WARNING: Triggering Stuff, Trauma

Kaine knew the fear had never left him. The guilt, the overwhelming pain had never been expressed. He had hidden it all behind a grin, a smile, and went on with his life.

But now...

He blinked to let the tears out as he curled up in his room. The memories, now that they had been triggered, flooded out. 

"Useless!" 

"Pathetic!" 

BANG!

"How could... you....?" 

"Please don't die!" 

Blitzø was right. He wasn't loved. Anything he did would never end well. He was a mess-up, someone who always made things worse--

"Kaine?" 

He froze. 

That voice...

"Can I come in?" Loona's soft voice called out from behind the door. 

In this mess?! Never!

"L-Leave me alone!" he tried to keep a level tone, but it didn't work out and there were cracks seeping out in his tone. Stupid emotions! 

"You're... You're not okay, are you?" she asked. "I saw your eyes... And they... They looked so broken, so pained... so... regretful. But... why?"

"I-It's nothing!" his tone went hysterical. "Just leave me alone! It'll be gone soon! It always disappears!" 

"What are you talking about-- Wait, you think that pushing your trauma away will keep you from losing your mind?" 

He stopped. 

That was exactly it....

"You know it won't solve a thing, right?" she asked again. "Pushing your trauma isn't the best idea. I... I should know." 

Huh?

He heard the sounds of someone leaning against the door, and Loona continued, "The way I died...  isn't all that pretty. A long time ago... I was the daughter of someone really bad... So they hurt me and made me feel like a useless person... So much that I decided I couldn't take it anymore." 

His eyes widened. 

"But you know, when Dad took me in, he taught me, in his own awkward way, how to face the trauma correctly. He used to say, 'Every traumatic experience needs to be seen from a different angle.' He's right about that, honestly. The past will only come up if you keep on subconsciously pulling it back out. Don't give up, and keep going, Kaine... It... It hurts a lot when I see you hurting." 

"B-But your dad's right... I-I wasn't loved at all... My dad abused me... and when I killed him, my mom seemed so... so angry and sad that I had done it... So I did myself in... I'm just a brat after all..." 

"That's not true!" She yelled, and Kaine jumped, eyes wide. 

She then blushed, but said, "Y-You're the kindest, most caring person I know... A-And that's why... That's why I fell in love with you..." 

L-Love?

His eyes went wide. She... she loved him? 

"So... P-Please... D-Don't let the voices of the past control the present..." she whispered, and got up to walk away. 

But then the door opened, and she turned around to see her crush blushing madly under his tears as he surged forward and gave her a sloppily done, but feeling-fueled kiss. 

Once they separated, the two stared at each other, silence filling them....

Before they both blushed and looked away, though smiles had formed on their faces. 

And so, that day, Kaine realised that no matter how painful one's past may be, moving forward is important because you have someone out there who cares for you. 

And that's the most important part when it comes to trauma recovery; having someone who understands and is willing to walk the whole path while holding your hand. 

OcarinaDude13 it's done! I rushed it a lot, but I do hope you liked it!