"I never craved attention, until I tasted yours"

Siddharth's pov

"Kartik, as your time was the farthest away from 4 min. You'll have to leave us all today" Bigg boss said and the line we were all dreading to hear. 
I looked at Kartik he had a smile on his face as he got up. Wow! Still smiling, I would've been pissed at myself. The guy literally lost due to 5 seconds.
His time was 6 min 25 seconds while Dane's was 6 min 20 seconds. 

"Ok than, that's it I guess." Kartik said , Naira looked that she would start crying any second.
"No" She sniffed "Don't go" She added.
"Bu-" Kartik began but she again interrupted. "Stay pl-ease" And she was crying now.

"Aww I can't baby, come on it's just 1 week" He said sitting besides her and pulling her in his lap.
"I'll miss you" Naira said her voice coming out muffled
"I'll not, finally peace" He replied playfully 
"You are so mean" She replied hitting him on the chest and he chuckled. 
"You know I'll miss you too" He said putting a gentle kissing her forehead  

I turned to face Avneet expecting her to be sitting with hearts in her eyes like always, but she had tears flowing down her face. 
"Oh! Why are you crying now" I said which came more like a whine.
"They are so adorable" She cried
"But what is in there to cry?" I asked still confused
"I don't know, Iam not good with goodbyes" She said wiping her face.

"Oh my gosh, come here you kiddo" Kartik said as he hugged her
"Who said it's a good bye, we'll hang out once you all are out of here" He said ruffling her hair
"And" He said pulling away
"You are not allowed to cry, you just recovered" He scolded and Avneet nodded 

"Hope you'll not start crying " Kartik said turning towards me
"I don't love you that much." I replied and he laughed
"Yeah! I know someone you love that much though, and Iam clearly not her" He said smirking and I glared at him. "Shut up" I hissed
"Come on! Are you still in denial." He exasperated 
"Ah! maybe not" I replied flushed and his smirk returned

"I knew you were smarter than that. So you love her?" He asked excitedly
"I don't know love is still a strong word." I replied scratching my neck. It's not that my feelings for her are less, it's just I don't want to rush things. These type of feelings are new for me.

"It's ok, you should take your time. But Iam happy for you guys"" He replied
"What do you mean by 'you guys' I don't even know if she likes me back." I confessed something I've been afraid from the moment I realized my feelings.

"Trust me on this one" He assured before I could ask anything further Avneet interrupted 
"What are you guys gossiping about" She asked raising her eyebrow
"Nothing" I replied quickly and she gave me a skeptical look then whispered something to Naira and both giggled. 

It was finally Kartik's time to leave, he gave me and Avneet a last hug while Naira a quick kiss.
"All the best guys, see you soon" He said as he exited.

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"FIANLE"

It was THE FINALE today. Everyone was nervous as well as excited. Yesterday when I saw my journey video it was literally magical. I realized how far we've all come. What all we've gained what all we lost. It had the most amazing moments I've spent here with everyone. 
But it also had all the fights I've had, my loss of patience in every situation most of the time made things go worse. And it looked BAD. It really did. I need to work on it. 

The only time I don't regret showing my aggression was with that fucking Reyansh. When that part came I had clenched my fist so hard that my knuckles had become white. 
After that I went and gave a hug to Dane as well, as a token to end and leave our 'rivalry'  in the house . Which I might add was not my idea Avneet FORCED me to do it.

We had all the performances that they'll play today for the audience to watch recorded already.
While me and Avneet have to perform one live on stage just before the winner announcements.
You would be thinking why Avneet and ME. I mean I don't even know the D of dance. 

The poor choreographers and the people shooting our performances know how many times they'd to do retakes just because of me. 

It was Kartik and Avneet who were going to perform today instead of me and her , let me tell you from the start

FLASHBACK

"So it is decided then Kartik and Avneet will be performing the dance we have to prepare on behalf of us" Naira declared 
We were asked to prepare a performance on our own for the finale, and since Avneet and Kartik are the best dancers in this house they were chosen to represent it on behalf of  all of us.

It was fine in the beginning they were deciding steps and building the choreography , while Naira and I were sitting and watching. But when they started dancing together , a weird feeling started in the pit of my stomach, and I felt like I had  to control my  my breathing more. The feeling was like anger and longing swirled together.

No I wasn't jealous of Kartik I know their relationship isn't something for ME to be jealous about, maybe for Jai but definitely not me. I know they were just dancing .

He spun her and lifted her, and at one time they were just too close. They flowed together with with the music. For a split moment , they stood their totally in character and Kartik reached out to touch her face before they went on the next move.

And in that moment I realized how badly I wanted to be in his position right now. Being able to hold her, and lift her effortlessly into the air. Knowing that I would catch her and she would trust me to.

And soon enough the song came to the end and Naira jumped up applauding 
"Oh my , That was marvelous!" She exclaimed 
"Well that was kinda awkward" Avneet mumbled and Kartik nodded.

"What nooo It wasn't , you both were great. " Naira said waving her hand in air.
"Right Siddharth?" She suddenly added turning towards me , 
"Ah...ye-ah" I said clearing my throat 
"I mean, yeah! You both were great." I replied
"Umm.. I'll just come." I said and turned  to leave, but I felt Kartik staring at me intently.

And 2 days after , Kartik  was sitting in the living room with a sling on his arm. He said he was practicing in the garden when he banged his arm on a tree, and asked bigg boss to send a doctor soon only to find out it was broken.
"But how could you be so careless, Now how will we perform?" Avneet had wined.
"Iam sorry I can't. But maybe Siddharth can replace me." He told her and Avneet made a disapproving face.

"He doesn't know how to dance." She pointed out which was true.
"No problem I'll train him" Kartik said eagerly and reluctantly Avneet agreed.

No one even bothered to ask my choice.=)

********** 

And that is how I was stuck in this situation. I still don't know how to dance. But they changed the choreography and it's Avneet doing almost all of the work while Iam just supporting her and doing little but of portions.

What all Iam doing just for this girl, Damn she really have gotten me fucked up.
[In a positive way ;) ]

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Tadada! Another update. Not exactly finale finale but yeah whatever. 
Hope you liked it.
My OFFLINE exams are starting from monday and Iam scared as hell.

Also not going to end it after finale , I don't want to waste all the ideas I have in mind. so iam continuing this book. Ch might be a little irregular though.

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Published 23 September 2021
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