Not a drawing this time, but I really need to write this down. Somewhere. It's not really too big of a situation, but it's... puzzling, to say the least.
Just, don't judge me too harshly.

I don't know what it is lately, but it's almost like a fear period, like the ones dogs have where they suddenly start hiding away and being scared of everything. They can either stay like this and it can go on for years, or you can introduce them to new things calmly and show them that it's nothing, and it'll stop as soon as it started. Anyway, that's not the point.

I've always love horror, as you may know. I don't really get scared easily, and jumpscares won't even make me blink anymore just because I've grown so accustomed to them. Why is this important? Well, something a bit strange has been happening lately and I just don't get it.
I'm not sad right now, I'm actually kind of happy because I've been growing a lot closer to my mother and things have just been generally... okay for the past week or so. Granted, I'm not an entirely happy person, but that's something I can't help right now, but like I said, I'm not sad right now! I guess I should get to the point.
Lately, and by lately I mean the past couple of days, scary things have been making me really frightened and paranoid. This isn't the case at all, usually, because like I said, I don't really get scared all that easily.

However, even the slightest bit of horror is making want to bawl and curl up. I just had to close a not scary at all video about riddles (which I also love.) It was about simply who killed who and who was lying, but I noticed I was getting closer to my wall and I feel like sobbing right now. I just don't get it.
I've been checking behind shower curtains and have to constantly reassure myself that my dog is still in bed with me or I would probably scream. I've been taking double glances all around me and I'm honestly afraid to look away from the comforting light of my phone. My heart is hammering against my ribs just thinking about doing such a thing, and tears are about to flow.

Maybe it is just a normal fear phase, or maybe it's just an unexpected side affect of the flu. I'm not sure, all I know is that whether it may or may not be normal, it's certainly not normal for me.