"I subsided my feelings, emotions, honesty and my duties!"

Continuation...

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A lone Tear escaped their eyes recollecting their heated argument, which left them alone yearning for eachother!🕊️✨❣️

It's a true saying, Never make crucial decisions when angry. The rage that clouds judgement fades and only its consequences linger thereafter!

Both Mohsin and Shivangi misunderstood eachother. One expected the other to share everything with her, while the other thought the most important person in his life didn't trust him.

'How will we resolve it now?!', both thought at the same time.

The one part of them wanted to run straight and hug him/her right away and the other part of them subsided behind the expectations!

If you want to lead a happy long term relationship, then remember nothing is bed of roses in love!

Well, everything is possible only if both the sides try their possible ways to make it strong!

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At Dehradun - Shivangi's home,

Meanwhile,

"I can't live without you, Mohsin! Please wapas aajao!", A lone tear fell off her eyes and then she started crying, missing him.

But somewhere something stopped her from taking a chance and her mind was clouded by the argument. They never had such a big fight in their 4.5 years of friendship... Oops relationship!😅🙂

"Girlfriend duties?! Yeah right?!", his words hurted her deeply.

Shivangi has spent her early 20's only with Mohsin and all these years, her days revolved only around him and that became the main reason for her becoming possessive of him!

"My fear has emerged out, despite knowing how much he loves me and takes care of me! But what about all those things he spoke in anger?!", her mind was playing with her feelings.

Heart: "Am I wrong to expect from him? I have the right!",

Mind: "But you lost all the rights on him already!"

Heart (Shocked): "Wh..what?! H..how? No it can't be"

Mind: "It's not why you've questioned him, but the way in which you have questioned him?!"

Heart: "I.. I don't get you?!"

Mind: "Isn't it clear?! You shouldn't have shouted on him just because you couldn't control yourself from bursting on him?!"

Heart: "It's you. My mind didn't work at that time!"

Mind: "atleast you could've talked to him calmly?!"

Heart: "Fine. I know I made a mistake. But please spare me right now!"

She wasn't ready to put herself in the situation to get a clear picture and kept subsiding her emotions and feelings.

"I love you Mohsin! I don't know how are we gonna reconcile. Urghhh", she held her head and cried herself to sleep.

The night passed and she fell asleep with tear sticken face, switching off her mobile thinking no one would call her. Only if she knew, who's gonna call her!✨

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At Mumbai - Mohsin's home,

Nothing was different with Mohsin's condition. He was also broken beyond repair and regretted saying all of those words to her.

"I know it's my mistake. I reacted much. I have hurt her. But.. but what am I supposed to do?! Everything just came out without my knowledge!", he ruffled his hair in confusion and punched his hand on the steel of the balcony.

"Ouchhh", he hissed in unbearable pain and slowly sat on the swing caressing his hand.

"I deserve this. I deserve more", unknowingly his tears started falling off his eyes.

"No you don't!", his sub-conscious mind argued.

"But I have hurt her!", his heart felt sad.

Mind: "Didn't she hurt you?"

Heart: "Yes, she did. But that doesn't mean, I should speak harsh to her"

Mind: "You are just not ready to see through?!"

Heart: "I did. Now I do"

Mind: "Didn't she doubt you?!"

Heart: "No. No she didn't doubt me. She loves me so much and that's the possessiveness, which reflected in her eyes!"

His heart swell over happiness and his mind felt defeated.

"Nobody cares for me like she does and I ended up reacting without thinking for a second. The mistake lies over both the sides! But I have hurt my bacha more!", he sighed deeply and his brimming tears shone in the moonlight!

Resting his head over the swing, he watched the moon in the darkness quietly.

"I miss you Shivi! Please wapas aajao!", he whispered looking at the shining moon and closed his eyes drifting into the deep thoughts.

All those beautiful times spent with her flashed infront of his eyes. He felt suffocated, without her. He got used to be surrounded by her. She was always there for him and took care of him all these years, without expecting anything in return from him.

"She took care of me as if I am a kid, she knew about everything that I need from time to time. She was always there to support me, love me without expecting anything from me!", he smiled thinking about his Shivangi!🌸❣️

"And.. and.. I termed her 'love' as 'girlfriend duties'?! No this is not done. What have I done?! Ahhhh! Why?! Ya Allah, what have I done?!", he gritted his teeth, trying to breathe calm.

Those flashes of him shouting at her and their arguments kept surging into him. He held his head and his eyes already turned red due to crying continuously. His commotion state was beyond imaginable!💔

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After few mins of fighting to himself whether to or not, he finally gave in to his heart.

"No.. no I can't. I can't let her go like this. I can't live without her. I need to meet her. Talk to her. Listen to her giggles. Crack jokes with her. Laugh out with her. I miss her and I love her. Please.. come back Shivi!",

he fell on his knees crying.

"But how? Will Shivangi hear me out once?!", he hesitated wondering what if she refuses to listen to him.

"What's wrong in trying though?!"

He immediately took out his mobile and dialled her number, he couldn't reach out to her as she has switched off. He tried few more times to contact her, but she wasn't available.

"Gosh! It's clear, she's very mad at me!"

In anger, he just threw his mobile on his bed forcefully.

"Well, when you are in love, you are put into so many hurdles and your strength is tested by God! But it's high time, I fix this!", he promised to himself.

"I am coming to get you back Shivangi!", he smiled with determination and fell off asleep, dreaming of good days ahead overcoming the subsiding emotions!!🌸❣️

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