since new's facebook post about his girlfriend, tay hadn't messaged new even a single morning greeting, which was their daily ritual. time literally flew so quick than tay could vividly remember how depressed he had been on that day even though that event had past exactly a week.

tay once again recalled himself hopelessly leaning against the door, bursting out into tears as if he had kept those feelings for years. in fact, it was true. 7 years befriending with new included 2 years defining the name of his affection for the younger and 5 years silently loving his best friend and living in hope that some day his one-sided love turned into both.

although new acted like nothing had happened, tay knew that the word 'distance' had slowly appeared and gradually hurted him more than before. yet what could he do? just acted, they were both talented actors.

there goes a quote in 'eat, pray, love':
"this is a good sign, having a broken heart. it means we have tried for something."

tay completely agreed that this was so damn true. nevertheless he realized somehow it was a bit wrong. maybe it wasn't a good sign at all, maybe he hadn't tried his best to break the boundary or maybe

he had never tried at all?

sitting on the couch where they used to share their space with the other, tay fingered the small sun charm which was new's gift on his 27th birthday. a sudden thought hit his mind,

'if there was a paralel univerese, could hin and i grow old together?'

tay didn't know, but he neither wanted to find out the answer. he had always been in loneliness, yet as long as he was still with hin, he could tolerate everything.

his ultimate loneliness was nothing to his love for hin, tay assumed.