you say

"i can't get to you with all that bullshit"

and i should just cut my drama and say what i mean

what i meant was

hear my call for help, even if i cant find the right words to say

sometimes i cry at night, thinking if i should go on for another day

and i say every pain that we feel is different

there is pain that we cant see

and we can't provide you with the details of where it hurts

it just does

we need different ways of care

the pain is in there somewhere,

i say

it's hard enough for me to understand myself

it's hard to tell where it hurts

when you don't know who to talk to,

it's hard to talk to people who have no clue

of how it hurts,

don't just give us experts,

give us someone who knows how to genuinely comfort

i swear

that if you just give us proper support

then i can promise

i'll manage to restrain myself
from cutting my life short.