Don't know what I'm not doing.
Warnings: Cursing, sexual and alcohol.
Ages: 18............? So legal because fuck America in the ass, the earlier I can have my vodka the better the culture.
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Stan'sPOV (I'll regret this chapter when I'm mentally sober.)

"Hey!"

I turn to him, smiling.

"Hi Ken."

He sits down, taking my beer.

"Bitch if you want some conversation, I'm having this."

I laugh.

"Fair."

I get up to go get myself one now that Kenny stole mine.

"You've got a nice ass."

I laugh.

"Why what kinds words. Want a piece or something?"

"For sure."

I just roll my eyes and walk to the fridge, taking a beer.

"You're staying over though," i say.

"Aw, I think you wanna give me that ass."

"You know it."

Both of us are saying all this through huge amounts of laughter.

"Come on and sit here then."

He pets his lap but I just laugh and sit next to him, putting my head on his lap.

"Ain't this almost the same?"

"Good enough."

I smile at him yet again before drinking my beer. To be honest, you have to be really close to me for me to make these kinds of jokes. Well I'm really close with Kenny. Kyle too but Kyle is a different kind of close, he asked my consent to date Wendy when we were broken up for 3 years. Like a brother you know? I love him like he were my brother. We make gay jokes but there is no meaning behind it. With Kenny............... it's different. Way different. The comfort is different, like a different safe. I don't know how to describe what it is exactly. I just know he's the only one I have told these kinds of jokes to with the small thought behind it of..... maybe I do want to do that kind of thing. I'm definitely not straight, I'm not sure what I identify with but straight ain't it. I've liked guys. Haven't had sex with guys.... but I've thought about kissing them and holding hands with them, even did all that with a boyfriend (other than sex. He was ace) so I know I like guys.... I have definitely also thought about guys in a sexual manner. MANY times. I could deal with a bigender person. I could most definitely kiss and hold hands... i'm not just sure about the sexual side. Same with agender. But there are some I'm not so sure of. Gender-fluid? For sure! Give it to me! But there are ones I don't understand or just don't think I could have sex with. But hey, I've only had sex with girls.

"Hey Kenny. Have you fucked guys?"

"Most definitely."

"What is it like?"

Kenny laughs, drinking his beer.

"Fine. I would say fine. I prefer them to girls, that's for sure. Everyone's welcome. But I..... don't know, it's easier to please a guy. Do what would please you y'know. And they do what they'd like to be done to. Why did you ask?"

I sigh.

"I.... um..... I've never fucked a guy, I really don't know what it's like. I've wanted to but just never gotten to it, ever. I just want to know what it's like."

"It's different for everyone. Porn glorifies it, most definitely. But a lot of people put it down. Ah, it's hard to explain. When it comes to it, it's just sex...? I think. It ain't no fanfic level, you don't break but it hurts.... but then it feels good. Oh Goddamnit, it depends on which place you're playing. If you're down, it's SO different to straight. But if you're up it's technically the same but your partner is upside down and a guy."

I laugh.

"Nice explanation."

Kenny sighs and drinks again.

"How about I try to use the author way in this? Sex feels great, both of us know that. I'm not gonna ask about your sex life but you're not a virgin, I'm sure of it."

"Doesn't sound very author."

"Okay, fine, fine. I'm just gonna talk about it. Gay sex isn't different to it, it feels good, certainly. Ah fuck, I'm not educated enough to talk about it without glorifying or putting down. ARG!"

I laugh.

"Maybe I get a partner that would someday."

"I can, if you wanna."

"What?"

"Not familiar with friendly fucks?"

I just stare at him for a minute.

"Wow. I wasn't expecting you—."

"Do you want me to show you or no?"

"I swear I feel like you're gonna whip out a goddamn slip that reads the price or something."

"I'm not a fucking prostitute."

"I would not be surprised, honestly."

He rolls his eyes.

"I'm taking that as a no."

"Would have been yes actually."

He look shocked for a moment.

"Cat caught your tongue?" I ask, smiling.

"Wasn't expecting you to—."

"I'm surprising."

He laughs and just looks at me one last time.

"You sure?"

"Would I consent if I wasn't? If this is my only chance, fuck it, I guess quite literally."

He nods and just rises my chin slightly, kissing me. It's nice, nothing new really. If nothing else, if this happens again, this guy needs to care for his lips. It's nice and feels great but his lips are dry, something I believe is really not pleasant. Eh, I've always been like this, I like it. I would believe he didn't expect this, which is exactly same amount of expecting as I had.

"You prefer it kinky or vanilla?"

"Vanilla."

"Oh shit, you're the opposite of me then."

"I can tolerate kinky."

"No, I have to make it accurate. I'll just hold on until next time."

He gets up, puts his beer down and sits down next to me.

"Let's do this."

I nod and he takes me into his lap. I hate love being short just for this reason. I'm easy to push around and I'm easy to drag around.

"Say no whenever you want."

I nod and he takes my lips into a kiss yet again, using his hands to touch down. Well.... it's easy to know what, this is about sex after all. He's gentle....... surprisingly gentle. That's something I never expected of him. I break away just to say a word about it,

"Thanks."

He rolls his eyes.

"I'm not a monster. Your first time with a guy, I don't want you remembering it being really aggressive. Especially when it comes to it being with me."

I nod.

"That's...... Thanks."

He rolls his eyes, continue on. He goes closer to my, well, for lack of a better word, my dick. That's what leads me to moan because let's be honestly...... I haven't fucked anyone in about a year because I have a boring life. Business school, nothing else. Sometimes drinks with friends, I don't have time for finding a girlfriend, boyfriend or whatever.

"Well, I wasn't expecting you to be that easy."

"I'm, first of all, a teenager. Second, I haven't had any kind of non-friendly touch from other people in about a year. Third, fuck you, I never had any very good partners. So yeah, I'm easy, but I have reasons to be."

He laughs and just continues, catching my mouth to stop a moan from being loud. Fuck me, this is actually nice. Wait a second... how are we gonna—?

"So um........—."

"You noticed what I did... didn't you?"

Both of us just stare at each other before laughing.

"So we're either left with blowjobs or hand jobs or we both jerk off."

"Either way, we're gonna have sexual tension."

"We've always had some."

I kiss him, yet again.