Lying in bed all alone...

It never bothers me normally but tonight is different. I lie here with my Teddy Bear...the only thing I can rely to keep me from feeling like I cannot cuddle at all.

The Trees outside the window are stood tall and strong against the blusterous rain. I hear the wind chopping through the branches in full force.

I think of how long this we be like this for me. No family and Christmas around the corner is starting the grain on me. I try not to let it get to me... but it does.

I am really missing my Charlie Bear at the moment too, the anniversary of her passing is approaching. I miss that Bulldog so much as of late. She was one of the most continuous souls in my life, a shadow for myself seldom failing to come to my aid.

Charlie was the only dog that I have ever known, to not be fearful of the common things canines are not into doing ever. She wanted to eat fireworks, attack motorbikes and lorrys... Don't ask okay she was a crazy girl!! She was a little tike, who always did the things you would never think she was even capable of doing.

One of her main priorities was coming with me whenever she could. She hated any time that I would go outside, even just to put the clothes on the line. I miss it so much that even now I still look for her. She had the same attitude as me which worked to our advantages. Together we has tenacity and nothing could stop us...

I know this is short but I will write about her again one day...

Thankyou for reading and honouring her memory!! ❤