I cry every time I look at that picture. I found it on Pinterest and I just decided to share my pain. You'll get me once you see

Plot line: Arthur catches Merlin writing a song.(Imagine Dragons-Demons)
Age recommendation: PG
(Comfort)
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Arthur POV

Something's been upsetting Merlin lately. I can tell. I don't know what it is, but I intend to find out. He's been hiding out in his room a lot lately and I've asked Gaius what's happened, but every time he answers with, "Merlin will tell you when he feels ready." Each time he says that I get angry, what's he hiding?!

Maybe I'm overreacting a bit. I don't need to know everything Merlin does. Besides, he'll fold eventually. He couldn't keep a secret from me even if he tried.

A/N *snickers* "that's what you think."

I stop just outside the Physicians Chambers and knock. I've got a bucket load of chores for Merlin to do, just so I can dig deeper into finding out what's wrong with him. When I hear no reply from the other side of the door, I cautiously open it to find the room completely empty.

And then I hear it. A strange sound, something I've never heard before...coming from Merlin's room. Tiptoeing quietly to avoid being caught, I slump up against the wall to Merlins room and listen intently. I cast a glance inside, the door being open and am appalled by what I see.

Merlin is sitting on his bed, facing down, strumming some strange instrument, that transmits some kind of sound. What surprises me even more though, is that he's singing. Merlin is singing. And he actually sounds really good.

"When the days are cold, and the cards all fold, and the saints we see are made of gold. When your dreams all fail, and the warms we hail, are the worst of all when the bloods run still.
I wanna hide the truth. I wanna shelter you. But with the beast inside, there's nowhere we can hide. No matter what we breath, we still are made of greed. This is my kingdom come. This is my kingdom come.
When you look at me, look into my eyes. It's where my demons hide. It's where my demons hide. Don't get too close, it's dark inside. It's where my demons hide. It's where my demons hide. ............"

I suppose the song would have continued if I hadn't chosen that particular moment to trip over a bucket. I quickly scramble to my feet and attempt to flee as Merlin's head whips around, spotting me.

"Arthur!" He gasps. "What the hell!"

Realizing I've been caught, I slowly turn around to face him, guilt lining my features. "Sorry." I mutter. "Nice-nice song. I didn't know you could sing."

"Well. If you'd stop being such a clot pole, you'd learn there's more to me than meets the eye." He sounds really annoyed.

"One, what's that supposed to mean. And two, where did you even come up with the song thing."

He snickers at me slightly. "Nothing and the song comes from the heart. It provides a way for me to express how I really feel without...never mind."

Only when I leave does the full meaning of his statement hit me. The song comes from the heart. What would he have to lose to make him write something so sad.

Look into my eyes. It's where my demons hide. I will never understand Merlin.