Nope.

Nope, I'm done for, it's over, I'm through.

I can't even right now.

Like nah.

Sorry, I'm feeling super depressed and my "everything's gonna be alright" song doesn't do shit for me right now so...

Much crying and much uselessness. I should be studying french. I should be sleeping. I should be doing anything but being on Wattpad but this is sorta like my safe zone right now.

Just kill me, someone.

Literally been thinking about over dosing on L-Thyroxin but I'm scared it won't kill me and just make shit worse for me sooo... yay for me?

Ahhhh, why am I ranting? I promised I wouldn't... seems that I can't help it right now... I'm sorry...

At least I have art for you?

Also, this be my "everything's gonna be alright" song:

https://youtu.be/jHV-Q0-JujI

Here's the lyrics in english if you're interested:

[Intro] Yeah! And maybe, and maybe, and maybe, and maybe

[Verse 1] Had been wide awake with you, now I am tired Everything of mine what you are moving is standing still I am seldom out of words, but I am often quiet I know, you would understand this A We for the entire life, as sworn in the sand When we are going one time, this keeps existing We have often written, tried to divide time But just like now it often hurt

[Chorus] But maybe It is the opposite of sadness And maybe Missing is something like gratitude And that remains, oh that remains, oh that remains The opposite of sadness for me Ah you remain, you remain, you remain My opposite, opposite, opposite Of sadness

[Verse 2] Ey, we had been once, what many had never been We had been an entire kingdom Without fear and palace, without worries, without burden And without rules - everything free But just like now it often hurt

[Chorus] But maybe It is the opposite of sadness And maybe Missing is something like gratitude And that remains, oh that remains, oh that remains The opposite of sadness for me Ah you remain, you remain, you remain My opposite, opposite, opposite Of sadnessMy opposite, opposite, opposite Of sadness

[Bridge] Oh, and the memories turn into drops on the windows That are sweeping down slowly ANd the light breaks them into thousand questions Which I do not know the answer to

[Chorus] But maybe It is the opposite of sadness And maybe Missing is something like gratitude And that remains, oh that remains, oh that remains The opposite of sadness for me Ah you remain, you remain, you remain My opposite, opposite, opposite Of sadness

Of sadnessMy opposite, opposite, opposite