... Noah is not going to be at school tomorrow.

....he's the only person I sit with at lunch.

Which means I'll either

A- Eat alone

B- Try to find some where people will let me sit.

The way the cafeteria is 'settled' meaning every group sort of has there own spot. Noah and I just wander around

I have sort of a 'Lunch Anxiety'

Meaning.....

My social skills are lowered and my panic increases.

After I get my lunch tray, my mind is a minefield.

I start walking around and people start looking at me. I'll ask a few people, and they'd say the seat is taken or what ever,

Then people start staring.

I feel myself get sweaty and a panic attack is about to start,

And then as I continue to wander around aimlessly, I hear the whispers.

And Then I want to throw my lunch tray at the other people: