I'm frequently misunderstood. Society seems, can't understand brilliant ideas, no matter how logical and rational they might seem to me! That makes it hard for me trying to improve a field where society dictates moral and behavioral standards. Especially I'm deadly straight to point person. These standards sometimes don’t have as logical basis as the innovative, productive ideas which I truly love. ¬_¬ I give up convincing people. For that reason, I frequently feel like I'm alone in a fight against the world. Sometimes I want to destroy the world just to end everyone's sorrows! Every plan I formed, was in shadow only a true reflection of what someone else wanted, not me. I need nothing, because I preformed everything (not every everything but what I managed to lay my hand on) I do seem working for myself but in fact I'm doing all this for someone else, I careless of what I want.

The ability to accurately predict and plan for the future comes at a price. living inside my head, where I can manipulate scenarios, project ideas, and create contingency plans to deal with this future. But it can be difficult for me to ye know, terminate the planning process in time to enjoy the present moment.

To be honest I often feel so guilt or dissatisfaction with a lack of progress toward my long-term goals. More often than not, this is because, planning for the future has become more important or interesting than what I'm actually doing. I'd identify this difficulty with syncing plans to reality and take refuge inside head rather than dealing with the world outside, where the plans were meant to take place.