Hi guys. I hope you're doing well.

Before we begin, I wanna quickly mention that this chapter is quite gloomy. I'll be mentioning about my mental health & some upsetting things currently happening in India. So, if you're not in the mood or sensitive or just don't like this, I totally get it. Please skip this chapter.

I usually write the Sunday chapters on that Sunday afternoon. However, this Sunday I have to be at my workplace 'cause of workload. So, I'm writing this ahead of my schedule.

Week: 9th July to 15th July 2023

Last week, I wanted to briefly touch on current situation of India. I'm still way behind in the news department. Let's get going.

This monsoon (seasonal reversing wind but it's used to refer the "rainy season") has hit hard on West & North India, which includes Gujrat, Rajasthan, Punjab, New Delhi, Uttarakhand, Himachal Pradesh. People are being evacuated from their home. 

However, according to a report from NPR, at least 40 people have lost their lives and countless have gone missing in the flash floods triggered by intense monsoon rains this year.

Many videos have gone viral and are being circulated on social media; I saw a video of houses made of bricks getting flushed away in the river currents. Bridges are getting crumbled and getting washed away. 

Now, coming to my state, West Bengal. Weather forecast says, "Heavy rain is just around the corner." I'm like, "Where? B!tch." But situation gets even more heated up when it comes to election time. For context, Political Violence during election times, is very common. However, this category of violence in WB, it gets way out of hand. People are brutally murdered in the Panchayat Election (Rural Area), being a polling agent or general civilian. Army companys are recruited for people. But, violence is still persisting. Speaking of Army, I saw a reel on Insta, where someone was asking, once famous (rather infamous I'd say) minister Madan Mitra, about the recruitment of Army in the Panchayat Election. To which he said, "আর্মি? ও সব আর্মি দিয়ে কিসসু হবে না। আমি আনবো BTS ARMY. 7 men" (lit. Army? That Army won't work. I'll bring BTS ARMY. 7 men) Now that's really WTF for me😂

However, things are getting in a downward spiral for Manipur. Our Prime Minister, Narendra Modi can address about the floods in the Northen India. Whereas he's silent about Manipur for more than 2 months. People are being burnt alive. Women are getting raped. But the mainstream media has closed senses when it comes to Manipur. Still, there's hope, I guess. People from small media houses are actually going there, on the ground, talking to the victims and giving us glimpses of the gut-wrenching reality of the state.

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Now, coming on to good stuff.

On 14th July 2023, Jungkook's single "SEVEN (ft. Latto)" got released. The digital single got released with 3 versions, Clean ver., Explicit ver. & Instrumental. Easy rhythm, easy for humming. But, if I were to ask Jungkook, don't do it every single day, seven days a week. That's not healthy at all.

On that day, ISRO (Indian Space Research Organisation) successfully launched Chandrayaan-3 lunar mission. I may save the story of ISRO for the chapter. But I really feel proud to see my nation's space agency is competing with NASA. Staring from humble beginnings, getting mocked by western media, and now getting praised by those same media. I'm proud of you ISRO🚀💗

When I was starting out as ARMY, I watched and read many fanfics. Some were good. Some were bad but enjoyable. Some were disturbing & ugly. Most of them had one thing in common. Their protagonist's name, Y/N aka Your Name. Honestly, "Y/N magic" would've worked if I were a teenager. But these Y/N stories gave me ideas, hopefully I'll work on them in the future. My ideas are like, "Y/N is villain in a story where the hero is *insert a celebrity name*". My stories often have a sad ending. But I'm hopeful that one day I'll write a happy ending that'll satisfy me.

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And now, on to something unsettling.

Even when practicing self-love, can you have negative thoughts?

Even when you don't give a f*ck, can you care for someone?

This isn't a rhyming attempt, I promise. I've heard that, you should set free the people you love. So, if I love myself, I should be able to set myself free, right? And if I couldn't do that, means I don't love myself, right? Do you get when I say, "set myself free"? Please note that, I'm in a good place right now. So, please don't worry too much. I don't want to draw any sympathy towards me. If you can empathise with me, I appreciate that.

Sometimes you'll want to have one person by your side, being it your parents, siblings, best friend, teacher, spouse, child, grandchild, grandparent; you name it. But they turn their backs at you when you need them the most. 

Do you know why wanted to learn different languages? Its because I wanted to write love letters to my anime crush without letting know anyone around me. Sadly, that never happened. 

I almost forgot to mention about Buddhu. Probably, it was Tuesday or Wednesday evening, I was focused on my work. Then, suddenly this song, "Sheesha ho ya dil ho aakhir toot jaata hai", rang in my head like ringtone. My sprit-guides told me that Buddhu is upset. But they didn't tell me the reason. I may never know. But I hope & pray that he's okay. I hope he gets to talk he's loved one.

So, that's it for today. I'm feeling tired right now. I'll go & get some rest.

I hope to see you in the next chapter.

Take care.