I'm basically depressed every night now-
W h e e z e
Who's ready for a rant about life in general-
I've got lOtS of things to confess that I've held in for way too long

School is a hellhole at this point-
I have no time to work on the things I love, which makes me feel bad for not posting new chapters or working on the game
The only good thing about it is that it lets me get away from my house
And, being in GT, they expect us to be perfect little angels, like there's no problems with us at all
All the teachers care about is making sure we're smart and passing every class

I feel bad for being depressed, and I know what you're going to say: 'it's okay to be sad'
Buuut I get depressed over the simplest things that are probably just me overreacting
Everyone else is always happy, I'm seriously questioning how they do it

And, uh...
Don't kill me
But
I have something to confess
You all know how I have a pocket knife, right?
W e l l
I may or may not have cut myself a few times
I don't do it often (only when I'm at the lowest of lows, and I've never gotten it to bleed
The bad thing is
Whenever I do cut myself, I don't just do one or two-
I just aggressively drag the knife multiple times, sometimes longer or shorter, lighter or harder
So the next morning I always wake up with marks from the knife
Thank goodness for long sleeves-
The people around me would never notice unless I told them, anyway

*jazz hands* LoNeLiNeSs
I feel like I've been drifting away from some of my friends, or they've been drifting away from me
Now I feel nervous when talking to them-
At this point I feel like I'm alone in a sea of darkness, with no one there to help
But that's my life in a nutshell-

Don't get me started on my parents-
They would probably abandon me in a ditch the first chance they get
I can barely stand being in this house anymore
I can't wait for summer and when I can move out of the house
Everything around them is forced
Forced smiles, forced 'i love yous'
They don't even notice
But I guess that's a good thing

*awkwardly slides out*