I am not the same person
I was at seventeen,
stop looking for her
in the things I do -
they will never mirror
the life I lead now.

you may not
be able to see
all the scars
but I can still
feel them like
a hot iron
pressing into
my skin.

broken and bruised,
terrified of the life
I do live and
the one that
I wish I did.

it is time to
finally see the truth,
accept it
or it is time
to use the door
I will not wait
for you anymore.

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