What has happened to me? Their was a time when I came so close to being in leagues with my contemporaries in numbers of reads and votes but then my grasp slipped and everything disappeared I get a penance of the reads I used to and even then I've come to loathe somethings within this app, I don't know what to do anymore honestly I want to entertain you like I did during my peak but I don't know how to get back there and then I simply feel useless every attempt I make to gain relevance again fails miserably, I have this problem with all these books it's a awful experience  of trying to claw my way out of a ever deepening hole, I just want to rise again but it's so hard.