....... i just hate myself for...even trying to... be happy when i cant ... why do i try... nothing helps... i tried...meds..... groups.... talking.... smilng.... hugs.... therpy...... i tried everything...... nothing is going to make things better... i try and make myself a better person... but who am i kidding it will happen...i will always be the same girl that is away from others... faking her smile ...tears... laughs... my mind....is losing it day by day... i dont know how much i can take it... why do i keep living when my mind is gone....... i will always be in pain... no one can help me... not even you guys.... i ask myself so many times..... why am i like this... what drove em into this madness of hell... i been in many dark places but the darkest place is... my mind

-Rosie