I know who my dad would save on impulse if me and Lauren were in danger. If he had to make a split second decision and act without thinking it would always be Lauren his little girl is more important then me the traitor. I wasn't even what he really wanted before I chose to leave. I was the frail disappointment   who didn't share any interest in law or football. I wasn't the son he really wanted or could bond with. I felt like I coward when I tried to live up to the hopes he originally had for me. But he has Lauren to make him proud.

And I'm the coward who won't do anything or speak