I always wanted to look like this. But I was afraid of how my family would react. I would have doubts they would ever take me seriously or approve of me. Once I talked about dyeing my hair with Lauren and she thought it was a joke. She laughed and internally I felt like garbage. 

Mom would  complain when I wore too much dark clothing. One of the few comforts from being away from them is being able to really express and choose how to dress.

I stole hair dye during a Hellfire assignment and picked out clothes that looked awesome and were my favorite colors.

Now I finally embraced how I really wanted to look. I don't care about approval or other opinions.  This is me.