This song I can relate to
Because it means something to me

Shock
Growing up is never easy for anyone there are always gonna be ups and downs

What this song means to me is well I'm not and I never have been good at words

And so it is already hard for me to talk to people I don't like talking about negative things

It hurts enough when I am not okay

Darkness seems to be my only friend the one I come to,to clam myself down

Since I can't come to light with how I feel to my family

Im mostly scared to because I wasn't raised like them

I use to always come to my family for help then something happened

They all just seemed to care less and turn me away
I never understood why

They all mainly my mother kept saying the devil is in my head and that I shouldn't feel this way

So now I try my hardest to not let it show

I throw my key away and lock my heart up because now the people who I need the most to listen don't

They all tell me how wrong I am

How stupid I'm being

How selfish I am

How pathetic it is when I cry

That hurts but I do have to say I love my family

But with the certain things
They seem to hate me

Curtains Closed
I try and talk to people but I'm scared so most of the time

I wait for the sun to set so I can cry say how I feel to myself

I don't sleep well at night any more I have trouble breathing sometimes and I don't sleep some nights

Just because of how many things are being bottled up

So I hide
I don't speak
Honestly I have spoken to anyone in such a long time now
I feel like maybe im starting to just like the pain who knows

Coming to light I don't think I can do anymore

So I Dance In The Dark