"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside while we live"
Norman Cousins

October 25th 2010
01x05 and 01x06

Everyone has been silent since last night. Andreas not moving from Amy it's sad, guilt-full
"Hay clem" Anaya says
"Hay what's up" I ask
"We need some help with the body's. I was told to ask you" she explained
"Ok.I'll be there." I responded
She began to walk away but then turned "are you okay you seem off" she asked
"I'm fine just everything that happened" I answer
"I get it. You think Andreas gonna be ok" she asked
"I don't know, I hope."I respond
"Think we can do anything" I asked again
"We have our family, she just lost hers" I explained
She walked of and a couple minutes later I followed to grab an axe to begin to chop at some of the dead bodies. Everyone trying to talk to Andrea, she's just ignoring them, I think we should leave her alone she's grieving we need to let her do that not get the way of her pain, but we also need to kill Amy, we can't have her coming back and killing more of us.

*cam whistles* "Clem come over here" he tells me
"Ok"
I walk over and they are talking about Amy
"Y'all can't be serious. Let that girl hamstring us? The d*ad girl's a time b*mb." Daryl states
"Is What do you suggest?"asked Rick
"Take the sh*t. Clean, in the brain from here. Hell, I can h*t a turkey between the eyes from this distance." Daryl explained
"No, what the hell" said ash
"No. For God's sakes, let her be." Lori said walking away
I guess that was the end of that discussion. Morales and Daryl drag the body of a d*ad camper toward the fire.
"What are you guys doing? This is for geeks. Our people go over there." Glenn explained
"What's the difference? They're all infected." Said Daryl
"Our people go in that row over there. We don't burn them! We bury them. Understand? Our people go in that row over there." Glenn re-explained
Daryl and Morales drag the body toward the digging hole. I smile at him to reassure him that he made the right call
"You reap what you sow." Said Daryl
Ash roles his eyes at her
"You know what? Shut up, man." Said morales
"Y'all left my brother for dead. You had this coming."Daryl said walking away
"Daryl don't" ash bellows after him
"Are you bleeding?" I hear jacqui ask form behind me so I turn to see her talking to Jim
"I just got some on me from the bodies." Jim responded
"That blood is fresh." I explained
"Were you bit?" Jacqui asked
"No. I got scratched during the att*ck." Jim tried to explain
"You got bit." I say
"I'm fine." He responds
"Then show us" jacqui tells him
"Don't tell, please." He begs
"A walker got him. A walker bit Jim." Jacqui bellows to the group
All the guys come around him, worried.
"I'm okay. I'm okay." Jim whispered
"Show it to us. Show it to us." Daryl demanded
"Easy, Jim." Shane tells him
"Grab him." Daryl says

Jim takes the shovel on the floor.
"Jim, put it down. Put it down." Shane told him
T-Dog catches Jim back and holds him.
"I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay" jim kept repeating
Daryl lifts Jim's shirt, revealing a deep wound.
"I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay. I'm okay." Jim explained

Later, the guys, Lori ,Jacqui, ash and I are talking about Jim's case.

"So what do we do"  I ask
"I say we put a pickaxe in his head and the d*ad girl's and be done with it."Daryl responded
"Is that what you'd want if it were you?" Shane asked
"Yeah, and I'd thank you while you did it."said Daryl
"Got shut it" ash tells him
"hate to say it... I never thought I would... but maybe Daryl's right." Said Dale
"Look he has a point"I added
"Jim's not a monster, guys, or some rabid dog." Said Rick
"I'm not suggesting..." Dale said
"He's sick. A sick man. We start down that road, where do we draw the line?" Rick asked
"When it kill us. If we keep him alive he'll kill us all of us. I'm not saying kill him now. I'm saying it ether we kill him or he kills us" I explained
"What if we can get him help? I heard the C.D.C. was working on a cure." Rick asked
"heard that too. Heard a lot of things before the world went to hell." Shane said
"What if the C.D.C. is still up and running?" Rick asked
"Man, that is a stretch right there." Shane expressed
"Why? If there's any government left, any structure at all, they'd protect the C.D.C. at all costs, wouldn't they? I think it's our best sh*t. Shelter, protection..." Rick explained
"I guess it could work" ash said
"Okay, Rick, you want those things, all right? I do too, okay? Now if they exist, they're at the army base. Fort Benning." Said shane
"That's 100 miles in the opposite direction." Says Lori
"That is right. But it's away from the hot zone. Now listen to me. If that place is operational, it'll be heavily armed. We'd be safe there." Shane said
He's such and asshole
"The m*llitary were on the front lines of this thing. They got overrun. We've all seen that. The C.D.C. is our best choice and Jim's only chance." Rick said
"Maybe we should try it out" I suggest
"You go looking for aspirin, do what you need to do. Someone needs to have some b*lls to take care of this damn problem!" Daryl bellowed walking over to the rv to kill Jim
"Hey hey hey!" Said shane
Daryl heads toward Jim with his pickaxe and tries to take a swing. Rick points his g*n at Daryl's head.
"We don't kill the living." Rick states
"That's funny coming from a man who just put a gun to my head." Sarcastically Daryl said

Daryl puts the pickaxe down and goes away ash follows behind

"Come with me." Rick demands
"Where are you taking me?" Jim asks
"Somewhere safe." Rick says
Rick takes Jim with him.

I walk over to the main area and Dale is sits beside Andrea.
"I came to pay my respects. Did I ever mention how I lost my wife?" Dale asked
"Cancer, wasn't it?" Andrea asked
"Yeah. I dragged her to every doctor, every test. And after all the surgeries and the chemos, she was ready. She accepted it, you know? But I never could. And I spent the last few years so angry. I felt so cheated. Since she passed, you girls were the first people... That I cared anything for." Said dale
"This is her birthday?" Dale asked
"Her birthday was always like... like a week long affair. But I somehow always missed it. I was away at college or too busy for kid's parties. She'd call all excited. I always said that I'd make it home and I really always meant to, but I never made it past that phone call." Expressed Andrea
"I know things are hard enough for you without adding guilt into the mix, huh?" Said dale

Andrea pulls out the mermaid necklace and wraps it around Amy's neck. If I said something about the walker I killed something could of changed she could of gave her sister the necklace herself not her dead body.
Nearby, Daryl continues to swing the pickaxe into dead walkers' skulls. When he gets to Ed, Carol stops him.
"I'll do it. He's my husband." Said carol
She swings the pickaxe down on Ed's skull repeatedly and all of her anger against her abusive husband is let loose. Amy's breathing. On the ground, Amy begins to stir. She opens her eyes.
"Andrea" I whispered to her
"Amy. Amy, I'm "sorry. I'm sorry for not ever being there. I always thought there'd be more time. I'm here now, Amy. I'm here. I love you." Said Andrea
Andrea sobs and shoot Amy in the head.

Later at the quarry we are digging graves for everyone who died we . Andrea and Dale are carrying Amy's body and putting it into a digging hole. Andrea is crying.
"I can do it. I can do it. I can do it! I can do it." She told Dale
She drags Amy's body into the grave as we all watched and she's crying.
"Burying other people is bad enough, but the thought of one of us..." said Rick
"Shh" lori told Rick
"Are we safe now, dad? Now that we're together?" Asked Carl
" I won't leave again. I promise you that. Not for anything. Now give me a chance to discuss some things with your mom, okay?" Rick said
"Dad. It's Jim" Anya says "His fever is worse."
He looks over at me and we walk over to see what wrong with Jim
"You need anything?" I ask
"Uh... Water. Could use more water." Jim responded
"I'll get some." I say
"Carol you wanna come with me" I ask her
We leave
"He won't make the night" carol tells me as we walk away
"I know, we all do. We're just waiting to get to the cdc. They might be available to save him. We can only hope" I explain
"You know if yo need anyone you got me" carol told me
"Ye. Thanks"
We walk over to the bottled water and pour some into a bowl so we can pat his head down and the rest stayed in the bottle and we went back
"Ok let's go back" she tells me
We walk back to the rv and Rick is just coming out. We give him some water and dap his head with some of it to.

"Ok. As long ok"
"Shane is fine. You got a problem with him?"
"A little he's kinda an ass"I respond
"Ok, we I can't deny that" laughed rick
"Ok let's go" I tell him
"Let's" he responded

Rick, Shane ,Dale and I depart to sweep the forest for walkers.
"Honey you ok" Dale asks
"Fine, why wouldn't I be" I ask
"Your nicer" stats dale whilst walking away
"Hay im always nice" I respond
"Ye not that's nice" said dale
"Funny dale" I respond
"It's strange that they are this far out. They never come up here" said dale
"It's only been a icouple months since the beginning of this. I think their advancing or something like that. Something we can't control" i theories
"Interesting theory"he adds
"I guess. I'm gonna go walk that way just in case there is some there" I tell
"Ok. If you need anything or if anything happens. Howler, I'll come runnin" Dale said
"Ok mom" I respond
I walk not far from them but a good distance. I see nothing after looking around at the humungous trees, but I stay for a while and just sit. It's nice out here when nobody's around to tell me anything, im free out here even if there's a million geeks out here that could kill me in a second. But, if I'm honest, that relives me. The idea that I could die in any moment kinda soothes my undisclosed trauma. It's fun, it's thrilling, it's their world we just live in it.then a dear springs out from behind a tree, and I spring up. For a minute I just stand there looking at the admirable beauty of the dear and then I stick it with my bow and arrows. The arrow lands within its innocent body and I pick it up.
Then I walk back over to the boys and see Dale and Shane standing in the middle of the woods with Rick not far ahead
"Hay im back" I state breaking the silence
"You see anything" Dale asked
"No just trees and this dear" I responded
"We are gonna eat tonight" Shane adds
"See anything Rik"I asked
"Nah, let's go back" he responded
We all head back to camp
"I've been, uh... I've been thinking about Rick's plan. Now look, there are no... There are no guarantees either way. I'll be the first one to admit that. I've known this man a long time. I trust his instincts. I say the most important thing here is we need to stay together. So thosde of you that agree, we leave first thing in the morning." I hear Shane tell Rick not far from me
"Okay" Rick responded

At dawn, Rick tries to once again reach Morgan to advise him of their plan. I hear him talking from the distance
"We're moving out, leaving the quarry. If you heard me yesterday, you may be coming here. If you are, we'll be gone by the time you arrive. I'm leaving a note and map behind for you taped to a red car so you can follow our trail. We're heading to the C.D.C. If there's anything left, it's got to be there, don't you think? Morgan... I hope you were right about that place. I need you to be." I hear him tell him

I wonder how many alive people are out there. There's probably a lot. There probably out there. I wonder in Chloe's ok, she's my sister. She got adopted the last time we were in foster care they went back for her. I miss her. Also Cole he's her twin brother he was probably my coolest brother out of him and cam. And Cassy she's the one who went to carls for play dates. Last time I saw Cole and Cassy they were running with mom away form the eaters. I miss them, I miss them all.

"Everybody listen up. Those of you with C.B.s, we're gonna be on channel 40. Let's keep the chatter down, okay? Now you got a problem, don't have a C.B., can't get a signal or anything at all, you're gonna h*t your horn one time. That'll stop the caravan. Any questions?" Asked Shane
"We're, uh... We're... we're not going." Responded morales
"We have family in Birmingham. We want to be with our people." Said morales wife Miranda
"You go on your own, you won't have anyone to watch your back." Explained Shane
"We'll take the chance. I got to do what's best for my family." Morales responded
"You sure?" I asked
"We talked about it. We're sure." Morales responded
"All right. Shane." Said Rick
"Yeah, all right." Responded Shane
"357?" Rick asked
"Ye" responded Shane
Rick hands Morales a gun and Shane hands him ammo.
"The box is half full." Shane told morales
"Thank you all... For everything." Morales said
Lori hugs miranda then me
"Come here." Lori tells Carl and Anaya
"Good luck, man." Cameron tells morales
"Ye be careful" Callie adds
"Appreciate it." Morales says
"Yeah." Cameron responded
Eliza hugs Sophia, then Callie hugs her. Miranda and Jacqui hug. Eliza gives her doll to Sophia, who is crying.
"Bye." Said Eliza morales child
"Channel 40 if you change your minds. All right?" Rick told him
"Yeah." Morales responded

We all sob as they walk over to a car to talk it away till we can't see them anymore

"What makes you think our odds are any better? Come on. Let's go. Let's move out." Shane tells us
"Ok" I respond

Dale is driving his RV, while Jacqui takes care of Jim, who is in pain, and Glenn is next to Dale and Callie and Cameron is sitting at the table. Rick is driving a car with Lori by his side, Carl ,Sophia and Anaya and I on the backseat, followed by Shane's car, T-Dog's car with Andrea, and Daryl's car with a motorcycle on it. Then suddenly the RVs radiator hose busts.

"I told you we'd never get far on that hose. I said I needed the one from the cube van." Dale shouts from the rv
"Can you jury-rig it?" Rick asks
"That's all it's been so far. It's more duct tape than hose. And I'm out of duct tape." Responded dale
"I see something up ahead. A gas station if we're lucky." Shane says

We walk out of all of our vehicles to talk about the rv
Jacquie gets out last

"Y'all, Jim... It's bad. I don't think he can take anymore." She explained
She walks back over to Jim and I follow
"Hay" I say to jim
"Hay kid." He responds in an ratchy voice
"He's not gonna make it" Jacquie whispered to me
"I know" I respond
Rick walks in whilst Shane and t-dog drives a head to get some gas. And I'm sitting with Jacquie and Andrea
"We'll be back on the road soon." Rick tells jim in the back
"Oh no. Christ... My bones... My bones are like glass. Every little bump... God, this ride is k*lling me. Leave me here. I'm done. Just leave me. I want to be with my family." Jim tells him
"They're all d*ad. I don't think you know what you're asking. The fever... You've been delirious more often than not." Rick told jim
"I know. Don't you think I know?" Jim groaned
"I'm clear now. In five minutes I may not be. Rick, I know what I'm asking. I want this. Leave me here. Now that's on me. Okay? My decision. Not your failure." Jim tells Rick
We are all look and Rick nods at Jim then at us to make a sign to stay it's time to say goodbye
Outside
"It's what he says he wants." Rick tells the group
"And he's lucid?" Asked carol
"He seems to be. I would say yes" Rick responded
"Back in the camp when I said Daryl might be right and you shut me down, you misunderstood. I would never go along with callously k*lling a man. I was just gonna suggest that we ask Jim what he wants. And I think we have an answer." Explained Shane
"We just leave him here? We take off? Man, I'm not sure I could live with that." Shane asked
"I don't we should do it" Cameron said
"He wants to go" Callie demanded
"It's not your call, it's non of your calls." I told them
"Fine" shane stormed away into the rv to get Jim and Rick follows him.
Rick and Shane carry Jim to a nearby tree.
"Hey, another damn tree." Jim chuckled
Hey, Jim... I mean, you know it doesn't need to be this."
"No. It's good. The breeze feels nice." Jim says
"Okay. All right." Said shane
"Just close your eyes, sweetie. Don't fight." Jacqui told him
"Hay jim, I never really knew you. But I would of liked to" I say
"You'll make it far kid. You got it in ye. I didn't"
He says whilst closing his eyes
Rick shows him a gun
"Jim, do you want this?" Rick asked him
"No. You'll need it. I'm okay. I'm okay." Responded Jim
"Oh. Hey. Thanks for, uh, for fighting for us."  Dale says
"Okay." Whispered Jim
The group departs after making goodbye signs to Jim.
We drive, drive until we can't see Jim anymore, until we only see trees and some rotters walking around moaning and jabbing at us. I can only think about what Jim said, how i got it in me. I don't I think I wanna live long, I don't know why, but I don't what to be here not for long at least. But maybe , maybe I can make it, if I fight, if I want to fight. I don't know why but I don't know how to fight for me just how to fight for everyone else I think that could promise him that, I think that's why he didn't ask for me to promise. Little cringey but it's how u feel.

The caravan arrives outside the compound. Surrounding the building are a lot of corpses, as well as swarms of flies. Our caravan approaches the CDC, where hundreds of bodies lay d*ad on the ground. The group quietly approaches the building.

"All right, everybody. Keep moving. Go on. Stay quiet. Let's go. Okay, keep moving. Stay together." Shane told us
"Keep moving. Come on." Said Cameron
"Shh." Said Carol
"Carol." Callie whispered
"Shh." Said shane
"Oh, God." Stated glenn

We reach the building which is locked and shuttered.
"Keep it together. Come on." Shane told us
"We're almost there, baby. Almost there." Lori told Carl and Anaya
"Nothing?" Cameron questioned
Shane pounds on door.
"There's nobody here."t-dog stats
"Then why are these shutters down?" Rick asks
"Walkers!" Dary alerts us
"Baby's, come on." Lori tells carol and Andrea
Daryl and Ashly shoot the walker in the heads at the same time."
"Cool shot" he tells her
"You lead us into a grave yard!" Daryl bellows
"He made a call."said Shane
"It was the wrong damn call!" Shouted dale
"Just shut up. You hear? Shut up. Shut up! Rick, this is a d*ad end." Explained Shane
"Where are we gonna go?" I asks
"Do you hear me? No blame.
She's right. We can't be here, this close to the city after dark." Lori said
"Fort Benning, Rick... Still an option."
"On what? No food, no fuel. That's 100 miles."Andrea asks
"215 I checked the map." Said Glenn
"Forget Fort Benning. We need answers tonight, now." Said Anaya
"We'll think of something." Said Rick
"Come on, let's go. Let's get out of here. Let's go. Please." Asked Cameron
Rick catches sight of the security camera's movement.
"All right, everybody back to the cars. Let's go. Move." Demanded Shane
"The camera... it moved" explained Rick
"Trick of light" I negotiated
"It moved. It moved." Said Rick
"Rick, it is d*ad, man. It's an automated device. It's gears, okay? They're just winding down. Now come on." Shane explained
"Man, just listen to me. Look around this place. It's dead, okay? It's dead. You need to let it go, Rick." Said Shane
Rick slams on the shutters.
"Rick, there's nobody here!"states Lori
"Rick just come on" I said
"I know you're in there. I know you can hear me.
Shane tries to drag him away, with the help of Lori.
"Everybody get back to the cars now!" Shane demanded
"Please, we're desperate. Please help us. We have women, children, no food, hardly any gas left." Explained Rick
"Rick. There's nobody here." I told him
"We have nowhere else to go." Rick told us
Rick pounds on the door.
"Keep your eyes open. If you don't let us in, you're killing us! Please!" Rick shouted
"Come on, buddy, let's go. Let's go." Said Shane
"Please help us. You're k*lling us! You're k*lling us! You're k*lling us!" Bellowed Rick
The group is just about to leave when the door to the CDC opens, drowning the survivors in light.
"Hello" a man bellow
"Hello" a man bellow again
gun cocks we all cock ours and hold them towards the man
"Anybody infected?" A man asks
"One of our group was. He didn't make it." Rick responded
"Why are you here?what do you want?" The man  asks
"A chance" Rick responds
"That's asking an awful lot these days" he replied
"I know" Rick said
We all just stare at him waiting for an answer to come out of him mouth
"You all submit to a blood test. That's the price of admission." He tells us
"We can do that" Rick responded
"You got stuff to bring in, you do it now. Once this door closes. It says closed" he tells us
We all run in and the man says something into the machinery and locks the door. We all walk down to the elevator and all crowd into it. There is bearly any room
"Doctors always go around packing heat like that" Daryl asked
Ash gave him a look of disapproval
"There were plenty left lying around i familiarised myself" dr Jenner (I think his name was) responded
"But you look harmless enough" he said
"Except you" he said looking at Carl "I'll have to keep my eye on you" he chuckled
We get of the elevator and start walking down a long hallway
"Are we underground" carol asked
"Are you claustrophobic" Jenner asked
"A little" carol responded
"Try not to think about it" he told her
We keep walking until we enter a main room it seems like
"Vi bring up the lights in the big room" he tells vi (the computer thing)
"Welcome to zone 5" he tells us
"Where is everybody"I ask
"The other doctors, the staff?"Rick added
"Im it" he tells us "It's just me here."
"What about the person you were speaking with"Lori asked
"Vi" Callie added
"Vi say hello to our guests" he tells vi "tell them welcome"
"Hello guests. Welcome" a computer voice replies
"Well I could of told you that" I say
"I'm all that's left" he tells us "I'm sorry" he says
He tells us to sit for our blood transfusions and we all get them done Andrea last
"What the point" Andrea asks "If we were infected we'd all be running a fever"
"I've already broken every rule in the book letting you in here.Let me just at least be thorough." He responded
Syringe clicks
"All done."said Jenner
"Ooh." Said Andrea
"Are you okay?" Jenner asks
"Mmm." She responds
"She hasn't eaten in days."jacqui tells him"None of us have."
"Would you like something" he asks us
"Oh yes please" Anaya responds
Soon we are all eating and drinking laughing together
"You know in Italy, children have a little bit of wine with dinner" Dale tells us  "and in France"
"Well, when Carl and Anaya is in Italy or France, they can have some then." Lori responded
"What's it gonna hurt? Come on." Rick tells her "come on"
She lifts her hand from their drinks and were all laughing
"Here you are young lad and lady" Dale says
Carl drinks some then squirms, but Anaya seams to like it
"Eww" Carl says
"I like it" Anaya says
Lori has a shocked face on her about Anaya's response but seems proud of Carl and we are all laughing
"Well, just stick to sour pop there, bud." Responds shane
"Not you, Glenn." Said Daryl
"What?" Glenn asked
"Keep drinking, little man. I want to see how red your face can get." Said Daryl
We all laughed are minds out
Rick clangs his glass and then makes a toast
"It seems to me we haven't thanked our host properly." Said Rick
"He is more than just a host"said t-dog
"Hear hear!" We all bellow
"Here's to you, doc. Booyah!" Said Daryl
"So when are you gonna tell us what the hell happened here, doc?All the... the other doctors" Shane asked
"that were supposed to be figuring out what happened, where are they" Shane asked
"We're celebrating, Shane." Said Rick
"Don't need to do this now." Ash adds
"Whoa, wait a second. This is why we're here, right?" He says "This was your move...Supposed to find all the answers.Instead we...( Chuckles )We found him.Found one man. Why?" He asked
"Well, when things got bad,a lot of people just left.Went off to be with their families. And when things got worse, when the m*llitary cordon got overrun, the rest bolted." Jenner explained
"Ever last one of them" I asked
"No, many couldn't face walking out the door.
They... opted out.There was a rash of suicides.That was a bad time." He added
"You didn't leave. Why?" Andrea asked
"I just kept working.Hoping to do some good." Jenner explained
We are all silent for a moment then
"Dude, you are such a buzzkill, man." Piped up Glenn

We all walk back to the area where there is beds and such all together.
"Most of the facility is powered down including housing, so you'll have to make do here.The couches are comfortable, but there are cots in storage if you like.There's a rec room down the hall that you kids might enjoy.Just don't plug in the video games, okay?Or anything that draws power. The same applies...If you shower, go easy on the hot water."
Jenner explained
"Hot water" said Glenn
"That's what the man said" responded t-dog
We all hop into a shower the steaming water dripping down onto my face is a feeling I've never felt before. It's reliving, relaxing, nice I like that hotness of the water I missed that
After the shower I walk around just seeing what's around and look at one of the rooms with a couch it seems nice and cam already seems to have claimed it so I sneak my stuff in there with theirs and then start walking around some more and I come across the entertainment area and hear shane Lori arguing
"Do you now want it was like their" I hear form the open door
"Stop Stop. Things were falling apart.They were slaughtering people in the hallways.It was a m*ssacre. There were walkers everywhere." Shane expressed
"So you left him?"lori asked
"Everybody else ran.There were no doctors there. It was just me.He was hooked up to machines and I did not know what to do.I even took my ear and I put it on his chest and I listened for a heartbeat and I did not hear one.And I-I-I-I... I don't know why Maybe it was g*n. I don't know what it was, but there was no way he could've survived that. No way." Shane explained
"He did" she stated
"Yeah, but then I had y'all to think about, didn't I?" Shane said
"I had you and Carl, and I needed to think about..." he added
"Okay. No no." She says
"I had to get you guys safe to Atlanta.That's what I had to do. Just stop.If you thought for one second that he was still alive, would you have come?So I saved your life... you and your little boy's. That's what I did.Right?Okay.And if I could've traded places with him, I would have.I would trade places with him right now because...No no no. No.No no no, you..." shane explained
"No"she whispered
"I love you. Shh shh." He says
"No. No, you're drunk." She says
"No, you're drunk. And I know there were some things that say that you love me too.Because there's no way that you could've been with me the way that you were." He explained
"Shane. Shane." She whispered
"Just... Okay, stop." She tells him
"Listen. You love me." He says
"Get your hands off me. Get your hands off me." She demanded
"I love you. There's nobody here." He said
"Please! No!" She bellows
"Stop, Lori. It's all right. Just..." he says
I step in and grab his neck
"Hay!" I say "get away from her you fucking freak" I shout
We just just stand there glaring angrily at one another in silence then Shane pound the door open and Lori seems to be in destress
"Hay"I whispered "hay are you ok" I ask
"I'm fine, and I didn't need your help" she cries
"Didn't need my help. Lori he attacked you. He sexually assau-" I was cut off
"Shh. Don't tell anyone you hear me" she told me
"I wasn't going, just wanted to make sure you were ok"I said
"I know... I know"Lori whimpered
She sat and cried in my arms for at least a minute and then after she whipped her tiers we walked back to are rooms acting like nothing happened and went to bed.
I couldn't sleep. I was worried about her, if she was ok, she's probby not. I know how it feels and you feel like shit but we need our rest or so mother would say.

October 26th 2010

We are all sat around the table eating some breakfast when Rick walks in and says hello to us all and good morning
"Are you hungover" Carl asks
Anaya giggles after he says it
"Mom said you'd be" he explained
"Mom is right" Shane said Rick
"Mom has that annoying habit
Anaya , Callie and I chuckled
I'm not really listen to the conversations just looking at Lori wondering if she's ok and keeping my eyes on her to make sure she's ok then here comes in the motherfucker himself.
"Hay" Shane says
"Hay" Rick responds
"Feel as bad as I do?" Rick asked
"Worse" responded Shane
"The hell happened to you? Your neck?"rick asked
"I must have done it in my sleep." Shane responded glaring at me
"Never seen you do that before" Rick said
"Me neither" said Shane
"Must have been the wine"I said
"Ye.must have" he responded
"Morning." Said Jenner
"Hey, doc." Says Shane "Doctor, I don't mean to slam you with questions first thing..."
"But you will anyway" said Jenner
"We didn't come here for the eggs." Andrea said
"Come" Jenner tells us
We all follow Jenner into the main room and he tells vi to give him playback of TS-19. And she plays it back
"Few people ever got a chance to see this.Very few." Jenner told us
"Is that a brain" Callie asked
"An extraordinary one.Not that it matters in the end.Take us in for E.I.V.." Jenner says
"Enhanced internal view." Said vi
"What are those lights?" Shane asked
"Us" I said
"It's a person's life...experiences, memories.It's everything.Somewhere in all that organic wiring,all those ripples of light." Jenner explained
"Us" I said
"Exactly" he responded
"the thing that makes you unique.And human." I add
"You don't make sense ever?" Said Daryl
"Those are synapses, electric impulses in the brain that carry all the messages.They determine everything a person says does or thinks from the moment of birth to the moment of death." Jenner explained
"Death? That's what this is, a vigil?" I asked
"Yes" he answered
"Or rather the playback of the vigil." He added
"This person did?" Andrea asked "who?"
"Test subject 19" Jenner replied "someone who was bitten, and infected, and volunteered to have us record the process" he explained
"Vi scan forward to the first event" Jenner says
"Scanning to first event." Says vi
"What is that?"asked Glenn
"It invades the brain like meningitis.The adrenal glands hemorrhage,the brain goes into shutdown,then the major organs.Then death.Everything you ever were or ever will be...Gone." Jenner explains
"Is that what happened to Jim?"Sofia asked
"Ye,honey" replied Carol
We're all seem upset but I intrigued I wanna know more like if there's any cure to death, to a bit that infects you and kills you. I mean come on theirs no way. Andrea walks to a chair whimpering
"She lost somebody two days ago." Lori explained
"Her sister." Anaya added
"I lost somebody too.I know how devastating it is.Scan to the second event." Jenner says
"Scanning to second event." Responded vi
"The resurrection times vary wildly.We had reports of it happening in as little as three minutes.The longest we heard of was eight hours.In the case of this patient,it was two hours, one minute...Seven seconds." Jenner explained
"It restarts the brain?" Cam asked
"No, just the brain stem.Basically, it gets them up and moving." Jenner responds
"But they're not alive?" I say
"You tell me." Jenner said
The screen shows us the brain stem waking up but the part that makes you, you is still dead.
"It's nothing like before.Most of that brain is dark." Said Rick
"Dark, lifeless, dead." Jenner states "The frontal lobe, the neocortex, the human part... That doesn't come back.The you part.Just a shell driven by mindless instinct."
We see a gun go into the patients head and me and Callie unwillingly jump back
"Jesus" Anaya whispered
"God. What was that?" Carol asked
"He sh*t his patient in the head. Didn't you?" Andrea asked
"Vi, power down the main screen and the workstations."said Jenner
"Powering down main screen and workstations." Responded vi
"You have no idea what it is, do you?"said Andrea
"It could be microbial, viral, parasitic,fungal." Responded Jenner
"Or the wrath of God"jacqui added
"There is that." Said Jenner
"Somebody must know something.Somebody somewhere." Andrea said
"There are others, right? Other facilities?" Anaya asked
"There may be some.People like me." Jenner responded
"But you don't know? How can you not know?" Rick angrily asked
"Everything went down.Communications, directives... all of it.I've been in the dark for almost a month." Explained Jenner
"So it's not just here. There's nothing left anywhere? Nothing?That's what you're really saying, right?" Andra sates
I mean lose your family and turn into a maniac I guess
"Man, I'm gonna get shit-faced drunk again." Said Daryl
"Dr Jenner, do you mind one more question. What the timer counting down to" I ask
"The basement generators... they run out of fuel." He respond
"and then" I ask
Silence he says nothing
"Vi, what happens when the power runs out?" Rick asks vi
"When the power runs out, facility-wide decontamination will occur." Vi answers
We all sit and then me Rick shane Glenn t-dog and cam go down to the basement
"Decontamination... What does that mean?"
"Decontamination. It's gonna blow. Into millions of little pieces, and of those tiny little life less pieces will be us." Cam explained
"God why did you have to explain it like that." I say
"In there." Rick said
(Beeps ) ( Lights humming)
"Check that way" Rick tells me Glenn and t-dog
"Shane. Cam" he says to sign them to come with him
Nothing is happening it's just complete silence with is weird we should at least hear large machines clanking loudly or something ,maybe cam's right maybe we're all going to implode into millions of little pieces. Then the lights shut of and the emergency lighting comes on. Glenn runs over to ask them is they killed the lights but they didn't
"Anything?" Asked Rick
"Yeah, a lot of dead generators and more empty fuel drums than I can count." T-dog explained
"See I'm right" said cam
"We don't know that yet" said Shane
"It can't be down to just that one." I added
We run back up to the main area to talk to Jenner about what the hell is going on. We find everyone crowded together 
"Rick?" Lori shouted
"Jenner what's happening?" Rick asked
"The system is dropping all the nonessential uses of power.It's designed to keep the computers running to the last possible second.That started as we approached the half-hour mark.Right on schedule." Jenner nagged
"It was the French." He added
"The French what" Callie asked
"They were the last ones to hold out as far as I know.While our people were bolting out the doors and committing su1c1de in the hallways, they stayed in the labs till the end.They thought they were close to a solution." Jenner explained
"What happened?"asked jacqui
"The same thing that's happening here.No power grid.Ran out of uice.The world runs of fossil fuel.I mean, how stupid is that?"jenner added
"Let me tell you..." shane said
"To hell with it, Shane. I don't even care.Lori, grab our things. Everybody, get your stuff.We're getting out of here now!" Rick explained
"Oh, okay." Said jacqui
Alarm blaring
"What's that" ask carl
"30 minutes to decontamination." Said vi
"Doc, what's going on here?" Asked Daryl
"Everybody, y'al heard Rick.Get your stuff and let's go! Go now! Go! Let's go." Told Shane
"Come on!" Said Glenn
We all follow him but then the doors lock on themselves
"Shit" I whispered
"Did you just lock us in?He just locked us in!" Said Glenn
"We've h*t the 30-minute window. I am recording." Said jenner
"Are you kidding me" I shout
"Oh my god, what the hell" said Callie
"Anaya, Carl." Lori bellowed
"Mom!" They responded almost at the same time
"You son of a bitch." Said Daryl
"Shane! Exclaimed rick
"You let us out of here!" Daryl shouted
"No, stop. Don't!" Shane told him
"Hay Jenner open the door now" Rick told Jenner
"There's no point. Everything topside is locked down. The emergency exits are sealed " explains Jenner
"Well, open the damn things." Demanded t-dog
"That's not something I control. The computers do.  I told you once that front door closed, it wouldn't open again. You heard me say that.It's better this way." Nagged Jenner
"What is?What happens in 28 minutes?What happens in 28 minutes?!" Asked Rick
"Come on!" Said Daryl
"You know what this place is?!We protected the public from very nasty stuff!weapon smallpox!Ebola strains that could wipe out half the country Stuff you don't want getting out! Ever!" Exclaimed Jenner "In the event of a catastrophic power failure... in a t*rror1st att*ck, for example...H.I.T.s are deployed to prevent any organisms from getting out."
"H.I.T.s?" Rick asked
"Vi, define." Jenner tells
"Hits, high-impulse thermobaric fuel-air explosives consists of a two-stage aerosol ignition that produces a blast wave of significantly greater power and duration than any other known explosive except nuclear.The vacuum-pressure effect ignites the oxygen between 5,000° and 6,000° and is used when the greatest loss of life and damage to structures is desired" Explained vi
"It sets the air on fire. No pain." Said Jenner
"An end to sorrow, grief...Regret.Everything." Added Jenner
We all look shocked at Jenner and my heart goes numb nothing. I can't even hear the slightest whimpering from the kids. I can't, it's all nothing. I didn't even hear them go to the doors and try and open them. The thing that snap me out of it was
"Open the damn door" shouted Cameron
"Out of my way!" Added shane
They run up and try and batter the impenetrable iron before us
"What you gonna do? Not even a rocket could get through that!" Ash shouted
"Bet I could" response Daryl
"Oh my GOD! She screamed "yo are so big head even in a time when we're about to die"
"You should've left well enough alone, it would've been so much easier"
"Oh, to what kill yourself. I get it you wanna die, that's fine. You won't find me stopping you. But I don't think these kid wanna die, do you?" I express
"I can't help this" he said
"Of course you can. I read about it. In circumstances like this if someone was to four-say change their mind there would be a button on the keyboard to let them do that."I exclaimed
"Maybe"he said
"So do it" Rick demanded
"I can't. You should do it this was. A quick painless death. Your sister what was her name" he asked
"Amy" Andrea responded
"Amy.You know what this does.You've seen it.Is that really what you want for your wife and son?" He asked Rick
"I don't want this" he replied
"Can't make a dent" Shane said
"Those doors are designed to withstand a rocket launch. Like Ashley said" Jenner explained
"Well your head ain't" angrily Daryl said
"Whoa! Whoa!" Said Rick and dale
They all demand for him to back up and he did
"You do want this" he said
"How you to tell us how to die" Anaya asked
"It's easier this way" he replied
"How do you know. You don't. You don't have any right. So open the damn door" she demanded
"This isn't right. You can't just keep us here" cried carol
"One tiny moment. A millisecond. No pain" said Jenner
"My daughter doesn't deserve to die like this" carol whimpered
"Wouldn't it be kinder. More compassionate to just hold your loved ones and wait for the clock to run down?" He asked
We all glare at him like he's a murder beep I guess he's about to be.
Shane gun cockes and her walks over Rick is trying to hold him back but he won't comply
"Open that door. Or I'm gonna blow your head off. Do you hear me?" Shane shouted
"Brother.brother, this is not the way you do this. We'll never get out of here." Rick told him
"Shane you listen to him."Lori added
Shane yelled so loud I think ever Walker from a 3 mile radius heard it and we are in a air tight box. He began yelling and shooting at the computers and we all duck down for safety. I'm in complete shock I don't know what... what to do how to... to feel all I can feel is my breath heavy, cold, scared.
"I think you lying" Rick said
"What" said Jenner
"Your lying. About no hope. If that was true, you'd have bolted with the rest or taken the easy way out. You didn't." Exclaimed rick "you chose the hard path. Why?"
"It doesn't matter." Jenner answered
"It does matter. It always matters. You stayed when the others ran. Why?" Rick asked
"Not because I wanted to" Jenner responded "I made a promise. To her. My wife."
"Test subjects 19 was your wife" asked Anaya
"She begged me to keep gong as long as I could. How could I say no? She was dying."explained Jenner "it's should of been me on that table. I wouldn't have mattered to anybody. She was a loss to the world. Hell, she ran this place. I just worked here. In our field she was Einstein. Me? I'm just... Edwin Jenner. She could've done something about this. Not me."
"Your wife didn't have a choice. You do. Thats... that's all we want. A choice, a chance." Said Rick
"Let us keep trying as along as we can" added Lori
"I told you topsides locked down I can't open those." He reiterated
He walks over to a thing and puts a key card on it and then pushes some buttons. Very confusing when you don't know what's going on. Then the door unlocked and everyone is rejoicing, happy. And I feel is nothing, nothing at all. Do I stay, or do I go, I don't know. I stand there for a minute but it feels like hours contemplating should I go or not. I don't how to describe how I felt just... I feel nothing numb lost, until I remember what Jim said to me, that I've got in me to live, even if I don't think I do and I run with them.
"Nah I'm staying" she said "I'm staying sweetie"
"But that's insane" t-dog replied
"It's completely sane" she said
"for the first time in a long time. I'm not ending up like Jim or Amy. It's no time to argue. And no point not If you want to get out. Just get out. Get out" she cried
"Come one let's go" Shane tells him
We all run and go up the stairs and try to open the bolted doors. I knew fine well that nothing would open it until carol pulled out a Granda. Well run and duck form the up incoming ironic expression. And the glass breaks open and we rush out. Walker are growling all around us and we kill them in blows as we run to the vehicles and jump inside leaving Jacquie, Andrea and dale inside with Jenner
"Wait, wait" said lori
And we see dale and Andrea climbing out from the building
"10 seconds" I screamed from the back
We tell the to get down and we all get into the back of the van for safety

And then

All at once

Canboom!