okay, first of all, thanks for all the love on my fan-fic and on my name generator! we hit 1k on ocean moon, which is awesome! and my name generator is at 25k now and is by far the most popular thing on my account. i feel like the name generator is what brought a lot of people to my account, which is so cool because i put a lot of time into it and it also means maybe they will discover my writing!

secondly, i start preseason on september 4th, so i will get very busy all of a sudden and updates will be slower.

trigger warning for mild language relating to food restriction and eating disorders.

lastly, a random life update. i've been struggling this summer with food restriction and i've just gotten myself into a really unhealthy headspace regarding what to eat and what not to eat. but here's the thing.

that's fucking stupid.

so i'm trashing all my obsessive shit and starting over. from now on i am practicing eating intuitively. intuitive eating simply means eating when you're hungry and stopping when you're full. and i'm done cutting things out because that is just dumb.

the more i work on this, the better i'll get at it. the trick is to listen to your body and begin to understand when you are hungry and when you are full.

i don't have a problem with weight. i know that. i am strong and athletic and fit and healthy and i'm proud of that. but like a lot of girls in this fucked up world, i struggle with body image nonetheless.

so i'm essentially turning back time to how i used to eat when i was a kid. no more obsession. now it's about feeling satiated and slowly learning to detach from my unhealthy relationship with food.

there's still going to be some hard times and it's gonna be tough to work myself away from my restrictive habits. when that happens, i'm going to come back and read this and remind myself why i need to change my ways.

sorry if this was too long or too deep or whatever for some of y'all but i wanted to make a note of my goal and i also want this s/mb to be real in addition to weird and random and all that stuff.

i'm interested to know your thoughts on this. let me know.  (:

love you all!