January 1st, 2015

         "I always felt the 'new year' vibe was always ridiculous; striving to be better than you were the year before, I never bothered with it. But this year, it is different. I've made it clear to myself that I will be a better person, a better man, and better to O. Since coherent, I've never done any wrong to O it seems, but that doesn't mean I've done everything right.

        You're out on the balcony watching with sheer fascination as the fireworks are going off all over the city, and the world. I'll always do right by you, O, you deserve that and more from me and from the world. I know sometimes you think you are simply another person on this planet, without any knowledge of who you are... I see you struggle with that frequently. But you are more than just a face in the crowd, you're the face that glows through the crowd, standing out among everyone else. Maybe that's just the way I see it, but I doubt that. Everyone adores you, everyone loves you. It pains me to know that you had made friends back in Washington, that you were friends with a man who was once my best friend, and I took you away from that. Maybe one day I will right that wrong by going back there, although I'm not sure I'll ever be ready for that.

        But if I'm going to do right by you, I have to start somewhere."