I throw myself on my bed and cry as hard as I can into my pillows.
I just killed my "dark side". I felt like a monster and I didn't want to feel that way but just knowing no matter how evil a person may seem they have some sort of emotions and can redeem themselves. My "dark side", ever since we were small children we were together and we loved each other and played together every day.
Then one day something went wrong and she was no longer the person I once knew as a young child. She had a heart of ice and a murderous glare which was something I never saw. It was on that fateful day that when I visited "our" mindscape that I saw that everything had changed. Our mindscape that was once a field of flowers with many trees that had a wooden swing hung on them changed into a battlefield filled with new or decaying bodies of our loved ones.

I don't know what brought the change in her but she must have been going thru some sort of trauma. Maybe it has to deal with the day I killed and injured all my classmates.

It scared me that she turned well, evil. I thought we were always going to remain good but apparently not. Even now as I lie here crying into my pillows I am still thinking of her. She was the one person I relied on for emotional support before everyone else came into my life. she was always there for me thru thick and thin...no matter what.

I miss her so much. She was the one I called my "sis". it's hard to loose the person who was beside you for most of your life.

It was then I heard a gentle knock at my bedroom door accompanied by a muffled words.

"go away...I'm not coming out...so just go away."

more tears fell out from my eyes and dripped onto the pillow below.

(Ms.Kellogg and mrs.whitty's pov's)

"Layla? just please come out. We know this must be hard for you but she was going to end up killing us and you. I'm sure you didn't want that...you wanted to protect us right?" we asked softly.

(Layla's pov)

"Their right I did want to protect them but I also wanted to save her...save her from the darkness that seemed to keep eating away at her but I ...FAILED.

As much as my heart wanted to save her my mind took over and said; "To protect the ones I love I must destroy the evil within." She just happened to be that evil. It wasn't fair.

I sighed and took a deep breath before saying; mrs.whitty,ms.Kellogg...this was a fight that I could win but a battle that I could not conquer...I was so close yet so far...if you can figure out what this means I'll come out if not then, oh well. I told them softly.

(Mrs.whitty's, Ms.Kellogg's pov)

Figure out what it means? Layla! stop acting childish and just let us in so we can talk to you! we know your better than that! you've always been the joy in our lives! You have always been the one to give us the love and compassion that we wish we would be able to see in others! You always have had a smile on your face and always had a hug ready for us in the morning, or any time of the day even when you knew you weren't at your best yourself but you didn't care and pushed your way through the crowd of obstacles that surrounded you and you always dug yourself out of that ditch and made a negative situation positive and made everyone around you happy. We have never met someone as unique as yourself so please let us in.
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(Layla's pov)
I slowly lifted my head off my pillows and just stared at my door as if I was in some sort of trance and just sighed knowing what they were saying was right. I usually was better than that. I sighed deeply this time and begrudgingly walked over to my door and unlocked it and opened it to see the two faces of my worried teachers.
They enveloped me in a hug and stroked my hair. I just sighed trying to hold back my tears but knew i couldn't and so in the end I just let them fall.
For what seemed like hours they were holding me and telling me it was ok and that I did the right thing.
Even though i felt terrible I knew that they were right and that me crying about it wasn't going to bring anyone back so I just buckled down, bit my lip , and wiped back my tears.
(Mrs.whitty and ms.kellogg's pov)
Better now layla? If so then let's go eat dinner. We made your favorite!
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(Layla's pov)
I looked up at them with my now lifeless eyes and just nodded my head as if saying "yes" and ushered them and myself downstairs to the dining room where everything was set up for dinner.
I smiled seeing as I hadn't had to do a thing and I sat down in my seat while Mrs.whitty and ms.kellogg took theirs.
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(Guys letter rule again L=layla,W=Whitty,and K=kellogg)
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L: Mrs.whitty,ms.kellogg I want to talk to you about something...
K+W: what is it layla?
L: I...I want to go into my headscape for a bit and ya know wondered if you would umm..take care of me for a bit?
K+W: of course we will layla. How bout after dinner you go change into your little items and you can slip? Hmm?
L: a-alright!
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I smiled happily as I ate my food as quickly as possible and when I was done I cleaned my area and rushed to my room to put on my "stuff".

My two teachers called out to me from the other side of my door and asked if I was done yet. I just smiled and opened the door.

I came out wearing a lavender colored bunny onesie and holding my two adorable little biscuits in my hands.
That night we played many games and watched many movies. When I got sleepy they put me to bed and said good night.
It was later that night that I woke up from a nightmare.
(Surprisingly enough I didn't wet the bed!)
I screamed. They came running into my room to see what the problem was...
K+W: layla?! What's wrong?!
L:n-nightmare...
K+W:oh...it's ok. Come on layla! Alleoup!
Mrs.whitty carries me over to their room and puts me in the Cott.
W: there you go. Want me to sing you a lullaby?
I nodded my head yes.
W: alright.
(If anyone of you can get this or know where it's from I love you! XD)
You are the oceans great waves~ destined to seek life beyond the shore just just out of reach~
Yet the waters ever change flowing like time ~
The path is yours to climb~
In the white light a hand reaches through a double edged blade cuts your heart in two~
Waking dreams fade away~
Embrace the brand new day~
Sing with me a song of birthrights and love~
The light scatters to the sky above~
Dawn breaks thru the gloom white as a bone lost in thoughts all alone~
Life is not just filled with happiness nor sorrow~
Even the thorn in your heart in time it can become a rose~
Sing with me a song of silence and blood~ the rain falls but can't wash away the mud~
Within my ancient heart dwells madness and pride~
Can no one hear my cry~
You are the oceans great waves~
By the end of that I fell asleep with a smile etched onto my face.
(End chapter)
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Hello my fellow readers I hope you like this chapter~ 8)
Well gotta go, till next time~ 8)