A/N: I delete the first chapter #18 of this book because I uploaded the wrong chapter. What you had read is originally the chapter #19 of this story. Anyway, this is the continuation of chapter #17 and I hope that you enjoy this chapter.

Khiegilsan 

NATSU's POV

I DON'T know why I couldn't sleep at these moments. Probably because of this lady currently lying on the sofa and sleeping soundly. I removed the few strands that covered her face as I stared at her like I was memorizing each part of her face. I sound like a pervert but who cares. I couldn't even do this when she's awake because she kept on ignoring me.

I remember what she had said a few minutes ago, you would not expect her to feel such pain. The pain of loving someone who can't love her back. The pain that no one around her knows. I don't know how she was able to smile and hide that pain.

My phone rang and I answered it immediately so that she would not be disturbed in her sleep, "Yes, bro" I said as I made my way to the kitchen where I can still see her.

"Is Lucy okay?" My brother asked me worriedly.

"She's fine" I said "She's already sleeping"

I don't know why Zeref is so worried about her. And I can't understand myself why I get annoyed every time my brother looks for her and asks about her condition, "Just focus on your date. I'll hang up"

The following day wasn't even good. She was frowning and kept on sighing in front of me as if I bored her. I'm trying to control my temper but she keeps on pushing me on my edge "Stop being sarcastic" I growl.

She stares at me innocently which makes my heart beat fast but I just ignore it because probably it's my adrenaline "What's wrong with me being sarcastic?" her tone doesn't match on her reaction.

This lady! "Just don't do it, Heartfilia" I said controlling my emotion "Don't sigh nor give out a deep breath. You keep on doing that since last night. Your sarcastic remarks are also irritating. Why you can't just answer me without being sarcastic just like how you answer my brother, Zeref"

I don't understand why she treats me like this. It was different compared to the way she treated my brother. I hate it. I hate this goddamn feeling! She told me that she was just being true to herself. But I can't accept it. I can't accept that fucking reason.

She tried to change the topic but it looked like she was looking for my brother. Damn! Why does she keep on looking at him! I told her that they're both old enough to take care of themselves but she just won't listen and kept on sighing.

"Stop sighing young lady!" I warned her.

She rolled her eyes at me "Stop reprimanding me, Dragneel! I will do what I wanted to do"

"You really sure are hard – headed, eh" I'm amused but still pissed off.

"So?" she told me as if she was challenging my patience. I opened my mouth to speak but she just let out another sigh.

"If you don't stop sighing and rolling your eyes. I'll kiss you" I threatened her.

She laughed which really insult me. Is it because she wanted to kiss that man who can't even love her back. Damn! I can do better than that asshole "Kiss me? And that supposed to scare me? Now that's funny" I saw an emotion flash on her eyes as she looked at me "You do know that it's the oldest threat in the book of threats. And I'm not scared of it! To hell with you"

She was about to turn her back at me when I pulled her closer to me and without saying a word I pressed my lips to her. I immediately wrapped my arms around her waist as one of my hands rested on her nape. Her both hands are on my chest trying to push me but I just hug her tight.

"Umm... I think you guys should stop" I heard that familiar annoying voice behind her so I don't have a choice but to let her go. Damn her lips are the sweetest thing I've ever tasted in my entire life.

I can feel her body stiff the moment my brother opened the marriage. They both started planning on our wedding which made her lips parted as if the idea of being tied to me was never crossed on her mind. She gave so many reasons why we shouldn't be wed because of that simple kiss.

Simple kiss, eh? I clench my fist "I don't love her bro" I said but it feels wrong when I say those things. It feels like I don't know what's going on inside me.

I CAN'T BREATHE. She has been through a lot. I didn't know that during the six years we did not meet she went through a lot. I left her at that restaurant and went somewhere. Somewhere to clear my thoughts. I want to hurt the people who hurt her but I do not know where to start or do I have the right to do it for her.

I found myself standing in the nearest market. And I remembered what she said again. Ice cream. I bought her that and even wrote a note. A note that will remind her that I'll always be here for her.

WHY DO I feel that every time I move I always end up hurting her? I just stared at her face while waiting for her to continue "That's why, I can't describe myself as your ideal type because I'm not your ideal type. If I am, then you won't hurt me"

I opened my mouth to speak but my own words failed me. I wanted to tell her that I'm doing this to sort out my own feelings. Because what I feel for her is different from what I felt for Lisanna. She smiled at me which broke my heart into pieces.

"You always see me as a threat. You always see me as someone who destroyed your life. You don't see me as your friend. You just see me as a tool. Well," she shrugged "everyone do that"

"Lucy is not like that..." I open my mouth to say something – but my own words failed me. I'm afraid that if I open my mouth I might say something that she will misunderstand.

She left me. I tried following her but I failed. I looked for her the whole night but I couldn't see her. I wanted to talk with her. I wanted to tell her that I'm not using her... that she's not a tool. I found her in her apartment. I memorized and I organized my thoughts before I knocked on her door but the moment I saw her face everything seemed to disappear.

"You're not welcome here, Dragneel" she insisted. I asked her why she kept on calling me by my last name. It almost sounds like I'm too old. She smile on me which I rarely see "Just call me Lucky Lucy"

I shook my head "Too long"

She shrugged her shoulder then lean over the wall "Just call me, babe"

"W-What?"

She laughs and I can't help but stare at her face. It was rare to see her laugh in front of me. And then I remember her riddles. I think I finally know the answer. She suddenly stopped and looked at me quizzically "What?"

"I just realized the answer" I say truthfully.

She looked at me confused, "Answer?"

"Six letters, two words" I said and I saw her eyes wide open as if she wasn't expecting me to say it "I finally realize the answer"

I FEEL so annoyed! Her riddles don't make sense. If it is feeling, emotion or maybe an act. Damn there are so many words that describe it, "You're being sarcastic not grateful" she answered back.

Damn. I let out a sigh "Six letters, two words... if the hint is feeling, emotion or maybe an act. Then this might be the possible answer. Move on, hate me, like me, love me, kiss me..." out of frustration I started saying unnecessary "Lick me, and feed me—"

Three seconds...

Within that short span of second I found myself being on her arms as our lips interlock. Did I answer her riddles correctly? If it is yes, then what's really the answer. Move on, hate me, like me, or love me?

HER eyes show different emotions as she sings the song "I'll be here." Today is the wedding day of Zeref and her sister. She should be happy but why does it feel like – she's in pain and she was just trying to hide it to anyone. She looks at me and smiles which makes my eyes grow wider.

I'm confused. I wanted to drag her out and talk to her but I couldn't. I can't ruin my brother's wedding.

"I just need to," she mumbled. I open my mouth to speak but she just continues "I don't know why you are being nice to me. I'm confused. The last time I checked you hate my entire being because of what I did in your life" What?

I told her that I don't hate her but she just refused to listen. She told me that she doesn't want to misunderstand my actions. I stared at her face trying to figure out what she was thinking but I failed. I can't read those emotions that are flashing in her eyes.

The sight of her being hurt because of my action is enough to torture me. Is this my karma?

In the days that followed, it was as if a typhoon had passed by. I can't understand how I feel every time I see her with a guy named 'Archer'. My mind is not functioning well and I did something to her that I regret.

"You are sexually harassing me, Mister Dragneel" the sight of her cowering back with my touch makes me feel worse. I did hurt her because of my foolishness.

After that day, she ignored my presence. I don't know how to talk to her. I don't know ... because every time the two of us get close it's like I'm a knife who did nothing but hurt her.

I'VE BEEN staring at her face for I don't know how long. I'm tired and sleepy but I just can't find myself sleeping knowing that she wasn't feeling well. She looks in pain, tired and hopeless. I don't even know why she kept on telling me that she would go. That she wasn't here... with me.

I felt a sharp pain in my heart thinking about what she meant. And I don't even know why I'm feeling this shit. I don't even experience this with Lisanna but with Lucy... every time she pushes me away... it feels like I'm dying.

I held her hand and brought it to my lips "Sleep, babe. I'll be here" I mumble "I love you. No! I don't think I'm in love with you, yet" I say softly. 

I stare on her sleeping face and gently caress her cheeks "But I know, I'm starting too" 

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