A/N Hamgelica angst. Cause no one said no.

Alexander was incredibly stupid, there was no way to deny it. He had fucked up beyond belief, and Angelica wasn't having it. 

"What do you have to say for yourself, Alexander?" her voice was quiet, shaking as she tried to stay calm. "You published this pamphlet, ruining our lives, breaking Eliza's heart, breaking my heart..." she looked him dead in the eye. "The Hell is your excuse this time, Alex?"

"I-It was a political sacrifice..." he squeaked out, knowing that was no goo excuse.

"Sacrifice?" the Schuyler sister felt her heart drop as she let a tear slide down her cheek. "You want to lecture me about sacrifice? You know nothing."

She laughed hysterically, without humor. She just couldn't believe it. Not even he could be that stupid. She fell to her knees, breaking down in sobs.

"I married to a man I didn't even love, moved to the other side of the world, questioned why I was even still alive for days on end until I'd get one of your letters!" she wept. "I was alive because you kept me so happy, yet... yet... you made me hate myself! You made me want to live and die all at the same time!" she glared at him through her tears. "I wanted to be with you! I wanted to be the one you loved!"

"You... know I love you too, right?" Hamilton's voice was quiet, he was trying to comfort her, yet he only made it worse.

"No!" she snapped. "You love Eliza! You've already forsaken her enough! You cannot love me!" she stood up, staring at him with a blank expression. "Her happiness is above my own every time. And it'll stay that way. The night we met you... she said you were hers. And that was set in stone..." the tears started again. "That's how it was supposed to be and you fucked it up!"

"Angelica..."

"No!" she slapped his cheek full force. "Don't even try to make better!" she slapped him again. "And that was for Eliza!" she wept before stomping out.