[ eun rae's point of view ]

heartbroken.

that's the state that i was in now.

i sobbed in an ugly manner as i stuffed more popcorns into my mouth as i flipped to the next page of the book 'the fault in our stars'.

it felt like i was going through a break up when in fact i'm not even in a relationship with him. the fact that jimin, my fluffy ball of sunshine, the sexy abs and his infamous jibooty, is a gay. and with yoongi.

don't get me wrong, i freaking ship yoonmin a lot but my heart just breaks that jimin's taken.

maybe i'll get over this like in a day or something, i hope so.

i clicked on my phone and saw a snapchat message from hobihorsehobi.

hobihorsehobi : i'm glad that i could cheer you up. i don't like seeing anyone sad, especially the person that i like.

my heart skipped a bit.

motherfuckerchicken : thank you so much :))

motherfuckerchicken : oH BTW RIGHT

motherfuckerchicken : i hAVE A FUNNY STORY TO TELL YOU

hobihorsehobi : OHO WHAT IS IT

motherfuckerchicken : i went to the swimming pool & sauna in seoul today

hobihorsehobi : gASP

hobihorsehobi : SAME OMG

motherfuckerchicken : a guy freaking splashed me on my face and i cursed him a lot i'm just

motherfuckerchicken : i recalled what i said and it was so funny i'm crying

motherfuckerchicken : his expression was so shock omg i was holding my laughter tbh

motherfuckerchicken : but his nipples looked so familiar to me?? like wtf man idk where i saw those before

hobihorsehobi : omg

hobihorsehobi : tell me honestly,

hobihorsehobi : are you a girl?

i froze. why would he suddenly ask that type of question? do i still have to continue to lie to him? i don't think i should. i didn't have the intention to lie to him in the beginning too.

motherfuckerchicken : yeah

motherfuckerchicken : u just assumed i was a boy and you didn't say anything

motherfuckerchicken : that pic of the dick was my friend's

hobihorsehobi : guess what

hobihorsehobi : news flash

hobihorsehobi : i'm that guy whom you met in pool earlier.

so, he's hoseok's twin?!

hobihorsehobi : i can't believe

hobihorsehobi : i thought you were a guy

hobihorsehobi : and i thought i was going gay for you

hobihorsehobi : i honestly don't know anymore

hobihorsehobi : i'm just

hobihorsehobi : i need some time to think through this

hobihorsehobi : sorry but i don't think we should like snapchat message each other anymore

oh shit oh shit. my heart broke as i stared my phone that displayed his messages. why am i so sad? why was i so heartbroken? why does this feel twice as hurt as i'm feeling right now?

hobihorsehobi : and i'm sorry i lied too

hobihorsehobi : this is jung hoseok

hobihorsehobi : yes, i am jung hoseok from bangtan.

hobihorsehobi : i said i was hoseok's twin in the pool

hobihorsehobi : but he has no twin so yeah.

hobihorsehobi : we both lied to each other

motherfuckerchicken : excuse you

motherfuckerchicken : i did not LIED to you

motherfuckerchicken : yOU ASSUMED THAT I WAS A GUY WHEN I NEVER TOLD YOU I WAS!

he's accusing me right now for lying to him when i didn't. why is this shit so messed up? so i'm messaging jung hoseok? what a twisted world. why am i not happy that i'm messaging an idol, but instead i felt hurt that he told me that he was j-hope's twin? fucking ridiculous.

hobihorsehobi : you could have told me that you were a girl

hobihorsehobi : you played with my emotions, my feelings and here i honestly thought i was falling for a guy i'm just-

i stared at his message. falling? don't tell me that...

motherfuckerchicken : you... like me?

hobihorsehobi : yes.

hobihorsehobi : i never thought i would but i did.

hobihorsehobi : sorry i screwed up things but i think

hobihorsehobi : i'm an idol and i should keep my distance away from you. i think

hobihorsehobi : it's best if we don't talk to each other now.

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this story is so messy idek where it's heading. idk if this will have more than 15 chapts? depends on my trashy brain.

i can't sleep right now it's like 12:30 am (/coughs/ i sleep at 2am+) so i decided to update hmm.

thank you so much for reading this messy & trashy story :)