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Thank you for the cover above! I love it! <3 <3

Song above is We Don't Have To Dance by Andy Black thought it fit well. Plus he is f-ing hot! 

I recommend listing to They Don't Need To Understand by Andy Black. That is the song playing at the party! It is so good as well as the one above! 

We ended up walking to the party considering it was only a few minutes from our building. Tons of people had the same idea as us for we moved along with people dressed up to party. Girls were wearing similar dresses to Amy and Macey, leaving me feeling undressed. It was a little bit after 9 meaning the party had started already but according to Macey we had to show up fashionably late. I silently thanked the weather for being nice tonight instead of cold. I really should have worn a cover up or something. I thought. My shoulders were bare making me feel slightly naked.

The only thing I was really looking forward to at this party was seeing Ethan. Maybe this was my opportunity to show him a different side of myself. It wasn't like I was going to get drunk or even drink for that matter but going to a party shows I'm going out of my comfort zone a little. Of course my thinking or wishing would probably never happen, but a girl could dream can't she.

It actually sounded nice going out to do something after a busy week. My mind was on overload this last week and I just wanted a night were I could forget about all the homework and studying I had to do back at home. It may only be the second week of school but it already felt like a month has already passed.

I could tell we were almost there for I could already hear the music. If it was any louder it would make the ground shake, it probably was once we got to the house hosting the party. I had no idea who it was or if it was some kind of fraternity party, it wasn't my place to clean up.

The only time I have ever had to clean up after a party was the one party Luke and Ethan threw at our house. Because they were both 'big shots' at school they wanted to throw a party when my parents were gone for their anniversary. Practically the entire school was there and trashed the place. Of course I was allowed to come since it was my house but that also meant I had to clean everything up afterwards. The morning after I had gotten up early and kicked out the random people passed out on the floor. I then got both hung over boys to help me clean up all the red cups, the trash, the empty alcohol bottles. With the help of Macey we got the entire place cleaned up in a few hours right not leaving a trance that there was any party. Thankfully my parents never found out, or at least that I know of. You can't really hid anything from your parents.

Within minutes we were at the house hosting the party. About 10 people stood out front of the grass, most of them already drunk from the way they were swaying. A girl was laying flat on the ground staring up at the sky. I didn't know if she was passed out, dead, or just laying there. The front lawn was already littered with empty cups.

It looked like an average house but it had to be some kind of sorority because who would want to live basically on campus.

As predicted music flew out of the open door and the ground beneath of us practically shook with the bass. I couldn't stop the feeling of wanting to turn around and go home. It already wasn't wasn't my scene.

"You ready?" Macey whispered in my ear. I looked over to her only to see Amy walking towards the door leaving us standing there. Not wanting to chicken out I nodded. Holding onto her arm we made our way inside of the house.

Immediately I was hit with music and heat. The place was packed with people making the air sticky and hot. Alcohol hit my nose making me scrunch it up; it smelt like a brewery in here. Macey kept a tight grip on my arm dragging my past people. All around me college students were dancing throwing their hands in the air, grinding on each other. Those that weren't dancing were making out against the wall or couches pushed against the wall. Of course there were the few bystanders that stood off to the side with a drink in their hand watching everyone, mostly likely what I'll be doing.

"Here you go!" Macey yelled over the sound of the music. She passed me a red solo cup that was filled with something.

"I don't want any alcohol." I yelled handing it back to her.

"Just hold it. It will make people leave you alone and don't set it down anywhere!" She sent me a firm look at the last part. I wanted to roll my eyes at her but refrained. It wasn't like I was stupid enough to set my drink down where someone could slip something in it. This wasn't exactly my first party so I knew the basics of it. And what I didn't personally know I read enough about in books.

I held the cup in my hand before glancing around for Amy. We lost her the minute we arrived. I wasn't worried though she knew her way around. As my eyes were passing over everyone my gaze landed on a familiar figure making their way towards me. Inwardly I groaned and faced Macey.

"2 o'clock." I muttered. Here eyes went in the direction I just said. She didn't even have a chance to say anything before the person spoke.

"Carter what are you doing here?" Clenching my tongue I turned and faced my brother, putting a bright smile on my face.

"Hey bro!" Luke raised an eyebrow at me.

"You are here because..."

"Because it's a party." I said in a duh tone.

"Carter-" He started but I raised a hand to stop him.

"Luke stop. I'm here and I'm not leaving. Don't try to guilt me into leaving or force me to go because I won't. I can do whatever I want for once." I said looking him square in the eye. I was standing my ground.

Luke stared at me for a few minutes as if he was having an internal debate. I stood there feeling my legs shake slightly, I was definitely not use to sticking up against my brother. I knew he only meant well but tonight I was not leaving. Just knowing that he didn't want me here made the need to be here even stronger.

"Fine." He finally relented. "But don't get drunk." I gave him a pointed stare. Both of us knew I would not do that.

When he was satisfied that I wasn't going to do something stupid he dropped his protective brother act and sported a smile. He even went as far as complimenting Macey on her outfit. Luke stay around us for too much longer, a few minutes later some guy from the football team called him over. My eyes snapped from here to Amy who was in the middle of the dance floor grinding on some guy. I shook my head but a small part of me was kind of jealous.

I couldn't just let go and have fun like Amy. I couldn't do whatever I wanted and have guys drooling all over me. I did in a way envy Amy's looks and personality. She was everything a guy could want, smarts included. Her ability to just let loose, have fun, and be herself was something I wish I had.

"Lets dance!" Macey yelled over to me. I could see it in her eyes that she wanted to dance but didn't want to leave me alone.

"You go." I waved her towards the makeshift dance floor.

"But what about you?"

"I'll be fine. I'll be right here okay. Go have some fun! That guys keeps eyeing you anyway." With my eyes I gestured over to my 3 o'clock where a cute blonde guy was staring at Macey. He looked semi familiar, probably on the football team with Ethan and Luke.

Still having second thoughts I practically shoved her towards the guy. I saw Mace glare at me but I also caught the small smile on her face. She didn't even need another invitation as she walked confidently up to the guy and started talking. Not even a minute later I saw them dancing together. I grinned at my friend as I leaned back against the wall.

Bringing my cup to my lips I took a small sip. The taste of cheap beer erupted across my tongue. I forced the liquid down trying hard not make a face at the taste. I've tasted alcohol before but I never really liked the taste. That of course never stopped anyone, people still drank the gross flavored things.

With both of my friends busy and my brother and Ethan MIA I had nothing else to do but people watch. My gaze moved through the crowd picking out certain college students. I watched a pretty brunette girl talking with her group of friends, every so often their eyes would snap over a guy standing off to the side of the room. Even from here I could tell she liked him and wanted to go say something to him but probably too shy to do so.

I left that group and looked over at two people making out on one of the couches in the room. The two of them were oblivious to everyone else around as they ate each others faces off. I felt like I was intruding on a private moment. Slightly disgusted I turned away from the couple.

Just as I was looking in a different direction a large body stepped in my line of vision. I tilted my head up and met an all too familiar face. I felt my heart beat a little faster and my grip tighten on my cup.

"Carter?" Ethan asked almost like he couldn't believe it was me.

"Hey Ethan." I hoped it was dark enough in here so he couldn't see me blushing.

"What are you doing here?" I wanted to roll my eyes at that.

"I'm here with Mace and Amy."

"Does your bother know that you are here?" As he said that I felt his eyes taken me in. I felt like I was being scrutinized by him and suddenly my skinny jeans seemed too tight, and my strapless crop top too small. I have worn worse; like a bikini around Ethan but this seemed almost different. His eyes weren't just gazing over me, they were taking my in and seeing everything I had. Ethan almost looked like he hadn't seen me before with the way he was staring. I shook myself out of my thoughts and answered him.

"Yes he does and I'l say the same thing to you that I said to him." I looked at his face. " I'm not leaving, I'm not going to do anything stupid, and I'll let both of you know when I'm leaving."

Ethan continued on staring at me like he didn't hear a word I just said. Even though it was dark in here I could see the brightness of his blue eyes. They seemed to stand out amongst the darkness. I took that second to see what he had changed into. A pair of dark jeans hung low on his hips, with what looked like a grey shirt that had some kind of writing on it; basically his signature look. His brown hair was styled in an a quiff; he cleaned up well I might say.

(What Ethan is wearing at the party)

(Sorry another one of Ethan staring at Carter) 

"What?" I asked as he kept staring. It was starting to freak me out. He seemed to slap out whatever trance he was in. He cleared his throat and looked away from me.

"Nothing." He rubbed the back of his neck looking slightly embarrassed. We stood there silently the music drowning some of the awkwardness away. A good 2 minutes had passed by before I said something. And of course what I said was so stupid making me want to slap myself.

"So when did you get here?" I asked.

"A few minutes ago. Luke was taking forever to get ready." He brought his own red cup to his lips and took a big gulp. Like a creep that I was I watched, fascinated at how sexy he made swallowing look. Realizing what I was doing I jerked my head in a different direction. Damn I really was a creep.

"Same here."

"Why aren't you out dancing with Macey and Amy?" Ethan asked looking sideways at me.

"I'm not much of a dancer." I said lamely. I really wasn't especially this kind of 'dancing'. I don't think I could grind against someone like that without looking like an idiot. I would probably look like I was hip thrusting or something.

"I beg to differ. I saw you dancing in your room once." He shot me a smile.

"What?" I turned to face him. "You saw me in my room dancing!?"

"Oh yes I did. It was a few years ago though so the handmade microphone has probably been scratched from the routine." His smile widened as he took in my embarrassed look.

"You did not see that!" My face was searing with heat knowing exactly what he was talking about. I wish I could deny that I ever play music and danced around my room like a love struck teenager but I couldn't.

Almost every night after dinner or when everyone had gone to bed I would play whatever CD I had or whatever songs I had on my phone and dance around to it. I would even go as far as use a marker, hairbrush, or even my own hand for a microphone; pretending that I was a pop star. I hadn't realized that Ethan or anyone for that matter had seen me doing that.

I wanted to say that I hadn't done that since my middle school days but I couldn't. I even did my whole pop star act through my senior year. I would make up dances for my Backstreet Boys albums, or pretend that I was in a music video like Taylor Swift's.

Now knowing that Ethan had seen one of my 'routines' I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die. It was beyond humiliating knowing that your crush had seen something so embarrassing about you.

"You were suppose to see that!" I cried bringing my hands up to my cheeks. The beer in my cup was stills lightly cold which felt nice against my hot cheeks.

"Don't worry Car it was cute," Ethan smiled at me. If I thought I couldn't blush anymore I was wrong. "You don't have a bad voice either when you try."

My stomach exploded in butterflies. My heart was starting to beat a million miles and hour. Ethan just said was cute, well technically he meant my dancing was but I was going to take that to mean I was cute as well. I took another sip of my drink hoping to calm myself down a little. Oh who was I kidding I wouldn't be able to calm down!

"I know I shouldn't tell you this but...Luke and I did get it on video." I immediately felt my eyes widen and I took a step towards him, my finger pointing straight at Ethan.

"You did what?" I said but because it was so loud in here I had to yell it again. "You did what!?" Ethan didn't even look scared or fazed.

"No worries we deleted it." He said but I had a feeling he was just lying. Something like that they would never delete it, especially if it can be used for blackmail later on in life.

"Ethan." I warned him.

"I promise it is gone and no one saw it." I continued on giving him a stare down which did absolutely nothing by the look on Ethan's face. I wanted to believe him but a small part of me knew he was lying.

"You better not be lying, if you are god help me." I poked his chest with my finger with each word. Ethan raised his hands in surrender. I sighed and stepped back letting it slide, for now.

Thankful that it was dark in here and loud I was able to let out a loud sigh/groan. Of course I still managed somehow to do something embarrassing in front Ethan, even if I wasn't aware he was watching me. That just had to be my talent....doing embarrassing things in front of attractive people. Yep some talent I got.

I was so into my thoughts that I hadn't realized a new person had come up on my right side. When a voice sounded right next to my ear I couldn't help but jump, almost spilling my drink all over me. I turned my head and come face with some random guy.

He looked like he was wearing a really tight dress shirt to show off his muscular arms, he looked like he worked out a little too much for my taste. His cologne was coming off of him in waves practically chocking me. It wasn't a nice smelling one either, nothing compared to Ethan or even Gage's. The guy had short blonde hair making him look almost bald.

"Can I help you?" I found myself asking when he just stood there.

"I was wondering if you wanted to dance, sweetheart." The guy said. Off the sound of the music I could tell his voice was pretty high meaning he was probably on steroids.

"I-I..."

"She's dancing with me." Ethan butted in his arm snaking around my waist and pulling me to him. I felt my heart stop right then and there. I could feel the anger and dominance flowing off of Ethan right now. The guy who asked me to dance raised his arms up and backed away. When the guy turned and walked away Ethan finally let up his hold on my waist. Turning I stared up at him.

"What was that for?" I asked. "I mean I'm grateful you saved me but I could have handled it."

"He wasn't going to take no for an answer." Ethan just shrugged. "He's still looking over here at us we better dance." His words didn't register.

"Huh?"

"Let's dance." He said slowly while setting his now empty cup on the counter to my right.

"But I...I have to hold these." I held up my small clutch and my cup. Ethan grabbed my cup and set it next to his before grabbing my free hand.

"That's okay you don't even need to use your hands." A small smile graced his lips as he tugged me to the dance floor. He pushed us past people until we were almost to the middle, although that meant we were close with everyone else. I silently prayed that the next song wouldn't be a slow song, I couldn't handle that right now. My hands were already sweaty and me knees weak. I stood there awkwardly not knowing what to do.

"Just put your hands around my neck okay?" Ethan leaned into my ear. Gulping I brought my shaking hands up to his shoulders until they rested at the back of his neck. The current song ended just as put my arms where he instructed me to.

I almost jumped when I felt Ethan's hand fall on my hips. I had my eyes over his shoulders but now they snapped to his. Our faces were inches away from each other's, our bodies almost pressed against one another. I could feel the heat coming off his hands. His index fingers were pressed against the strip of skin that was left bare between my jeans and crop top. My breath got stuck in my throat seeing and feeling him so close.

Because the song was a mix of both slow and fast everyone around us had slowed down enough where I wasn't being knocked into Ethan. All the girls I could see over Ethan's shoulders were grinding and moving their hips slowly against their dance partners. Am I suppose to be doing that? I wondered silently. It would be just another opportunity to embarrass myself in front of Ethan.

"Don't think, just let go." The said person just whispered into my ear. His warm breath tickled my neck making me shiver slightly. All I could do was nod, not trusting my voice at the moment.

This hell on earth, I just want to run away

They told me dreams don't grow from here

Stay alone, count your fears

Somewhere down the line I might figure it out

Slowly as the song continued on playing I could feel myself relaxing as much as I could. The feeling of Ethan pressed against me felt good, felt natural. His hard planes felt nice against my soft curves. Every so often I felt his fingers brushing my bare skin making me catch my breath. Not having enough courage to keep staring into those beautiful ocean blue eyes I ducked my head and laid it against his shoulder.

We're always runnin' away and we don't even stop to think about it

The world's in our hands yeah

They don't need to understand

We do it our own way, no matter what they try to say about it

We've got our own plans yeah

They don't need to understand

My hips on their owned moved with the music. It was nothing compared to the humping and grinding other people were doing but it was nice. Ethan moved his body with mine making sure not to press fully into me, for which I was grateful for. With him being this close to me I thought my heart was going to burst out of my chest. I was almost certain Ethan could feel it.

His breath fanned the side of my neck and face. His hands gripped my waist firmly but not too tight to be painful. My hands were draped over his shoulders although they itched to wound themselves in his soft hair. In this moment I did not want to let go. I did not want the music to stop because if it did the moment would be broken. We would pull apart from each other and never be this close again. I could already see Ethan clearing his throat and rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly before leaving me to go be with his friends. I of course would be too embarrassed to go after him so I'd probably just go back to standing in the corner or leave.

I wished I had my camera or someone else did so they could take a picture of us. I wanted proof that this did happen because the song is over so is this. Everything will return back to normal leaving me the only person longing to be back in this same position. I wanted something to keep and to remind me that I didn't just make this all up in a dream. I wanted nothing more than to tell Ethan how I felt right now but I couldn't get the words out of my mouth. They were stuck on the tip of my tongue waiting to burst free.

I noticed the song was coming to and end making my heart sink. I cursed myself in my head. I will always be too much of a coward to say anything. Even though I had tons of stuff I wanted to say or do in this moment I settled on memorizing every single detail. How his hands felt wrapped around me. The smell of Ethan's cologne, the song playing, the way his shoulder felt underneath my fingers. If I couldn't have a physical picture I was going to have a mental one.

Just as I thought the song ended a few songs later being replaced by a faster one. Although I wanted to stay right where I was I knew I couldn't. I pulled back off of his shoulder to look at him. A small come to my lips as I looked him feeling my heart ache.

"Thank you that was...fun." I said. I was surprised that I was able to sound calm let alone get a full sentence out. My insides felt like goo.

"That was-" Ethan started to say but a loud high voice yelled his name. Neither of us got a second to do anything before a manicured hand gripped Ethan's arm and ripped him away from me. I stumbled slightly but caught myself before I could fall.

Once I caught my balance I could see what or I guess who took my Ethan away from me. A tall pretty dark haired girl stood in front of him now her long manicured nails running down his chest. The girl towered over me with her super high heels. Her barely there dress clung to her hips and chest show casing them. She definitely flaunted her assets.

"Dance with me." I heard her purr. Yes purr like a fucking kitten. The girl didn't even bother to wait for a reply as she already started moving against Ethan. Her hands clawed at his shirt and arms. I was so disgusted I wanted to throw up right than and there.

I noticed Ethan sending me a apologetic look but he was forced to look away from me and back to the humping girl. Once again my heart plummeted to my feet and everyone dancing stepped on it. I stood there watching the girl dancing with the same guy I just did. Ethan didn't look as repulsed as I thought. He had his hands on her thin waist and was encouraging her to grind her ass against him. He must have been all caught up in the music and the high of dancing that all thought of me flew out of his mind. All his attention was now focused on the sexy girl in front of him.

The girl shot me a smug look before grabbing the back of Ethan's neck and pulling him into a deep kiss. I watched wide eyed, my heart crumbling into smaller peices. Not wanting to just stand in the middle of the dance floor staring at them practically dry humping one another, and making out I pushed my way through the sweaty people. My eyes were burning but I blinked rapidly forcing myself not to cry. Gone was the perfect moment I just had. And to think I was actually going to spill the beans about my feelings. I knew something like this was going to happen, that is why I didn't want to come in the first place.

I should have known Ethan would be occupied with other girls here, that I was just be a wallflower. I was the girl that just sat off in the corner and watched while her crush danced and flirted with every other girl wishing it was her.

I got through the crowd and found a spot by a wall before I looked back at the dance floor, my eyes easily picking out Ethan. He had a huge grin on his face as he stared down. Down probably at the girl who was doing something enough to burn your eye balls.

No matter what I said to myself I couldn't stop my heart from feeling like it was being stabbed and stomped on a million times. Tears kept blurring my vision but I would blink them away. My breath was coming out in pants but there was nothing I could do stop it.

I can't stay here.

Even though I promised Macey and Luke I would let them know when I was leaving I didn't. Giving Ethan one last longing, painful look I turned and headed for the front door. I needed to get out of here. The air was getting stale and stuffy making it hard for me to breath. I was happy I was not one of those people that would drown their sorrows in alcohol because right now I'd be flat on my ass drunk.

Because there was so many people here it was taking me forever to weave myself through them. I felt like I hadn't even moved from my spot and it had been 5 minutes. I could see the door ahead of me which made me start shoving past people. I was beyond caring now about being polite and saying sorry if I hit someone.

I was just a few inches away from the door when I collided with a hard body. I caught my footing but I wasn't focused on that. Knowing that I was right at the door made my tears come back in full force. I could do little to stop them this time. My vision was blurry as I felt hands grip my upper arms. I briefly heard my name being said.

"Carter?" I tilted my head up to see the person I ran into. "Carter?" My eyes cleared up for a split second to see a pair of brown eyes staring down at me confusion and what looked like fear.

"Gage?" I croaked out. What is he doing here?

"Carter! What's wrong?" His deep voice was soft but questioning. Tears were flowing down my face probably ruining my makeup.

"I-I need to get out of here." I stuttered out. My eyes were bouncing around everywhere. I knew Ethan was behind me still having fun doing whatever he was doing, completely forgetting about me.

"Okay lets go." Was all he said before he wrapped an arm around my shoulders and steering me towards the door. Automatically I curled into his side my breath rattling from trying hard not to sob. Gage's arm around my shoulder was steady and firm keeping me pressed to him as he lead us somewhere else but here.

(Gage seeing Carter) 

I knew I should have let my brother know or even Macey that I was leaving but I did not want to go back in there. I did not want to face Ethan at the moment or any of the girls that were eye-raping him as we speak. Not when my heart was feeling like it was shattered.

The worst part is I wasn't mad that he got pulled away from me. I knew something like that was bound to happen so I had steeled myself before even coming to the party. The worst part was seeing him forget about me so easily. How he just stayed with the girl and let her dance on him like that. I had thought he would tell her no and maybe, just maybe ask for another dance. Or that we would walk away and sit/stand talking to each other. That I would talk to someone while my friends were having the time of their lives.

That is what hurt the worst. Being forgotten so easily is the worst kind of pain.

By time we had reached Gage's Jeep I had tears dripping off my nose and chin. My body was shaking but at least I wasn't sobbing...yet. With his help he got me inside and ran around to the drivers side. It seemed that now that I wasn't around people I could have a possibility running into later on, I was able to start really crying. The crying that made you look all ugly with snot running out of your nose.

I really didn't even know why I was crying so bad. I have seen and felt worse when it came to Ethan. I have seen him kissing tons of girls before. I've seen him dating his girlfriends and finding them on top of each other on our couch once. That hurt but for some odd reason it felt like I had a huge hole in my chest. A huge hole that would never fill up.

Gage was silent as he drove letting me be alone with my feelings. For that I was grateful because I don't know if I can talk. I curled up in the leather seat and placed my hands over my face wanting to shield Gage from seeing my ugly crying face.

I was so stupid thinking that coming to this damn party would be fun. Did I really think I would fit in and have fun like Amy and Macey. I didn't really fit in with people who drank and did whatever they wanted with their boyfriends/girlfriends. I was the girl who sat at home reading books or painting, not partying. I was the bookworm girl that everyone ignored.

I wanted to regret dancing with Ethan but I didn't. How could I regret that great moment between us. Even though he didn't or doesn't feel the same way that dance was everything to me. It was the first time I danced with him and the first time we were ever that close alone or on purpose.

Stupid me had to go and get my feelings involved with my brothers best friend. It would be a lot simpler if I didn't feel this way for him. I wouldn't even care if he kissed or dated other girls in front of me, but no. I have to be stupid and fall in love with him. I just wanted to yell and hit something. I wanted to curse myself for ever feeling like this and letting myself feel like this. I shouldn't be this upset over something so little. But I was, I was that girl who let everything get to her. When they say 'Sometimes the littlest things hurt the worst" well it is true.

I wasn't sure how long cried when I finally calmed down. I hiccuped and my tears slowed down. I wasn't even sure how long we had been driving either. Wiping my face of my tears I let my legs drop from the seat. Now that I had calmed down I realized I had just bawled my eyes out in front of Gage. I once again made a fool of myself in front of someone hot.

Soft music played through the car which probably did little to cover my sobs. I knew my eyes were bright red as were my cheeks. I bet I looked terrible. Peeking a glance at Gage I saw he was sitting there quietly staring straight ahead. I didn't know what to say so I stayed silent still trying to compose myself.

It was about 10 minutes later when Gage started slowing down. I was looking out the window but because it was so dark I couldn't see where we were exactly. Turning to the front windshield the headlights shined down on an open field. Huh? Sitting up I leaned forward inwardly wondering what we were doing in an old field.

Once Gage put the car in park and shut it off he turned to me. It was too dark to make out any emotions on his face but with the soft light coming from the dashboard I notice his eyes were shining.

"Come with me." His voice said softly. I don't think I've ever heard him talk so soft before. For a split second I questioned this but I let it go as I opened the passenger door. I guess tonight was the first for everything.

I stood off to the side of the jeep while Gage fiddled with something in the backseat. I stared straight ahead at the field. Even though it was dark there was something calming and beautiful about it. The Jeep's headlights were going to go out in a minute once the doors were shut leaving us in total blackness but I didn't care. I didn't feel scared at all.

A minute later Gage emerged from the side of the car. In his arms was a huge blanket. I raised an eyebrow at that but didn't say anything. I was afraid of breaking this peaceful silence between us. Gage must have knew I was watching for he nodded for me to follow him.

We trekked across the grassy field in the dark. I kept close to Gage not wanting to lose him and every so often my hand would reach out to graze his shirt to make sure he was still in front of me. We finally did stop a few minutes later. I watched as he spread the blanket out before plopping down on it. He titled his head up to look at me, the first time for that, waiting for me to take a seat.

I did sit down a second later. I breathed in the fresh air mixed with the smell of grass. It was a pleasant smell and it helped clear my head of the fog that was building. Whatever tears were left of my face dried up when a soft breeze blew by. It was completely silent besides the soft chirping of grasshoppers or bugs. I wasn't the biggest fan of any sort of bugs but it didn't bother me oddly.

As time passed on I knew Gage wanted to know what happened but I didn't know how to start. He did deserve some kind of answer after me running into him and than crying in his car. Hell I even made him leave a party to be here with me. I hadn't thought I would run into anyone let alone Gage. And I never would have though he would take me away from there and bring me here.

"Where is this place?" I asked softly. I felt like I had to talk quietly when it was quiet all around us.

"I come here sometimes to think and get away from things." Gage said facing forward.

"It's nice here." I looked around although I couldn't see much. I turned up head upwards towards the sky. We had to be kind of far from the city for I could see the stars. The city smog was gone and stars appeared in its wake. They twinkled like they were winking at us, like they knew something we didn't.

I have always been fascinated with the stars. Something so beautiful and so far away was almost baffling. How could we see them when they were well over 5 million light years away. How they were little balls of gas lighting up the sky and one day they just burn out; but there are stars up there that are already burned out but won't die until years later.

"The stars look amazing out here." I breathed out. It was so cool how you can only see the stars once you got away from the city. If you lived downtown your whole life you'd never know there were so many stars visible.

"That right there is Ursa Major." Gage pointed up and to the right a little bit to a cluster of stars. There was one bright star surrounded by little ones that weren't as bright.

"Is that Orion's Belt?" I pointed to the line of stars straight up.

"Yeah."

Both of us were silent as we sat there staring up at the starry sky. The silence between us was nice, comforting. Gage hadn't tried getting me to tell him what happened, he was going to wait and let do it at my own pace. He knew is distance and I respected him for it.

We talked about stars for a little bit longer before I knew I had to explain it to him. I didn't know where to start so I just let it all out, well not all of it. I had to keep some secrets to myself.

"I watched the guy I have had a crush on for years kiss another girl right after dancing with me." I blurted out. After it slipped from my lips I wanted to face-palm. Really? I had to say it like that? "I mean we were dancing, having a great time and right when the song ended some slutty girl had to come grab him a steal him away. I wasn't mad about that until he just completely forgot about me and let her kiss him."

I flopped onto my keeping my legs crossed in front of me. While I kept my eyes trained at the sky I felt Gage looked over at me.

"I know it is pathetic to get so worked up over but I couldn't help it. I've been in love with the guy since I was in high school and the one moment we get a chance to actually be close it is ruined. The worst part is he forgot about me the second the girl grabbed him. I flew out of his head so fast I'm surprised something didn't happen.

"I mean how can you forget the girl you just danced with! And he asked me to dance! Sure he saved me from sleaze ball that asked me to dance but that doesn't mean he has the right to just leave me." I shook my head at myself. "I'm just so fucking stupid." I clenched my fists for a second before letting them go.

"It's no use being angry or sad about anymore."

"Is he the reason you asked me to teach you how to get a guy?" Gage suddenly asked.

"Unfortunately yes. And you were right it was a stupid idea." He was quiet for a minute before he laid down beside me.

"Carter if he doesn't realize that you are in front of him than he isn't worth it. Maybe he doesn't deserve you." Gage said. I turned my head and looked at him. Was Gage Harper giving me love advice and why was it good?!

"Try telling my heart that." I muttered.

"Carter, sometimes what feels like the right thing is the wrong thing. Sometimes what you think you want is not what is good for you. And maybe sometimes in order to realize that is to slowly let go." I let his words sink in. Is Gage right? What if loving Ethan isn't good for me? Or was I just letting my sadness take control of my thoughts at the moment?

"Falling in love is like giving someone a gun, letting them point it at your heart and trusting they won't pull the trigger." Gage whispered into the night.

Why did Gage sound so broken when he said that? 

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I know I updated early!! I literally started writing this chapter this afternoon and couldn't stop. It just flew out of me, I was so in the zone I literally haven't done anything else. I just loved writing this chapter for some reason. I also feel like this is a good turning point in this story. :) 

So....you saw some Ethan action. Did it make you like him a little bit more? Or do you still like Gage? Are you pissed at Ethan's actions after dancing with Carter? ( I know I sure am) But are you happy because Gage showed up? Also who's winning in points now?  @Lizz_Skys has been keeping score, which I find hilarious! <3 

I hope you guys liked this chapter! And I hope I did the party scene justice for what you guys had in mind. Let me know what you think as always and if there is anything  you'd like to see in the upcoming chapters comment and let me know. Who knows it may end up happening! (I can always use help with ideas) 

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P.S Remember A Year Agreement is being taken down SUNDAY! So if you haven't read it you have two days to. I am keeping up to Chapter 13. I know you guys want it to stay up but my publishing company won't let me *Tear* BUT there is a Facebook Group for it if you'd like to be apart of it! Just type in the search line on Facebook 'ayearagreement' or go to my profile the link is somewhere there. :) 

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-Ken