The only way to show my value is through studying and having kids, what a great news.

I hate studying but what can I do now? I'm not a genius, I can't get straight As without hard working and I can't even power my standard or else I'll be a disgrace to the family.

I hate to be the perfect one whom everyone look up to but still imperfect.

Can I be a genius? Tell me... How to save out of these tortures.

Mom keep telling me without kids and husband I have no values and she said that she treats me and my brother equally, haha.

I don't want to.

I'm scared.

What's wrong with taking a degree in my 30s and study up 'till 40s or 50s?

Why can't I do that but my brother can? You call that equal?

I'm the one who has to take care of him, I'm the one who you put all your hopes on but you tell me to fade away?

Yes, I want to live a normal life, but not like how you want to be.

Of course, loving my brother is necessary, I can't hate him because of you.

But please... Let me be...

I want nothing... Because of you, I have to swim in this lake for so long and can't even escape.

You call me a genius for swimming? YOU PUT MY WHOLE LIFE IN A SCHEDULE

YOU TELL ME TO DO SOMETHING I DON'T WANT TO

And I still listen to you, how ironic.

A doll playing for your dreams, that's my role huh?