Why is it so hard to bring a knife to my chest

It seems so easy

But i cant, yet i want to

Why

Id end this misery if i could stop being a pussy about it , but i cant

And here i go again, to spew out shit for the attention, for the views

Basically throwing myself a pity party here (you'd be fucking damned if you say anything about melanie martinez right fucking here)

Just,, ugh

I hate myself, but thats already clear enough