Snowsilver stretches his legs. His vigil was now over. He hadn't gotten to count the stars- he kept having to start over when his mind wandered or when he lost count.
"Well Snowsilver," Goldsparrow purrs, "how do you like being a warrior so far?"
"Its amazing!" Snowsilver smiles, "although I've been thinking."
"About what?" Goldsparrow
"Well- uh- you were a topic," Snowsilver blushes, "I was thinking about going to find Silverfur."
"You mean leaving Thunderclan?" Goldensparrow's eyes widen.
"Yes," Snowsilver looks at the ground then back to Goldsparrow, "I'd been longing to come to be with my mother and now that she's gone its not quite the same here."
"You'd never see me again though," Goldsparrow looks at her paws.
Snowsilver nudges her chin up, "you could come with me."
"I could," Goldsparrow nods, "but Thunderclan has accepted me so well. To just leave- I don't think I could. Not even to be with you."
"So you admit that want to be with me? Snowsilver eyes fill with sorrow, "but you don't want to come?"
Goldsparrow nods, "I wish I could."
Snowsilver finally knew how Silverfur felt leaving him. She had to leave him even though she knew it was best for them both at the time. Now things had changed.
"I'm sorry," Goldsparrow mews, "but I can't leave here. Maybe someday, but not now."
"Its- Its ok," Snowsilver lies, "I'll see you again, right?"
Goldsparrow nods, "right. I hope."
Snowsilver brushes his muzzle against hers, "I'll miss you."
"When are you leaving?" She turns her head away.
"The next full moon," Snowsilver mews, "I will wait at the dirt place until moon high on that night. If you change your mind, meet me there."
Goldsparrow nods, "I'm going to go talk to my brothers now."
"Don't tell anyone I'm leaving," Snowsilver pleads, "not until I'm gone."
Goldsparrow nods, "alright."

Snowsilver pads around camp. He would miss Thunderclan but he missed Silverfur more. He would never be able to come back this time and he knew that.
"Snowsilver!" One of the elders calls, "come tell the kits how you came back home!"
"Oh- ok," Snowsilver pads over and sits beside the elder.
He faces the kits as he begins his story.
"Don't you miss Silverfur?" One of the kits asks.
"Deeply," Snowsilver nods.
"Why don't you go find her and bring her here?" Another kit asks.
"She wouldn't want to join Thunderclan. Besides, she used to be a Riverclan cat," Snowsilver mews.
"Used to be?" A gray tom kit tilts their head.
Snowsilver tells about Silverfur and Honey, their upbringing, and Silverfurs time in Riverclan.

Snowsilver pads alongside Indigopaw, a friend of his, still an apprentice.
"How's being a warrior so far?" Indigopaw asks.
"Well," Snowsliver begins, "the two days I've been a warrior have been quite uneventful."
Indigopaw laughs, "I guess, yeah."
They sit on the edge of camp.
"Guys!" Patchpaw, one of Indigopaw's younger half sister's yells, running to them.
Patchpaw was only 10 moons old while Indigopaw is 11 moons old. Their father, Bluedream was a scandal and didn't even care about his kits or former mates. He had been exiled for constantly pushing the code and now lived in the twoleg place as a kittypet with his new mate and kits.
Patchpaw runs and sits by them, "Have you guys seen Gingerpaw today?" She laughs.
"Don't laugh at him!" Snowsilver growls.
"S- sorry," Patchpaw leans over to Indigopaw and whispers something in his ear and he laughs.
"Stop it!" Snowsilver demands.
He gets up and stalks away. He sees Gingerpaw and waves his tail at him. The young tom waves his tail back and dips his head.
Snowsilver pads over to him. He sits in front of him and motions for him to sit too.
"Hi," Gingerpaw smiles.
Snowsilver smiles too. He signs something to Gingerpaw and the tortoiseshell tom laughs. Gingerpaw signs something back and Snowsilver laughs as well.
Other cats in the clan liked to tease Gingerpaw because of his deafness, it wasn't fair. Nobody teased me when I was deaf, right? Snowsilver asks himself.
The two toms sit and sign to each other, laughing each time. They liked to talk about Snowsilver's journey and how one day Gingerpaw may want to meet the healers and see what they could do for him.
Snowsilver yawns and remembers how he panicked a bit when cats yawned around him. He reaches out and calms Gingerpaw with his tail.
He signs that he's going to bed and leaves the young tom there.
He gathers some moss and makes a nest in the warriors den, although he would be leaving it in a little less than a moon.