"No one is free from something;
something will surely
be the reason for our actions!"

Continuation...

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Next day at Yrkkh set,

The whole day Mohsin did not meet Shivangi. He tried many ways to catch her, but either she ignored him or she was busy with her shots. He badly missed shooting with her. It was pack-up and he waited for her at her room. When she came, he quickly grabbed her hand and took her to his car.

"Mohsin? Where are you taking me?", he paid no heed to her and drove to the nearby place, where they usually visit to refresh their mind.

He pulled over his Mercedes at a spot and opened the door for her to come out. It was a pleasant climate and the greenery view calmed them down.

"Shivangi! Let me come to the point straightaway", he told her standing opposite to her and she looked at him with confusion.

"You alright Mohsin?", she didn't know whether that was good to ask him or did she needed that.

"Ask yourself! I know there's something bothering you!", he paused taking her hand in his and continued, "I hope you first relax and open up to me!", he hugged her in assurance.🌸🧡

His gesture was to make her comfortable in order to open her mind and waited for her reaction. She felt loved totally, but something striked her mind.

She pushed him off and said, "I wanna go back please".🥺

He frowned losing his cool now, "Enough! I am watching you for the past two days and you are ignoring me totally!".

He really needed answer but she stayed quiet pissing him off the edge, "No. Not just two. But ever since you came back from Dehradun, you have been ignoring me. You think I don't understand. Mujhe sab samjh aaraha hai. Lekin kyun?"

She didn't utter a single word and was looking down. His patience level reached its peak.😤

"Not today. Please Speak up! Why are you ignoring me Shivi? Why Shivangi?", Mohsin held her shoulder and shook her. "Bolo kyun Shivi, Kya kiya maine?"

That's it, hearing to him calling her lovingly as 'Shivi' she couldn't control her emotions anymore and bursted out, opening to him!

"Because I can't live without you Mohsin. I just can't anymore", Shivangi shouted with a heavy heart and pushed his hands off her shoulder, took few steps backwards, making Mohsin stand in shock at her sudden reaction. What he thought and what is happening!💔

"Shivi? Yeh Kya hua tume. I am right here", He again tried to hold her, but she jerked his hands off angrily.

She showed her hands to stop him from speaking, "Please Mohsin. Don't call me Shivi! Itne dino se toh mujhe Shivi keh kar toh nahi bulaya tumne!".

He didn't know what's going on, "What? Yeh.. yeh tum kya keh rahe ho?"

"Mohsin, you wanna know why I am avoiding you? You wanna know why I am staying away from you? Toh suno ab", she took a deep breath and spoke sharp, "Yes Because I can't live without you anymore and if it happens, I am afraid I will lose myself".

He didn't know how to react, whether should he be happy that she loves him so much or should he be saddened by her anger?! He has never seen her so vulnerable like this before. But one thing he knows for sure, she's definitely disturbed. Highly disturbed beyond his imagination. Otherwise she's not the girl to shout at him especially. But what's wrong?! He didn't have a single clue!🥺

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She continued, "Yes, this whole three months away from you totally felt void in my life. You became my regular habit. It's not that you weren't before, but during lockdown I felt myself getting more obsessed with you. I couldn't stop thinking about you even for a second. Everyday when I woke up, I searched for your shooting call date. When I sleep, when I talk, when I eat, everything  just remained me of you Mohsin. I couldn't help myself without you around. After spending almost 4 years day and night with your presence, I felt suffocated to even spend an hour without you!". (Fans: 🥺💔)

Shivangi poured out her heart weeping for the first time, making Mohsin dazed about her weird behaviour. But each and every word of hers felt like a stab on his heart to see his love, who missed him so much these 3 months. Even he missed her much, but he hardly expressed it and kept his love to himself. Instead he used to send her posts, selfies indirectly showering his love to not make her feel lonely, but he didn't know despite that she has been feeling miserable missing him!🌸🧡

She sobbed more and continued, "And at one point, when dadaji passed away on my birthday I really needed you beside me, so badly. I know you would've definitely accompanied me if there wasn't this lockdown situation. But at that time, I realized how much your presence meant in my life. Even when my whole family was around me and when it's just a family related thing, I only searched for you. I craved for your mere presence. I wanted to cry out loud and express my grief, but I couldn't. I just couldn't, as everybody were already broken and I had to take care of them. Be their strength, while I was weak inside. I realised how much, how much you meant to me. I just wanted you around me and nobody else! My life felt void!".🌸🧡

Mohsin got dumbstruck, was an understatement. Her words felt sharp of how much she loves him. To the extend, he can't even imagine. His throat already started drying up. He couldn't search for any words.🥺

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She paused to wipe her tears, expressing her vulnerability openly to him and continued, "Apart from that, even while giving live interviews, I just couldn't stop myself from taking your name, I couldn't stop myself from talking about you. All our fans got so happy, every time they watch our live sessions and when many things happened coincidentally in live. Many appreciated us and praised our bond, while some passed hateful comments".

She stopped and looked at him with tearful eyes, "I never gave a heed to those article or comments questioning our bond, but somewhere in this separation due to lockdown, I felt like these pinched me so hard and pained my heart. I wished you would atleast open up then, but no you kept ignoring things about me or skipped those. Maybe it's because of my age these thoughts are crossing my mind, but you are mature to understand and so you try to avoid many PDAs. Even I don't want it, but somewhere this 'acting to avoid eachother' from last year has affected me. It feels real at times, and not so private thing".

Shivangi took a step towards him and cupped his face, "JUST acting to avoid eachother felt more real Mohsin. It just didn't feel like a Private thing!". She repeated stressing on the two just to indicate how hurt she is!🥺💔

Mohsin closed his eyes and joined their forehead to calm themselves down. Both let the moment pass in the air. He held her hand, standing numb with tears flowing from his own eyes, not knowing how it react to her outburst and hurt guilty written all over his face. But was everything his own fault? No, It can't be!🧡🥺💔

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P.S. Talking the distressing emotions out and clearing the air. Will their misunderstandings subside now?

Guys, was it too emotional? Should I reduce the pace of outburst? Let me know.

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A/N: Thank you all! I am feeling bit better now. Guys, hope you all enjoyed this update. Share, Vote and Comment. Waiting eagerly for your responses! :)🌸✨