half-day for them, Jaemin was supposed to go meet up with the others but had to cancel last minute when Jeno asked him out for a study date.

Which brings us here: Jaemin and Jeno sitting across from each other, occupying the library in Jeno's house as they are finishing up some homework.

Jeno blinks up at him, "huh?" Scrunching his nose for a second before adding: "just tired." Which in cue, was followed by a yawn.

"Did you not get any sleep last night?" Jaemin pried, taking a break from his own homework.

Jeno shrugs his shoulders, rubbing his left eye harshly, making his glasses crooked on his face. "I had a nightmare... 's all." He slurs a little, no effort to fix his glasses.

"Then why are we studying and tiring yourself out more?" There's a pity chuckle escaping Jaemin's lips as he stares at Jeno ridiculously.

"I wanted to get my work done and spend my time with you, hyung..." Jeno replies. "It's a good timing too because it's just us here."

"Where's Yeeun?" Jaemin asks, just realizing Jeno's elder sister is not home yet.

"She's with Mom and Dad for a business thing, then she'll be going on a date afterwards. So we basically have the house for ourselves until dinner." Jeno explains to him with a cheeky smile.

"You planned this out." Jaemin muses, he doesn't know why but he likes the thought of it.

The giddy feeling increases when Jeno flashes him a wink. "Maybe." Snickering quietly, he licks his bottom lip. "What else could I have done? Throw an opportunity away?"

"You're getting way too comfortable recently." He manages to make it sound like a joke, the blond haired boy giggles in response.

But Jaemin tries his hardest not to seem bothered by it. Because really, it does concern him in some particular ways.

His thoughts bring him back to Renjun's small warning, proceeding to imagine the possible scenarios if things went... South.

He shivers a little, rubbing the birthmark on his wrist from under the table and feels it prickle weirdly, a little hot too.

Clearing his throat, he says, "also, we shouldn't be studying... You could have at least told me and we could plan something else on another day."

"But that would be too long." Jeno whines in disagreement, "today is just a perfect timing! School is a half-day, my family is out, we're free!"

"Not with you dozing off every minute." Jaemin tuts, "seriously, you should've took a nap or something."

"I'm fine, but thank you for your concern, hyung." Jeno smiles sweetly.

Jaemin swallows hard, blinking at him as he lets out another yawn. "How about we watch a movie or something else?"

"Again, you're planning things while you're sleepy." Jaemin deadpans. "How do you expect this to go swimmingly?"

Jeno laughs loudly, shoulders up as his face scrunches in pure joy for no reason. "I just want to spend time with you!"

"Well it isn't a good idea to do it when you're tired."

"I'm not tired!" A yawn escapes Jeno's tight lips, pouting afterwards in defeat and embarrassment when Jaemin rolls his eyes.

"Okay, whatever. Let's just finish our homework then if you don't want us to do something else." He grumbles.

Jaemin snatches the pen in his hand without thinking. "Fine, we'll watch a movie." He gives in.

He doesn't explain as to why– pretty sure Jeno wouldn't listen anyway. The latter beams at him and messily piles his things on his closed book.

Little does Jeno know, Jaemin gave in to the idea to purposely get Jeno to sleep.

Instead of doing homework and answering subconsciously, also wasting their time on their little study date, Jeno can catch up on his sleep with Jaemin there.

Just so he wouldn't be upset. Jaemin tells himself while entering Jeno's bedroom.

They make themselves comfortable on Jeno's bed, laptop placed on Jaemin's lap as the blond haired boy cuddles up to his side.

"If you're really tired, just go to sleep." Jaemin says after hearing another yawn beside him.

"I don't want to go to sleep." Jeno mutters, glaring up at him.

The ravenette boy clicks his tongue. "If you're thinking that it would be a waste of time to sleep on our date, it's not. I'd much rather have you get some sleep instead of keeping up with me."

Jaemin swears he could practically see his friends raise a brow at him if they ever heard of this.

Even if he will just excuse it as "it's part of my acting for this assignment." They wouldn't really believe it, especially Renjun and Donghyuck.

"If I fall asleep, will you leave me?" Jeno asks quietly and... Sadly?

There's a pause, and suddenly the audio from “She's The Man” is too loud, Jaemin could barely pay attention to one of his personal favorite scenes.

After a beat, he finally shakes his head a little, his cheek brushing against Jeno's blond locks. "No... I wouldn't leave you."

I don't think I have a plan on doing so. He wants to say out loud, wants Jeno to hear, wants him to know.

But he can't.

Because as much as Jaemin hates it, he knows it's too complicated. He realized it long before Renjun told him.

He feels Jeno's lips press against his jaw, kissing him softly there as he mumbles something Jaemin didn't really get to hear.

Because not only was the audio from the movie was loud, his heart and his thoughts are way louder.

Jeno dozes off easily, and Jaemin doesn't even have to look to know when Jeno's soft snores are heard, his small puffs of breath fanning Jaemin's collarbone.

Jaemin's phone buzzes several times throughout the movie, after he checks it, he shakily ignores the contacts, ignores the negative thoughts as he pulls Jeno closer to him.

I'm sorry...

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