September 14th, 2014

I'm so fucking empty. So fucking tired. Why do I feel so alone? I have friends around me that love me and care about me and all I do is push them away. I don't let any of them know how I truly feel about anything. It's like I'm just a shell of a person at this point. I mean, it's not like I don't feel, I do. I feel so much. I just don't let anyone see it... Sometimes it's like none of them get that, though. They all think I'm just a robot or something unfeeling, unloving. Stone. Inanimate. I don't even fucking know what I'm writing anymore. Maybe Namjoon understands me. Or is that something I tell myself to lull myself into a false sense of security? Whatever. I don't care.