Nandini's Room :
It's night now..and till yet there is no news of manik..she is not able to understand..what to do..even she can't take help of Cabir to reach manik..as Cabir is out of town..and she can't give stress to him..aaliya and mukti are also not with her..all in all she is totally alone...
Nandini : "please kid..please just for once..share your pain with your maa..please..".. She said looking at their pic..in which manik is smiling broadly and she is adoring his glowing face...
Just then ..her phone start ringing again...and she instantly picked it up..and the name which flashed on her phone screen..made her smile and all her tears which were in her eyes till yet escaped from them..she wiped them off and answered the call...
Nandini : "manik!"..she said his name like she is enchanting it..like she had worshipped it in all these 7 months..there was a smile on her face..and she can feel his warm breath from the speaker ...she closed her eyes and let that silence come inside her..she doesn't want to listen his weep..and he wasn't crying..only this thought was giving solace to her..
Manik : " maa! "...he said in a very soft voice..and she instantly opened her eyes..and her eyes were all teary..she can feel the same intensity in his voice..don't know when this word..became her life..don't know when HE became Her LIFE...
Nandini : " am here only kid"...she assured him..about his presence...and he was only listening her voice..as her voice was providing only solace to him..which was much needed at that hour...at that moment..both are In need..badly in need of each other...
Manik : "mai ...I ..I..."... He wasn't able to say anything..ever time he try to say something..his own vocal ditch him...and one more thing was stopping him..and that was NANDINI herself..her silence..her calm attitude...
Till now..she didn't asked him once..where was he?..why he left her?..how could he ignore her like that?..she wasn't yelling..she wasn't shouting at him..instead of all this..she became her support system..when he is in need of her..she is standing right beside him..holding his hand tight..like she never left that hand..well!..she actually never left..it was he..who left her..let go of that only hand ...which was holding him back...
Nandini : " tumhe kuch kehne ki jarurat nhi hai.."..she said very calmly ...and her peaceful voice soothe him...
Manik : "mujhe maaf kar paogi?".. He finally asked ...as he knows he did wrong by leaving her just like that..without any reason..
Nandini : " kis liye maaf manik?"..she asked very calmly as she knows..there is some kind of conflict inside him...
Manik : "tumhe yuh akela chorkar jaane ke liye.."... His voice was so soft that she was feeling ..she is talking to some other person..its not the same manik..whom she met..1 year back..that manik..was such a lively person..but this manik is shattered..
Nandini : " tum hamesha mere paas the manik..hamesha.."..she tried to explain but he cut her in between..
Manik : "nahi tha..I should be there ..when you were in need of me..I shouldn't left you..".. He once again start talking in his guilty voice..
Nandini : " whenever I was in need ...you were there always..samjhe tum..you never left..tum the..."...she this time said in a strict voice...
Totally neglecting the real fact that is..he was actually not there..when she cried..when she yelled in those dark nights..when she used to weep in washroom under the shower..when she used to shed tears on every single memory of him...he was actually not there..
Manik : "you have a big heart Nandini...".. He suddenly said and she can feel a small smile on her lips..
Nandini : " no..I don't have a big heart.."...she replied with a weak smile...
Manik : "you have..".. He said in a voice as if he sealed that fact with a stamp..
Nandini : " acha..fir toh mere big heart mei bahut saare complications hone chahiye..as so normal size sei big hai.."..she tried to make him smile with her talks..
Manik : "nice joke..".. He stated but seems like he wasn't in mood to smile...
After talking a lot..both hung up the call..but in all this convo..she didn't asked him anything..as where was he..why he went..she was happy..that he is back..but at the same time..she was I'm utmost pain..as he is not smiling like the same way he used to..all this while..she forgot all her pain..she went through without him..the only thing which was bothering her was HIS PAIN..only HIS GRIEF...only HIS SADNESS.. only HIS SHATTERED STATE..this pure soul forgot totally about her...nothing is aching her other than HIS PAIN..not HER PAIN..
It's 3 a.m in night..she was sleeping...suddenly she heard the sound of her phone...and she lazily opened her eyes..there was a message..but the sender's name woke her up with a jerk..yes! The message was from Manik..
" I miss you.."...this mere message made her stunned..as manik never ever said this to her..
"Kya hua hai manik..".. She was not able to hold herself from asking so she texted back..
" kuch nahi..bye.."..his reply made her dejected..
"Acha..acha..am not asking..but please don't say bye.."..she didn't asked anything as she knows he will not tell anything right now...
" hmmm.."..his words were making her weak..but don't know how she was holding her tears back..she can't see him like this...
So she called him...and he received..as if he was waiting for her call only...
Nandini : "tum soye nahi ab tak?".. She asked this as asking something else can make this worse...
Manik : " neend nahi aa rahi thi.."...he said in low tone depicting his grief...
Nandini : "are..your maa is here na..I will make you sleep.."..she said after wiping those unknown tears which fell down from her eyes..feeling his pain..
Manik : " can you sing for me..I want to feel you with me..please.."..his painful pleading voice..broke all the patience wall inside her..she start crying badly but placed her hand on her mouth so that he don't listen her sobbing...she had never witnessed this much shattered manik...she had seen..angry..manik..happy manik..flirty manik..but shattered manik?...no..and she silently prayed that night...to give all his pain to her..and she will shed all his tears...but will never let him be in any pain..
Tum bhi tanha thay
Hum bhi tanha thay
Milke rone lage
Tum bhi tanha thay
Hum bhi tanha thay
Milke rone lage...
(She start singing..and he closed his eyes..listening her melodious voice..which was from always his favorite..she sung pouring all her love out..she time to time wipe her tears..so that her voice don't shake much..)
Ek jaise thay dono ke gham daga hone lage
Tujhme muskurate hain
Tujhme gungunaate hain
Khud ko tere paas hi chhod aate hain
Tere hi khayalon mein
Doobe doobe jaate hain
Khud ko tere paas hi chhod aate hain..
(she then lay down..side ways..hugging that teddy tight..while he hugged the pillow very tightly..she reminisced his carefree smile..his all the time flirty attitude..his angry look..his childish antics..a smile appeared on her lips..but then his this state faded away her smile..and tears brimmed in her eyes...)
Thode bhare hain hum, thode se khaali hain
Tum bhi ho uljhe se, hum bhi sawaali hain
Kuch tum bhi kore ho, kuch hum bhi saare hain
Ik aasmaan par hum do chaand aadhe hain
Kam hai zameen bhi thodi, Kam aasmaan hai
Lagta adhoora, tum bin har jahaan hai
Apni har kami me hum ab tujhe hi paate hain
Khud ko tere pass hi chhod aate hain
Jitni bhi viraani hai tujhse hi sajaate hain
Khud ko tere paas hi chhod aate hain...
(she sang while trying to ease his pain...making him believe..that she is incomplete without him..if he is in pain..then she is also not at peace..they both are incomplete..she really mean whatever she is singing..without him..every thing is incomplete around her..he was silently listening her..her voice actually giving him peace...but his this silence was killing her..)
She stopped while singing..as her voice is now ditching her..she just wanted to cry ..but she can't at least not in front of him..
Manik : "please don't stop..it was giving peace.."..he said as soon as he found her silent..
So she again start singing...
Do raaz milte hain, Humraaz bante hain
Sannate aise hi aawaaz bante hain
Khamoshi me teri, meri sadaayein hain
Meri hatheli me, teri duaayen hain
Ik saath tera ho toh sau manzile ho
Tanhaai teri, meri mehfile ho
Hum teri nigahon se khud me jhilmilate hain
Khud ko tere paas hi chhod aate hain
Tujhse apni raaton ko subah banate hain
Khud ko tere paas hi chhod aate hain...
(she start singing..trying to convey him ..that he can share anything with her without any second thoughts..only when they talk..only then they will be able to get rid of this killing silence..she looked at her palm...and start asking for all his pain to be written on those lines in her palm...and the shine..and happiness of her life..to be written in his destiny..right now..she completed the song..and when she listened carefully..she listened his breath..and she felt relaxed as he slept..)
So she hung up the call..after kissing on the speaker of her phone..as if it touched his forehead...
She looked upwards and said...
Nandini : "mai nahi janti..ki kya hua hai?..aur mai janna bhi nahi chahti..but please mere manik ko theek kardo..i want my smiling manik back..take away all the happiness of my life..but en-light his life please.."...she pleaded badly...
When we love some one to an extent..where we can't figure out what is the limit to it..then our pain become nothing in front of their pain..we start living in their pain..forgetting all the pain..which we went through..because of them..this is the called true love..where there is no conditions..where there is no limitations..there is only LOVE and LOVE..
Nandini : "kya humara rishta kabhi bhi theek ho paega?..kya tum sach mei ab nahi jaoge manik?..tum ab bas mere paas he rahoge na.."..she said to herself..still thinking that ..he will be with her or not..can their relationship be build back again...
She sat down on her bed and and picked out her diary..and start writing...
There is a beautiful weather outside,
but there is a pain, gloom somewhere inside,
all must be having fun in this foggy weather,
but today we are not together,
I still remember those beautiful morning,
when you woke me up and says good morning,
I know there is galore pain,
but trust me I don't have any complain..
In every minute my life is changing,
And am alone who is facing,
Are you really having guilt?.
Can that relationship rebuild,
I also want everything as earlier,
I wish everything will be fine by next year,
Please say, whatever you wanna say..
but promise me first..you won't leave me in mid way,
Don't know what is false..or what is true?..
I want to snatch all your pain..but unable to..
again, there is a beautiful weather outside,
but nothing is left inside...
(in this poem nandini mentioned next year because new year is about to come in next 6 days..)
She completed the poem..and placed back her diary..and start recalling everything again...
Nandini : "bahut kuch ho gaya aaj..please aaiyappa! make manik fine..please.."..she prayed for him..and don't know when dozed off...