Haibara's eyes flicked open. Her heart beating fast and her sweat trickling down her body despite the cold night fills the air. She takes a deep breath as she tries to calm herself down. She hugs herself.

Her face becomes red as she recalls her dream, which is also her own true past. She shifts as she looks at the window- stares at the dark night. The dream was true. Every detail of it was true. Haibara's keep trying to calm herself as she recalls her dream.

She stays there for some moment before she goes outside to walk around the resort by herself. She needs time to clear her mind. She walks out of the room slowly- without waking Ayumi up. Before she goes, she stares at Ayumi. Ayumi did sleep well- Haibara feels a little envious of her because the little girl has a nice sleep.

Haibara walks out of the room and she starts to walk around by herself without knowing what time is it now. She still hugs herself as she walks. It is another peaceful night that fills the air. The breeze blows her strawberry blonde hair. As she keeps walking around by herself there, Haibara finds a place with a small pond. She decides to stay there for a while as she stares at the fish swim freely at the pond.

There are only sounds of water that she hears. She feels calm as she hears the sound of water echoing in her ear. She also can see the reflection of the moon on the surface of the water. Indeed, it's a peaceful and calming night.

As she stares at the pond, her dream slowly haunting her. She is lost in her thought again as she stares at the pond. She asks herself why in the world that certain past is the one that she'd dream tonight. Somehow, her heart did feel hurt so much at the thought of it. It was a dream about her first time- the moment when she give herself to him, the moment that he mentioned that she did cross the line.

She thought that was the best way to counter him but she was wrong. Maybe during that time she should just let him be sleepless that night and tease him if he ever feels sleepy and regret on the next day.

Haibara hugs herself even tighter- somehow, she still feels his touch on her body, the way he strokes he body and his hot breath on her face. The shrunken woman doesn't want to lie to herself that she did enjoy that night with him.

She still doesn't believe that he was her first time. She's not the type to fall in one's hand easily. Yet for her, Gin is different. She never regrets it as she did had a great time.

After that incident, she did felt some attachment to him- sometimes she can't resist him- they did have intercourse activity together a lot during their pasts. Yet, their relationship with each other is still unknown. She's not even sure what is their relationship as Gin never said anything to her.

They keep their relationship just like that- like a colleague with benefits. Sometimes, they did act like they are a lover. In reality, she doesn't know what their exact relationship is- except that they are actually partners when doing their tasks. Until the current time, she still wants to know what exactly their relationship was back then.

They did enjoy each other presence and they actually had a great time despite Gin being cold all the time. Actually, Haibara- or Sherry or Shiho is cold too. She also did notice that the two of them like kind of alike in terms of behaviour- they love to tease each other, they are stubborn and they are cold. They are kind of compatible and match each other.

Sometimes, she did win in his or her game and sometimes Gin did win too. Things that make a slight difference between them is that Gin doesn't hesitate to kill a person, as for her she'll slightly doubt to take one's life- even so, she needs to do that as it is the organization order or Gin's order.

She did hear that the two of them were often called as a 'cold couple' when she was still in the organization. She admits that the two of them often telling each other indirectly- and they will try to read one another. The two of them always love to give a hint to each other- even Vermouth did tell them that they are actually a match.

Somehow, Vermouth did try to interfere when she and Gin had a great moment- at the same time she did kind of support her. She is not going to lie to herself that she did missing the moment when she was still in the organization. She did spend most of her entire life in the organization- of course, she'll be missing some moments that she had there.

She clenches her fist and put it on her chest. She misses him. She misses a certain man with long, silver hair, as well as his cold eyes that always she looks and stares at. She misses his presence as they always spend their time together.

The shrunken woman doesn't realize that a single drop of water leaves her eyes as she stares at the pond. She notices that she's crying when she clearly can tell her eyes are wet. She cries during that night. She can't stop her own tears that night. Her heart hurts as well as her mind. She's hurting as she misses that certain main. She chuckle a little as she realized how dumb she is to miss that man.

Still, she can't stop her tears as she misses his presence and his touch. She feels like she lost her mind during that night. She misses their moment and the way they spend their time together. She feels that she wants him by her side.

She curses under her breath as she keeps blaming him for making her like this- he drives her crazy. She's sure he didn't give a single damn about her except to kill her right now.

Haibara feels dumb, she feels stupid how she can even have certain feelings for him. She keeps blaming him in her mind. She hugs herself tightly as she keeps her eyes at the pond to calm herself down.

Still, she can't stop her tears from escaping her eyes as the tears keep flowing.

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