(Yuki x Ete oof 😔👊)

The day had come at last huh...?

I swift my gaze the area. Rows filled with drizzling pink cherry blooms and peach flowers, sign the time of spring.

Amidst the blossoming season, He stood there, bold and elegant. Adorned with the finest groom kimono surrounded by cheering flower beds spreading the scent of love in the air.

His miss matched eyes looks dazzling than ever, his blue sky and green leaf eyes filled with radiant happiness which used to be stuffed with pain and anguish. My heart ache for that gaze everytime i see it.

No words can describe how perfect he looks on this day, on this place, at this very moment. I tried racking my twisted thoughts come up with a word that can at least portray the sight, but only one word came out.

Beautiful, I said.

I can't bring up more to say, and i thought it's better that way.

This day was going to be perfect, i murmured.

Code word, was.

For who standing beside him.

Isn't me.

Standing on the side of the hall i held my shaky breath the best could with tears threatening to stream down as rivers. All though the area is filled the sensation that can describe as happiness of the two, i can't feel any of that. Not like this... Not like ever...

"Ete sis... Are you okay...?"

Turning my gaze to my right, Grace stare at me with eyes filled with worry and concerned with her hand rest on my right shoulder to show her sympathy. Her gaze and gesture made me realize how much of a pain i must have looked right now.

I blew a light cough and look at her in the eyes while trying to make my face reassuring as possible, which means plastering that all known expression.

"I'm fine Grace, no need to worry." I smiled the most unreal smile i could muster. After doing that for years i grew more used to use this expression daily, but the more i use the more the pain increase.

Just then, cheers grew louder and i swift my head to the left.

It has started

There she stand, my friend Sakuya adorned with a gorgeous light pink hikifurisode kimono with cherry blossom patters decorate the sleeves and bottom, match the season soo perfectly. Hair let loose, slight tie on her hair with a floral hair ornament to top it off, simple yet elegant, like a princess of a fairy tale.

As much as i wanted to be happy for her, i can't find it in my heart to do so. But i refuse to let it out on her, it's not her fault that he choose her. Just my fate i guess...

I can't be here much longer, it's killing me. I would prefer his Himetsuru-Ichimonji to stab my chest rather than this throbbing heart break. It's true what they say, heart break is the only murderous pain that keeps you living to feel it.

I need to get out of here...

"Excuse me Grace, but i have to get something at the palace. You go enjoy the party, don't eat too much~" I said in a sing song voice as i hurried to leave the scene. I can hear Grace shout my name from afar but that wouldn't stop me.

I run. Tears on my eyes made my sight blurry, but i cease to lower my pace. I kept on running, don't know where i'm going, i let my legs decide.

I'm not fine...

I can't take this...

Take them all away...

Help...

"ETE!!!"

Just as the name echoes on my ear, i felt a hand snake my waste. Out of brute emotion, i tried to let go but the grip is too tight for me to loosen. I throw my gaze to my back and glare at him, but my sharp gaze soon falter.

"Yuki...?"

"WHAT WE'RE YOU THINKING RUNNING LIKE THAT?! YOU ALMOST GOT YOURSELF KILLED!!!"

I look to the side to see a cliff hanging open right in front of me, one drop i'd be a goner for sure. This scene felt nostalgic somehow but there's no time for that now.

"YEAH? SO WHAT?! I DON'T WANT TO FEEL THIS ANYMORE. THIS FEELING, IT HURTS! I RATHER DIE THAN KEEP GOING THROUGH THIS. YOU WOULDN'T KNOW HOW IT FELT LIKE-"

"I DO!"

Everything suddenly felt quiet at that moment. My eyes wide in both shock and confusion. Do i really look like that? Ah.. I don't know anymore. If my brain we're strings i'm sure it's a knotted mess right now.

"What do you mean...?"

"Are you really that dense?" Yuki grimaced and pulls her close to his arms if it were possible. "Even tho i always call you Boar Woman, can't u realize that i always kept my eyes on you, and everytime we spent on Echigo, DOES THAT MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU?!"

I fell silent as i feel tears keep pouring from her eyes in an ominous amount, no matter how much i want them to stop, they don't.

"Thank you for telling that Yuki, but i don't think i could accept it just like that..." I mutter while feeling guilt rise up on my chest. I feel so overwhelmed, with him forwardly announce his feelings made me felt like a glass topped over.

"It's okay... I won't force you to accept me but... If you need a shoulder to cry on, i'll always be by your side."

🌸🌸🌸

After the whole facade, the two sitting near a cliff with nothing being heard except the sounds of sobs and hiccups coming from the girl while the boy she lean on kept his mouth shut, his eyes streams tears a silent cry.

Both didn't say a word and seemed better that way. Each with their own thoughts as their hand entwine with each other, either to reasure each other or trying not to fall apart.

No one knows exactly...

But if there's one thing they thought the same, was something they really want to say to their love ones so dearly.

"Didn't you realize that i love you?"

End