....last enrty for 2018........haha...sounds like an writing my death letter...maybe..one day.. but not today...but...hey.... lets make it till march... then i have more ..ways to do it.... ..its...almost been a year...since...he left...damn....this would have been our second xmas together..and new years.....but...who am i kidding..it...was..fake... i think about him sometimes.... i try calling and txting but...he..never...picked up......i look back at our old txts.... to make me feel better...but... he was never real