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1. they said a fairy will be born when a baby smiles for the first time in their life.

and that's what yoongi is to jimin, his source of life.

even though humans can't see fairies, jimin still stayed as long and as close as he could with the boy.

jimin knew every smile of yoongi. because he was there when yoongi's second smile happened, his third smile, fourth smile, fifth smile,... well he lost count of it.

he could spot the differences between the smiles yoongi had when he's happy and when he's shy, when he smiled for real or just pretended.

jimin saw it too, the tiny smile yoongi hidden from everyone, just for someone special. it was hurt. jimin didn't know why that smile hurt him so much, and yet he still admitted that it was the most beautiful smile that yoongi had ever had.

jimin loved that smile the most.

but those smiles were soon gone when that person left and yoongi's smiles were replaced by tears.

2. they said a fairy will be born when a baby smiles for the first time in their life.

they also said that the fairy will be disappeared if that person lost their happiness and couldn't find their smile again. and their death will bring all your emotions with it, leave you empty.

yoongi was no longer the happy person, his smiles no longer reached his eyes, and jimin felt weaker and weaker through time.

no one knew jimin had wished to be the reason for all yoongi's smiles. heck, he couldn't count how many times himself. but right now, jimin just wished for yoongi's sorrows to stop.

he wanted to hug yoongi, to kiss his tears away, to tell him that he wasn't alone and will never be.

but that's a lie. jimin's strength slowly left him through the sadness in yoongi's heart and if it won't stop soon, jimin would be disappeared for good, but his death would take all yoongi's emotions with him. and maybe it was the best. yoongi might never smile again, but he would never cry neither.

maybe it's the best, jimin thought.

3. they said a fairy will be born when a baby smiles for the first time in their life.

they also said that the fairy will be disappeared if that person lost their happiness and couldn't find their smile again. and their death will bring all your emotions with it, leave you empty.

but they forgot to say that the only way to see your fairy was through your tears, by the deepest pain in your heart.

yoongi saw jimin the first time when his mother died.

he cried so much that day that he saw a pretty boy with pink hair, pink wings that look so fragile, cried with him in his dark room.

yoongi saw jimin again when he lost his trust in music.

music was his first love. but life was run in a ruthless way and all his trusts were just faded away like that.

it's nice to have somebody with you in your lowest stage, even when you can't see him probably, can't hear him, can't touch him.

it startled him when that pretty boy kissed him. he cup yoongi's cheeks gently, caressed it and leaned in, mouthed something that yoongi read as "it's ok, you will be fine".

yoongi wished he could feel that kiss.

so when yoongi saw someone on the street that looked so like the pink-hair boy he had seen twice, he ran to him immediately, hoping that those two times were just his imaginations, that maybe some magical things happened to make yoongi see him, that maybe, just maybe that the boy was real.

they dated for 2 years.

they were sweet and so in love at first. they made a dream couple in other people's eyes. but the thing was, their personalities were so alike until they became too alike.

their thoughts were different in many ways and they fought at everything and anything.

so "love" was replaced by "suffer". they didn't love each other, they were just suffering each other and tried to make it work. yoongi was the one who wanted to start this relationship but it's the boy who put an end for them.

yoongi was so broken. maybe he wasn't made to love and to be loved. but then he saw the pink-hair boy again. not the real-life one who just became his ex not so long ago, it was the boy with his fragile wings.

and it broke yoongi more than he thought he had already been.

was he too fool, trying so hard to love a person, but now it turned out that person was not even the right one?

or was he too crazy to keep imagining this pretty fairy?

but whatever.

if being in pain was the only way for him to see the boy, then it was fine. he could be in pain forever.

the fairy boy had been crying with him for so many nights now. yoongi knew he was being selfish for trapping this innocent fairy in the sorrows with him.

but having jimin hug him during those miserable nights was the only thing yoongi longing for right now. even if he couldn't feel his hugs, his kisses, his everything, and yet yoongi wanted nothing but to be drowned more in this pain just to have the feeling of the boy's present nearing him lengthen for some more.

4. days after days, nights after nights.

until one day, yoongi woke up and all he felt was just,

...empty.

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