i wish you knew,
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"you know that all this is a waste of time right? he doesn't even care, why are you still keeping up with that bastard?" taehyung deadpanned once jimin settled down onto his seat, catching five pairs of eyes staring at him. he groaned as he rested his chin on his palm, closing his eyes.

"i don't even know why i am still keeping up tae, maybe because i love him too much" the latter replied softly, biting the insides of his cheek.

"we're scared you'll be more hurt and broken jiminie. if you look at it, jungkook had literally shut you- us, from his life completely. he doesn't remember anything from our strong friendship that we have gained. maybe he didn't really treasure it, maybe he was just faking-"

"please don't say that! i know jungkook! i know he really loves us, it's just that he can't express it in real life" jimin shot his eyes open as he stood up. the latter huffed as he frowned at his friends, how could they think of jungkook like that?

"but jimin! look at what he has done to you!" yoongi exclaimed, crossing his arms as he eyed the younger, "you keep getting bruises if you try to get close to him, he once called you the meanest things you could have ever imagined, he treats you like trash now! can't you get it? can't you get the fact that he just doesn't want us anymore? we are tired of waiting jimin. nothing is happening, and none of us can do anything" the elder placed a hand on the brown haired boy shoulder as he gave a pitiful smile, "you have to move on from him"

the truth is, all five of them are just sad and couldn't take it when they see the angel of their group gets beaten up or abused. they were like a family, jimin being the most loved. sometimes they just don't understand why jungkook can be that mean when he actually had loved the other so much before, before he lost his memory.

"i can't hyung" jimin once again bursted into tears, all the emotions building up in him. he had been wanting to let all this out, wanted to clarify his feelings to someone and now here he is, leaking like a dam that has bursted.

"no matter how hard i try to forget about him, about our relationship, our times together, the memories just won't fucking go away! can i just die? or let me fall into a god damn coma, make me lose my memory as well so i won't have to go through all this shit-"

"jimin!" jin scolded, catching the younger into his embrace as the breaking boy kept crying, feeling so distraught and distressed.

"don't say it like that jimin. we are all here for you, you can count on us to help you" jin stroked his hair as he kissed the top of his head, trying to calm down the sobbing boy in his arms.

"i don't feel like living anymore guys, this pain hurts too much" jimin cried, voice almost screeching as he held jin tighter.

it really hurts so much.

✦
how much you had hurt me.