If you cry I'm going to cry aswell

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"Shit... you are way to gorgeous..." Yoongi kissed Jimins neck, leaving a light purple mark, behind. It took extremely much self-control, not to do more than he already was doing. He had jerked Jimin off quite a bunch of times, sometimes, also trying to stretch out his entrance, to make sure his first time wouldn't hurt. He was well aware of the fact, that it was probably still going to hurt at least a bit, but he wanted to reduce the pain as far as possible.

There was no way he could hurt Jimin, which is why although it was a hard task he had to take all the time he could preparing the boy. Even Jimin was becoming impatient by now and he used to be the one in the relationship always down for a long make out session.

"Yoongi... please... I can't take it anymore..." Jimin stuttered fiddling with the buttons of Yoongis jeans, trying to speed up the process.

Yoongi chuckled lowly. "Such a cute needy boy." He kissed Jimins nose, only making the other roll his eyes at him. It made Yoongi happy, how much Jimin had changed and just how he was no longer as insecure and not scared of Yoongi even a bit.

He just was comfortable with Yoongi touching him and him touching Yoongi.

"I hate you but love you at the same time for doing this..." Jimin whined, earning a soft chuckle from Yoongi.

"And I love you for being able to do this~"

By now Jimin was stretched out and wet enough to easily fit four fingers inside of him and yeah maybe it was overkill, but Yoongi wanted his first time with Jimin to be as enjoyable for both of them. Even if that meant annoying the hell out of horny Jimin. The boy was going to thank him later.

Yoongi pulled out his fingers, making Jimin yelp at the sudden loss of warmth.

Quickly Yoongi got rid of his trousers and underwear, while reaching into the drawer to get a condom, although all of him was screaming to just go without a condom, he still fiddled with the package trying to open it.

He had had quite a bunch of one night stands in the past, which is why he just had to go for the safer option.

He swallowed hard at the sight of Jimins body lying spread out in front of him, his cheeks flushed and lips swollen from all the kissing. He had asked Jimin a bunch of times already, but he still asked once more just to make sure Jimin was really okay with it.

"Do you really already want to do this?"

Jimin laughed softly sitting up and pulling Yoongi into a hug. "Already is a good joke~" He laughed placing a kiss on Yoongis lips. "You know we are adults and we are somewhat together for a year now. If anything we are the fucking slowest couple ever."

"You are picking up my habit of swearing... I'm a bad boyfriend." Yoongi joked kissing Jimin once again.

"Yeah yeah you are, now please don't let me wait any longer." Jimin chuckled, making Yoongi roll his eyes at the boy. "As if I haven't been waiting for this in forever... Ah shit... I really have been waiting forever..." he mumbled, looking at Jimin this close to his itching member.

"Lay down." He ordered leaning over Jimin, spreading lubricant all over his length, making sure not to miss a spot. Doing what he was asked to do, Jimin leant back, his gaze fixed on Yoongis errection.

A familiar feeling of panic crept up on him, thinking about it entering him. He loved Yoongi, that was out of question and he knew the other would never purposely hurt him, but he also knew how much pain Beom had managed to inflict on him with a lot less size and volume, so in his head, he was sure Yoongi could easily tear him apart.

"Yoongi... I'm scared..." Jimin mumbled, making the other lean over him gently kissing his lips.

"And why is that?" The older asked softly, well aware that this was to come as brave as Jimin acted from time to time. Yoongi new that there were still some obstacles they would have to overcome together.

"It will hurt..." Jimin whispered his hand squeezing Yoongis arm as he looked down. There were just a couple of centimeters that separated their bodies, which Yoongi could easily overcome just by pushing his hips forward.

Yoongi knew very well that Jimin was panicking, which is why he softly placed a kiss on Jimins lips.

"I swear to you, I'm not going to hurt you, because that's not what I'm here for. And neither is he." Yoongi joked, trying to make Jimin relax a bit which actually worked as Jimin chuckled sweetly, still pretty nervous.

"I am actually serious about this. I know that up till now, sex wasn't really pleasant to you, but I want to change that. It sounds super weird to say that, but don't look at him as something that can make you feel pain, but instead as something that can make you feel good." Jimin nodded slowly looking down in a way facing his fear.

"You trust me right?" Yoongi asked softly, Jimin nodding without hesitation this time. "And somehow even my dick is a part of me... it's under my control. So do you think I would hurt you?"

This time Jimin shook his head. "And that's exactly why there is no need to feel scared..."

He gently kissed Jimin. "Relax. I will go slow and if you don't feel comfortable I can stop anytime... trust me I will stop."

The way Jimin smiled at him was absolutely heartwarming. "I love you... seriously... so fucking much..." He almost teared up, making Yoongi automatically hug hip out of overprotectiveness. He couldn't think of anything, he could have done in his past life to deserve such an angel.

"I love you too..." Yoongi murmured into Jimins neck holding the boy as close as possible.

"I'm okay now..." Jimin whispered placing a soft kiss on Yoongis neck, the other boy distancing himself a bit in order to look Jimin in the eye.

"Really?"

"Really." He smiled softly. Being with Yoongi really made him feel safe and talking to him even helped him overcome some of his biggest fears. He trusted Yoongi and that he knew what he was doing.

"You can tell me to stop anytime okay? You don't have to feel pressured at all, because we can always try again. We have all time in the world." Yoongi ensured caressing Jimins cheek.

He still couldn't quite catch the fact that they were actually going to do it. They were going to sleep with each other. The thought made him smile.

"Thanks." Jimin's smile, made Yoongis heart beat faster.

Just to ensure, Jimin was still stretched out enough even after their short break, Yoongi put a bit more lube on his fingers, before carefully stretching Jimin again for a couple of seconds. Then he leaned over the boy, making both his and the boys breath hitch at the feeling of his tip brushing Jimins skin.

With one hand placing his tip at Jimins entry, the other, steadying his weight, he moved down, connecting his' and Jimin's lips, slowly and carefully pushing himself in, making sure it wouldn't hurt Jimin.

Jimin who seemed somewhat tense up to this point, seemed to relax into Yoongis touch a bit, wrapping his legs around the older's hips, his arms pulling Yoongi down, deepening the kiss.

Because he knew it could get pretty uncomfortable, moving deeper especially at the beginning Yoongi stopped about halfway, giving Jimin his chance to adjust.

"Are you okay?" Yoongi asked softly, Jimin quickly nodding although there were tears forming in his eyes, making Yoongi slightly panic. "Why are you crying?" He asked anxiously worried that he might have underestimated his size.

"It really doesn't hurt..." Jimin sobbed suddenly pulling Yoongi into a hug, making the other flinch at the fear of a sudden movement hurting Jimin. "You actually managed to not make it hurt at all..."

The boy seemed super happy, while Yoongi was kind of caught off guard, not really knowing how to react.

"I told you it wasn't going to hurt..." he said softly, the small boy chuckling burying his face in Yoongis chest. "I love you so much... I can't believe it." He squealed, Yoongi realizing Jimin was probably just overran by many emotions at the same time.

"Babe... look at me..." Yoongi suggested, the boy doing what he was asked to do lying down again, smiling at Yoongi.

"You are so perfect..." Although he still seemed to be emotionally confused, Jimin's gaze just screamed out his love for Yoongi.

"So are you..." The other replied, a soft smile creeping on his lips. "Want me to give you the perfect first time?" Yoongi joked, pecking Jimins lips.

"You are pretty self-confident." The cutest chuckle ever left his lips. "But it actually is already, so I guess you have every right to be."

Now Yoongi felt like tearing up. "Hey I'm the one that has to stop YOU from crying so don't make me cry." They were somehow both getting super emotional.

"If you cry I'm going to cry aswell..."

"Shut up."

"I love you..."

"I love you too... so fucking much..."

A/N

And there it is... the last chapter XD

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