J U N G K O O K ' S P O V 

The party will last for a few hours, and I have to attend even though I don't feel like it. It's not that I'm lazy - I just don't want to be in a situation where people surround me. I'm feeling anxious about what might happen and what someone with malicious intent could do. 

I am typically not someone who relishes solitude, but my current fear prohibits me from being in close proximity to others or engaging in conversation. I am uncertain when this situation will come to an end, and I am apprehensive about encountering the individual responsible.

E N D O F J U N G K O O K ' S P O V 

Jungkook has no interest in going to the party but as he has given his word already he has to. With small jelly feet, Jungkook headed towards the wardrobe to catch up on some presentable clothes. Jungkook is not fond of books much but he loves to read life lessons through books. He has a small book stand at the side of the room to store his favorite books which helped him through the start of his 20s. A small book stand containing best-seller life lesson books e.g. Atomic Habits, The Alchemist, Ikigai.

Jungkook simply passed the stand but somehow his eyes fell upon a book, Pride and Prejudice. "Wait this is not my book from where it came?" Jungkook slowly picked up the book from the place. Jungkook knows this book and the author too. "Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen." Jungkook spelled. 

He noticed some sticky note pieces were attached to some pages. By turning over pages he noticed some lines marked with baby pink highlighter on the pages where the sticky notes are attached. The lines sound like this: 

" 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐥, 𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞, 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞, 𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮."

" 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐈 𝐚𝐝𝐦𝐢𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮. "

He turned one more page but this time more than one line is marked with love marks. A conversation probably. 

" 𝐍𝐨𝐰 𝐛𝐞 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐫𝐞; 𝐃𝐢𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐝𝐦𝐢𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐲 𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞?"

" 𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝, 𝐈 𝐝𝐢𝐝." 

As his heart raced, a wave of emotions washed over him, causing a whirlwind of thoughts to swirl in his mind. He couldn't help but ponder whether the person he once deemed as bad was perhaps not as terrible as he had believed. At that moment, Jungkook's intuition unmistakably identified the individual as his devoted and infatuated lover.

Jungkook closed the book with an intense wave of emotions within him he can't he should smile or should be afraid? If he really says honestly the scared feeling isn't coming at the moment. It's something different. Have you ever witnessed the wave of happiness of the first rain after a series of scorching heat days? 

A small letter fell on the ground. This time the paper is a vintage one. Jungkook picked up the letter, 

" Hey, 

              Darling, are you standing? Then please sit, the letter is big and I don't want to give your pretty legs pressure. Sit. [ jungkook sat on the bed ]

                                    First of all, I should ask for your forgiveness, I scared you on the day of your birthday, I am so sorry for that, it was just my emotions went out of my control. Trust me though it may look like I will harm you but I can't not even a hundred million years. 

                                        I know you think of me as a psycho but trust me if I tell you my love for you it will be the same as being psychotic level, insane one. I know for me you're depressed and tense. You're afraid to go too near people, sorry for that but you're a just piece precious gem and I don't want this harsh world will harm you somehow. The world is too harsh and you're too important to me. 

                                        Don't feel emotional for me, at last world will address me as psycho but do I have any problem? Really never, if for loving you people address me as a psycho then I am glad my love is that much.

                                          Take a deep breath, what do you smell? Lavender. Your favorite one. 

                                          I have to end it here cause if I start to express my love in more depth it can create a new Pride and Prejudice novel. But before ending I want to say check the store room of your house. Don't worry nothing scary just a gift to the heart of mine. 

                                              I am leaving my words here, I hope you can understand though my acts are violent you're the softest portion of mine. 

" 𝐋𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬, 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐬 𝐒𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐦𝐨𝐤𝐞 𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬, 𝐈'𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐚 𝐟𝐨𝐨𝐥 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝐢𝐠𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 "

-- Your die heart lover. "

Jungkook felt so many emotions together it's a huge tide of emotions. He never imagined that whole thing would turn like this. The letter the small details everything itself depicts a way to show love and affection. Sexualising anyone is easy but loving someone is really tough.

Jungkook's steps headed towards the store room without his consent of brain his steps forwarded ahead god knows how. He can clearly remember the anxiety and fear he felt when he entered the store room with his Hyungs and found the decorated room. Today there's not an inch of the same fear or anxiety today's feelings are different we can say Excitement. Yes! That word would be the best representation of the curious feeling Jungkook's heart is feeling. Excited to see which thing is stored in the store room in between non-used things.

Clutching down the knob, he is way too much curious to know that he missed some breathing in between causing some symptoms of irregular breathing, some are deep some are normal. His heart accelerated to high speed within some seconds. Leaving all these behind he twisted the knob. The door opened. 

All the excitement and curiosity died at the time when he saw the room wasn't decorated the way he thought. When sometimes our expectations touch the ceiling of limits somehow the expectations break into pieces leaving a painful sorrow behind. Jungkook is a human too, though he is a man he has feelings, right? He has expectations isn't it fair to have feelings?

" Just my silly mind." Jungkook sighed and turned to leave the room. But somehow his eyes again fell upon a thing placed on a stool at a side of the room. The moonlight from the small window is falling over the thing. He couldn't say what is this, so he stepped towards it.

The thing came in front of him guiding a smile on his face, the smile which was missing from the bunny face for more than many months. It's a guitar. Jungkook's favorite he loves to play this. Jungkook wanted to be a singer like famous singers, Justin Bieber, Troye Sivan, Ed Shreen, and many more. But in Asian culture, there's no place for talent and interest. All are running behind stereotypical degrees.

Once his dad caught him playing guitar instead of doing homework and broke his favorite guitar into pieces, it hit him so hard that baby Jungkook cried a lot and decided not to play ever. 

This is the same guitar, a black shiny one with brown shades and white stars attached. A bouquet of flowers, red, pink, and purple roses. And also again a note.

" Oh you finally noticed, I just wanted to surprise you so. And about the bouquet of flowers, well every pretty person whether girl or boy deserves beautiful flowers too. What do you think?

Well about the guitar, I know you love to play guitar. Just play. I know you didn't play it for a long but try. There's a CD player with some CD I placed under the stool. Check and play. You can.

I am waiting for the day when you will finally play a song for me too. 

                              -- Your die heart lover. "

Jungkook looked under the stool and yes there was a CD player and some CDs too.  If something like this happens to you will you be able to describe it through words? Maybe no! Same as Jungkook. He didn't proceed further to think. He picked up the CD player and CDs with guitar went to the rooftop and sat under the open sky picked up the CD of the song Strawberries and Cigarettes by  Troye Sivan. And started playing along with.

https://youtu.be/JFjHHctmstY

Here's a slowed and reverb version. 

A/N: I know I am almost about two weeks late, but lately my life has been totally messed up things went not so well many issues came in front and I ended up updating late. I will try to be on time from now on. I tried to write a little emotions in this chapter.