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Welcome for having an interest in my fanfic. First of all, this is Gin x Sherry fanfic. If you're not interested then please look for another fanfic. The most important thing I want to say is I am sorry in advance for my broken English and poor usage of vocab as well as bad grammar. English is not my first language and please bear with it when you see my mistakes.

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Everything is dark. She can't see anything in her sight. She hears the guns firing at each other. She can hear the helicopter from above. She smells nothing other than blood and gunpowder. Everything is chaos. She can't even move her body. She feels like she got stuck under something as she feels a great weight pressing down her body. She starts to realize what is happening.

It took her a while when she finally remember it. They got attacked by the FBI. For some reason, she got stuck under the debris. Judging by her status right now, she is so sure that she can do nothing. Even she tried so hard to move her body- hoping that she can escape under the debris, she knows she can't do it.

'So this is the end?' she thought to herself.

At the moment she starts to accept her fate which surely is death, she started to feel the weight that presses her down slowly gone. She adjusts her breath and takes a deep breath. She is still in a weak state.

Even she feels the weight is gone, she can't move her body- she still can't even open her eyes. She did end up pretty badly there. She thought that the FBI found her there and caught her- and the fact that she's still alive, it will advantage the FBI even more.

Even she got sentenced to death or forced to spill about the organization that she is currently in, she swear to herself that she will never say anything to them. Death might be her choice if they try to force her. The organization is the one that raises her. She is not going to turn her back to them. The organization has a special place in her heart.

When she prepares herself to confront the FBI, she feels like she's got a lift by someone. She let out some small groan as she feels the injuries affect her when she moves. At the moment, she is sure she's bleeding as she is getting pretty drained and getting weaker.

Still, her eyes remain close because she still doesn't have the energy to do so. She still is weak. She feels that she's in someone's arm. She just accepts her fate at the moment. She can't scream, she can't move her body, she can do nothing. She's sure this is the end of her life.

As she getting to pass out due to her blood loss, she suddenly feels hope that she's surviving this when she hears the voice of the person who currently carrying her.

She knows this voice so much. The deep voice that she always like. She feels so glad that he always come at the right time, the exact time. She can't be any thankful to him. Guess she owes him again this time.

"Careless woman"

She slowly smile and put her head tight on his chest before she passed out.

Gin.

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Haibara's eyes snap open from her sleep. She sits on her bed. She can see nothing except darkness that fill her room. Sweat trickling down her face even it is cold during the night. She only hears her heavy breathing and not the firing gun that appears in her dream.

She takes a deep breath and calms herself down. Her mind tries to catch up with the reality that she is currently in her room, and not on a certain battlefield. When she is finally in sync with reality, there's only one question in her mind.

Why?

She gets off her bed and slowly walks to the kitchen. She grabs herself a glass from the dish rack and fills it with water. Her eyes glance at the clock. It's 3 in the morning. She sits down at the counter and empties the glass of water. She stares at the glass as she still asks herself the question over and over.

Why?

Why did she suddenly dream of something like that? The fact that her dream earlier real made her feels worse and lost. It was her past when she was still in the organization, working with them- when she was still their top chemist.

That dream gives her a great pang in her heart. The feelings in her dream were real and she still feel them now. She tried not to recall about her past- that time when they got attacked by the FBI, but her mind refused to do so. The memories of that moment slowly fill her mind like a waterfall. It keeps coming.

She stare at the glass- deep in thought. That moment when she feels hopeless to live and starting to feel death. That moment when she feels useless to the organization. That moment when she feels helpless as she can't move- the only thing that she had in mind is only death. That moment when she still feels the affection towards the one who saves her life from tasting death.

She did feel grateful when she found out that she got saved by him. During that moment- when she was still in the organization, she not going to lie that she did fall hard towards that man. At the current time right now- she feels afraid.

She feels afraid- afraid too much that make her shake, tremble and even hard to breathe. She's not afraid of Gin. She's not afraid if he going to find her and kill her. She's not afraid that they might meet each other sooner or later. She's not afraid of any of that. Like the dream that she had a while ago, she feels afraid.

She feels that those kinds of feelings remain in her heart.

That dream got her as it is the reason that made her deep in thought during the night. Those feelings that she had during the past are slowly present in her mind and heart right now- all of it- helplessness, hopelessness, uselessness and also affections. She is afraid of the last one. She hates that the affections start to show itself right now- on this peaceful night.

She wants to enjoy the night and calm herself- and not to recall about her past. She tried so hard to keep the affection free in her mind and heart once she run away from the organization. She doesn't want to engage in any sort of that feeling.

At the current moment, she's afraid that she starting to let the affection free in her heart- or it already has. Or even for the worst part, the affection already grows and embrace her heart that she needs time to realize it. She is afraid of that.

Haibara shakes her head- to awake in reality and to stop thinking about those kinds of memories and feelings. She stands up and walks to the sink. She wash the glass and put it back on the dish rack.

Instead of walking back to her room and sleep, the girl walks to the lab and continue her work- which is the APTX-4869 antidote. She doesn't want to dream anything during this peaceful night again. She is afraid the dream will keep continue and made her recall everything from her past.

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