*Hey Zayn, you've earned another secret letter!*

Dear Zayn,

Wow, that was the most dramatic turn of events so far, I believe. You erased all traces of 1D from your accounts? Does that really work? I mean, did it give you amnesia about the whole thing?

I wish I could do that. Forget everything. Of course that will never happen. It's kind of like deleting pics of an ex from your phone, except that most people can't actually do it. I know I couldn't. I still have pics of her on my phone, but I don't look at them. I'm not a psycho that keeps going back over them and wishing for the good times to return.

But to dump it all, deleting and blocking? To me that sends a huge message. Kind of a gigantic middle finger, if you ask me. But maybe I'm reading too much into it. So I'll stop now.

It's gotten a little better. I've tried to avoid her as much as possible. It's not like she's going out of her way to talk with me or hang out, so it's really not taking much effort to do. I pass her in one hallway three times a week now. Sadly, the horrible stomach pains I get just knowing it's about to happen have not gotten easier to take. Such is my lot in life I guess. Always anxious and worried.

Well, I hope you feel better, and that you don't have regrets like I do. I hope Stephen Hawking is correct and that there may be an alternate universe where none of this happened, to either of us...

Sincerely,

Sara

^^^^^

Anxiety and nerves can wreck a person. Any thoughts about Sara's "friend?" Fun Fact: Stephen Hawking really did weigh in on the 1D split!