I left Stephan in a hurry outside my office at the casino, and I notified let no one disturbs me.

She went out for a drink with her friends and didn't even send me a message.

Am I jealous? Who? Me?

No, of course not. I don't give a shit what she's doing. It's just that when I saw Stephan being so close to her, something spoiled me. I don't know what it is, but what counts is that it ruined my mood.

What's mine, I don't like to share. And Reva is mine and that says it all. I can still feel her lips on my erection.

I've been sucked by a bunch of chicks, but Reva is different. For me, it may have been just a blow job, but for her, it was something bigger. It was like she was honoring something to me; even if it was just a horny moment.

How special can such a moment be for a woman?

I mean, it was just a boner. Although I'd like to frig her in those toilets, she left me no choice. She interfered with my business. She shouldn't have done that. And if I treat her hard, I do it so she doesn't bond with me.

I don't want her to fall in love with me and think I fell with her, too. If she does that, she's gonna have done the biggest shit of her life.

I did the same shit once in my life. I loved a woman. Bridget. She took all my love, and I have nothing to give to anyone else. Maybe she's the reason I'm so tough. But I don't have to let another bitch flatten me again just to declare I'm the right guy in love stuff. Bridget is long enough.

I told Stephan before to call this Claudine from the King's Club when she's finished her job, to come here to the casino and find me.

I'd fuck her comfortably for an hour. That's because I want to avoid Elva. I don't like her at all right now. I'll figure out a way to get rid of her later, if possible, from the casino, too. She's a shrew, and she won't shut up.

I've got Marinell in my hand anyway. If she dares, let her tell Reva where she was earlier and what she did. Maybe she would forgive me but certainly not her. She's a friend of hers, and what Marinell did would bother her.

Yeah, sure... if she wouldn't forgive me, I don't give a shit.

And if I kept seeing Reva, it's because I was surprised that night that I threatened her with the money, and she gave it back to me without a second thought. She didn't know me to do it on purpose.

Yeah, well, Reva's proven that doesn't give a damn shit for the money. She's probably paying attention to people, and that's not gonna do her any good.

I mean, how many times will she stand to be hurt and keeps on insisting?

Eventually, she'll change, just like I did. And there's nothing to make me go back to the way I was before. Let alone a woman makes me...

I'm giggling at the thought. I hear a knock on the door. I'm sure Claudine's here.

"Come in," I say.

"Sir, Miss Claudine is here," Stephan says.

Speak of the devil!

"Send her in, and don't let anyone disturb us for any reason. Am I made myself clear?"

"Yes, sir."

Stephan opens the door and lets Claudine gets in. As soon as I see her, I narrow my eyes. She's changed clothes and she's wearing a very short black dress. Good! I won't have any trouble with clothes. She's ready for frig, and then get the hell out of here.

I just want to fuck her. She's a nice chick. She's got big tits and curves I'd like to catch for a while. But then, I don't want to see her in front of me. I just want a fucking and get out of here.

At least that doesn't hurt my feelings... Besides, we cleared that up. Only Bridget was able to hurt me. The more she loved me and I loved her, the more she hurt me. But I didn't have the chance to reciprocate. Unfortunately, she was smart and ran away in time.

I had to hurt her too, didn't I? Well, now I will hurt everything that comes in front of me. It's not my fault.

Is it my fault?

They're all whores anyway. All they care about is money and fucking. They're not worthy of anything else.

Why should Riva be an exception?

Reva... Why did you think of her now, Dorian? You are about to fuck a beautiful waitress, and you think about Reva? No... no, this is wrong, and I have to take care not to end up again being an asshole for a chick.

"Will you have a drink?" I ask Claudine.

She looks so eager to get laid with me, and she doesn't give a shit for drinks now. I can see it in her eyes. Her body moves in a surrendered way, so I can do whatever the fuck I have in mind. And I will.

I'm leaving the car in the casino parking lot. I shake my hair a little and go in. I'm approaching Dorian's office. Whatever happens, happens. I can't stand being like this with him. He needs to understand how I feel about him. I'll do anything he asks me to convince him.

Besides it is love, it's worth sacrificing everything, isn't it?

"Hello, Stephan. Is Dorian inside?"

He looks at me troubled, almost bewildered.

Why?

"He's inside, but he's working. I mean, he's busy. I mean, he said not to be disturbed," he minces his words.

That's not good. My heart's starting to beat fast now. Why is Stephan so uptight?

"Is he alone?" I ask and try to swallow the knot in my neck. This knot comes and goes with ease when it comes to Dorian.

Stephan thinks about it for a while, and then he says, "No. He's not alone."

Short breaths come out of me all of a sudden. I'm scared.

"Who's he with?" I ask.

He remains silent.

"Go ahead, Stephan. Don't worry, I won't tell him you told me. Just tell me who he's with," I say as calmly as I can.

"It's... Claudine from King's..." he says and tightens his lips.

Claudine... I'm a little confused. Did he say, Claudine? Did he say it? It's enough to lose my temper and everything else right now. I'm making a move to get in. Stephan's stopping me.

"I'm sorry, Reva, but if I let you in there, at the same time, I'll be looking for a job. And I wouldn't mind, believe me. But right now I can't risk leaving," he apologized.

He's right. Dorian won't hesitate to kick him out if he disobeys his order.

"I'll be at the bar. You never saw me. Agreed?" I say to relieve him of responsibility, and he nods yes.

I'm standing in the corner of the bar trying to figure out what hurts me right now. I realize the amount of pain inside me, so I can deduce just how much I've fallen in love with Dorian.

What am I waiting for? Why am I waiting? For what reason brought Claudine here? Why is he locked up with her in his office? And these tears now are necessary?

My face is on fire. I drown in silence and feel so much pain inside me... Again...