Trigger Warnings: very brief mentions of suicidal thoughts

Louis lies in bed next to Harry, signing softly and running his had through his hair. He looks down at the sleeping figure, at the peaceful look on his face. 

Beautiful

Louis thinks.

He wishes this moment could last forever. He knows Harry hasn't been very happy lately. He has been going to the bridge a lot. And all Louis can do is pray that he doesn't jump. That he will never jump. Because he loves him too much to lose him.

Louis sighs, and slowly pushes him self up, slipping from the bed, and tip toeing in the direction of the living room. He turns on a light, then quickly turns it back off. No doubt he's about thirty times closer to being blind. He waits for the brights spots to clear from his vision, and then walks over to the shelf, taking down the jar of stones Harry keeps there.

He unscrews the lid and, as quietly as possible, tips it until he feels one of the cold stones in his hand. He puts the jar back on the shelf, and steps out onto the front porch, moonlight washing over him. He looks down at the stone in his hand, studying it. They way the moonlight shines on it, seeming to make it sparkle.  Then he throws the stone as far as he can.

He used to take out two at a time, but he figured that would be to obvious to Harry. So now he only does one. He knows that Harry is going to jump once the jar is full. He's not dumb. And so he just has to make sure the stones never reach the top of the jar. Ever. Because losing Harry is more than he could bear.

He steps back inside and walks back down the hall slipping back into bed next to Harry. He puts his arm around his waist, and pulling him close. He kisses the back of his head. "I love you" he whispers, even though he knows he can't hear him. 

Losing Harry would be like losing the whole world. 

Losing Harry would be like losing his forever.

With every broken bone, I swear I lived. OOOOOOOooooo00000000ooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooo000oooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo <--- that's me singing while I think of what to right (:

SOOOOOOO...

I hope you liked it (:

I wasn't really sure what to write for this chapter. I would say I will get another chapter up during Thanksgiving break, but no promises sorry.

If you ever need some one to talk to I am always here.

Stay healthy.

Love you allllll <3333

-Addie

P.S please tell me if there are ever any typos so I can fix them. Don't worry about hurting my feelings. I want to be able to have my best writing for you guys (: