https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dGalix-sVXs

(Might not want to watch as it may trigger you...)

I really feel like this some times this is virtually me with art and not putting out content or drawing and with the flashbacks coming back it's only getting worse.

Now since I wasted a page I'm going to throw up old poetry I made on here...

"Emotion Ocean"

Life without emotion
Far from a ocean
My world was a great desert
Dry without a simple spurt
Tears never fall from this face
Until I was forever denied your embrace
My desert was flooded that night
Tears did obstruct my sight
Falling freely the world was drowned
My face a permanent frown

I burnt away the ocean
As my heart steeled against emotion
The world was no longer a desert
As the sand became dirt
The world would soon birth Eden
As the heart keeps getting beaten
The rain falls softly
As the hearts song resounds strongly
Grass over took the land
As it aspired to wipe out the sand

                       "Knowledge"

Reading the stories of man
Brought back that forgotten land
The apple tree stood decayed,
one last fruit adorned it's crooked face
The knowledge it held was of infinite space
The last frontier of man explored again and again
Without the knowledge to ascend
Man couldn't not beseech the stars
With hopes of traveling forever far
Infinite space, infinite worlds
Forever more the path of lords

"My Life"

I bear this face forever more
Even after the horrid war
I fight those whose souls have been tainted
Dark empty blackness painted
By the sick desires that inhabit our mind
I myself am amongst their kind
I've bore darkness for ages
Locking evil thoughts in cages
The sudden thought still rings
To usurp the old kings
In manner of blood and violence
Yet I find myself sitting in silence
A battle never seen, never heard
That is my life and it is absurd
One woman changed all that
To my heart she had a map
Like a bullet she tore through and left a hole
Life without her was like losing my soul
I've never once had a desire so strong
But to be worthy of her as I sing my song